My Grandpa II

Yesterday , i went to visit my Granpa in the Hospital , finally...
as it was a CICU, only 2 person is allowded to go in each time...
where, u have to clean your hands with hand sanitizer and wear the shoes they provided...
and the doctor said although the anaestatic med should be over by now... and he should be awake, but he doesn't. Hence , the doctor said we have to call him... give him support...

Everyone's mood was very worried and depressed...
nobody knows what we can do ...
Even my cousin, the tough one...
the one who doesn't really cry infront of us...
has put down his pride and .... and let down his tears...

and it was my turn now...
i went in, looking at him...
maybe i don't know how serious the condition was actually...
i just called him to wake up...

Looking at him... he did not give any reaction...
as if he doesn't know we are calling him...
out of a sudden, he breathe very hardly... i dunno, im really shocked..
but after that, nothing happened again... and then we tried to call him up again...
after a while , he breathe very hardly and struggles to open his eyes...
i think it was very tiring and uses a lot of strength and energy for him to do so...
but, he opens his eyes for a while... and closes them back...
i knew he heard us, i knew he was trying very hard...
it was then i felt very nervous... i broke down...
pls, come back....
until then... the visit hours had ended...

i went back....
my mom stayed at the hospital while the others went back to my grandma's house...
hands crossed waiting for a miracle to happen...
my grandma, who is a buddhist... prayed the buddhist way and the christian way...
in order for Jesus and God to protect and bless my Grandpa... so do we...

until the night... my uncle called and said my grandpa was awaked,
but the nurse let him sleep again ... =.="
how hard for him to be awake and u let him sleep back again..
and the reason was to avoid him from stuggling and removing all his tubes from his body...
i don't know what will happen next...
Pls.... wake up ...

My Grandpa

My grandpa is in ICU now,
he just completed his by-pass operation,
my mom said he is still in coma....
lolx.... im really worried,
but i can't do anything....
i never go to the hospital... all his condition is what my mom told me...
she says there was many tubes connected to his body...
please god... let him wake...
He is too kind to be treated like that...

Thinking back, he is really a good grandpa...
although he has many grandchildren, he still remember that i love to eat fish...
everytime he bought fish back, he will give some to my mom and said " Ah-girl " likes to eat...

Thinking back again, i had done nothing for him.... such a failure...

Thinking back again, when i was 3, my old house at Sri Muda was flooded . It is him who brings a boat in and rescue us... As his hobby was fishing, he has his own boat last time.... although my memory was a little blurred and i can't remember much... But i remember at that time , the water level is at my father's chest... and he brought a boat in... and because the motor of the boat can't work... he and my father push the boat while walking in the water...

He was a loving Grandpa... pls make him wake.

3 things im fed up of ! today !

lets start with the simple one....

1. I have not recieve my NS letter...; what is the date now? when will I recieve it? the bloody day b4 is it? LOLX ! and then the internet says the program starts at 4th of Jan , but the online letter says the program starts at 2nd Jan... aiyo ! i really dunno what to do !

2. My handphone.... keep offing by itself ! the only time it will work is when it was charging. and it is impossible to charge my phone everynight without using it rite? AIYO !!!! hate it so much !

3. the crux one ! because my hp doesn't work quite properly ! i can't reply messages! and this one person.... because i did not reply and i am sure i explained the reason, the person said i lied to him ! this is what i hate most... i hate ppl say i lied when i did not.... The lack of trust really made me very disappointed !
Okay , the whole story started when i finish my SPM ! of coz.... i wont bother my hp lar... and hence i honestly tell him im lazy to reply.... c ! rather than making up stories, i honestly told that i am lazy to reply.... and it was now that my handphone really spoiled, the person thought that i lied ! why in the wortld would this happen to me ! lolx !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, tats all ~ bb ~

An 8 ppl gathering ~

Today, as planned,
we went to Bkt Cahaya, followed by IOI Mall...

1st , we started our journey on 8 AM ,
well, it was not veyr jam... and i forgot what time we arrived, haha...
the entrance fee was RM 3, okay ~
so, the 1st thing we saw when we went in is the paddy field,
although it was a little small, and looks more like a " lalang " field to me ,
haha.... but then it was also okay...
we had our picnic there,
we had sushi, pasta and sandwich...
which we can't finish up everything....

then , we head to the animal zoo,
it was a little limited with animals , but okay lar.... can go too
erm, there is a parrot who will say hello when u said hallo... haha !
then there was porcupime where they will come to you waiting for you to feed them,
and then tis Lim went and give a piece of leaf,
unexpectedly they ate...
haha... then there was this dove... erm, a bull, horses.... goose, peacock....
okay, not to mention , we were exhausted !
because the road was long and steep !
then after a long walk, we went to the Four Season House, s now is Winter season,
it was snow inside a room...
it was written there that the tempertaure is between -2 to -7 ....
ok, when went in, we thought that they will provide sweaters or jacket....
but no , so we have to go in there with only our clothes...
it was very VERY cold....
haha... there are vapours when we talked...
and it was not like Genting Highlands Snow World where we get to walk around, it was just a smal lane for you to walk.... erm, like side seeing lar...
but the snow was real ~

and then we decided to head IOI Malls !
after reaching there, we went Red Box Karaoke !
i think we paid RM 10 .... and we sang for so long... so nice !
haha ~!

oh, and the best part ! " Tron Legacy " ! VERY NICE !!
most importantly , the leading actor was very handsome ! hehe !

and then after dinner, we went home ... i reach home at almost 8.45pm....

and then only i know my dad hasn't eaten his dinner ! he knew how to cook for the dog but doesn't cook for himself... lolx... haha...
so i made salad ! easy and clean !
and that was my day ! fun !

i think this was going to be a full stop for my salad days .... with friends.... do you think so ?

Mid Valley Day !

Today i went to MidValley CC for the fuure studies exhbition....
b4 that, i would like to mention HOW JAM IT WAS ! i doun't understand, so many parking lots, yet, all full ! Why ah ?

lolx !!!!
and then, erm we went surveying the place....
and then i kinda like this USCI , but i don't wanna move away fr home .
hence, 2 choices which i will make after my results come out....

1. If my results are real gd, means 10 A+/A, I will go for Taylors, or INTI or USCI.
2. If i got A-, then i will go for TARC or UTAR, as the requirement is lower...

And of course , it will be March or April intake... and... haha.. so jealous watching PY registered .... hmm..... k la, wait 3-4 more months only.... haha.... HV FUN PUI YENG! WISH U ALL THE BEST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and one more thing, u no , for studying medics in IMU, they will only give full tuition fee waiver for only 1 person every year ! lolx ! That was so not me ! so haha.... wouldn;t think so far yet ...

and then...
i bought the " liese " hair dye...
pink colour for RM 37.80....
and the effect is not really obvious...
swt, 1st time i dye my hair... and i get this effect... fine....

erm, ok, this is it....
going py hse tomorrow, although not stayin overnite...
but still looking foward ....
toodles !

Abt Friendship

You know what,
i totally agree wid PY,
All of us have a different route, different pathway already...
although we stay so near to each other,
we will probably be bz preparing for our future life...
even Twins started working already... how fast...
and planning a Trip to Bkt Cahaya? is that the name ?
i 4got... hahax !
it is also a hard thng to do...
Mindless the Genting trip which i am unable to follow...

LOLX !
And yesterday, my mom asked me for my plan on further studies...
I really dunno...
it is not that there are many options,
because i know i will onlt choose either INTI, TARC or UCSI .
But, of course i want to find for the most affordable one,
because if im really taking medics in the future, i will have to spend a lot of money...
If I already spent a big amount of money on my A levels,
Ok larh, RM 16K++
then how abt my undergraduate studies?

lolx ! then my mom said abt the scholarship,
and i was thinking y don't we ask everything nicely during the trip to Midvalley...
Because i myself also not very sure should i apply for Alevels and they approve first only i should apply for scholarship...
And i am also not sure whether i really can score 10 A...
although i think and think about how i did my spm... i dunno larh !

>.<

And then my dad suggest whether i shud go to TARC in Johor , because it is near my po po's hse , and he said maybe i can accompany the old ones...
actually, for Alevels, i feel that anywhere also can, if u realy hope that i study there, it is ok for me also... haiz... anyway... i will decide everything by the time the exhibition comes....

13.12.2010

How fast,
its already 13th of December 2010,
what have i done?
i dunno, except preparing for exam....
my life is only dramas...
hahax !
im gonna have my last paper on wednesday...

no special feelings....
Oh ! and i watch the drama " No Regrets "
The starting was very nice....
But until the end... it was a little boring...
Nevertheless.... it was a remarkable storyline...
a very tragic love story ^^....

And then i kinda fall in love with this " Lau Sing" character...
haha !

And... im preparing for ns.... im going...
although because of this i can't plan a lot of things,
anyway, im going to MidValley for the open day thing( i think)
haha !

My Grandfather admitted to the hospital today,
he is going to operate this week...
I really hope everything will be fine...

Celine Dion - The Power Of Love (Live)

The song i loved most ! and i belive its a song that everyone love !

A Day b4 Bio Paper

I still remember what am i doing a day b4 Bio paper....
mwahaha....
regardless of the need to study,
my mom and I went watching "No regrets " 10 episode one shot...
haha... and we slept at 4 am...
lol, my 1st time sleeping so late 2gether wid my mom,
if me alone, of coz , many times already... haha

and then ,
when i need to study bio...
my eyes was like glued by a superglue or something stronger...
no matter how long the nap i took was, the same thing happened....
i was so worried... a few hours for 1++ chapter....
n then, the condition went better during the night , thank god...

anyway, i have no comment for the bio paper...

and now, its time to figure out my life after this....
decisions decisions and decisions !
which i hated... y can't it be like sec school where everything is already arranged nicely for you...

Nvm lar, we need to grow up... cannot rely on anybody everytime...
i und der... hehe

National Service...

lol, i no which place im in already,
it was kuala kubu bharu or something like that which is located in Ampang...
and i kept on convincing my mom not to worry about me...
everything is gonna be fine...
but it doesn't last long...
because i myself can't convince myself that everything is gonna be alright...
mind that im the only one in batch 1....
and im gonna face this all alone by myself...
leaving my hse for 3 months is already what i don't like most...
and i dunno how is it going to be...
what if nobody wanna be frenz wid me? what if it is a dangerous place...
then my neighbour come saying... now is the rainy season n sure gt many spirits come out ...~.~lol.....

i dunno larh...
then ? what will be my plan after national service?
Form 6 , A-levels or foundation in science ??
coz actually i haven't even choose which course to take after that ...
although i've been telling everyone im considering medics, but is this the course i really love? is this the course i would be interested in? i dunno....

and i just realise.... i wont meet the chinese boys anymore unless there is a gathering, lol... haha... now oni i know...except ann....
and then i realise , after chem paper, i wont hv a chance to meet non-bio frenz anymore, unless there r gatherings....
n after my last paper, im counting down for 2 more weeks to ns !

lol, actually im afraid.... afraid to leave home, afraid to be lonely....
argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 Days of SPM

This is the 3rd day of my SPM already...
so fast....
Today was History...
OMG ! I still remember how i studied this few days...
Anyway, the Paper 1 was easy, and i only got 3 wrong,
which i can't believe it, but i put on effort, so .... yeah !
but soliheen gt all correct, which i dun even wanna care by now already because its not important to me anymore...
What i cared is how i scored only...
But the paper 2 was devastating....
so cruel....
all that came out is not what i read...
only 2 questions i really read proiperly, which i know that i still can't score full because i cant remember some of the points...
and others was only like a guessing game...
although i read that before , but it was days n weeks ago already....
the chapters which i really put on effort to study didn't come out...
and this was the ed of it already...
no matter how hard u did... it has come to an end,
which means the thing you studied so hard for nothing,
is uselesss already by now....

i really feel like banging my head to the wall !
damn stupid !
how am i gonna face my parents, my teachers , the ones that hv high hope on me ?!
hence, this was the thing that would happen if you did not study your text book
THOROUGHLY !

This is fate my dear, face the reality, u nv fall, u nv learn...
but i dun wanna fall, i promise i would learn,
pls dun make me fall....

Don't Ask !

Oh! u watch Asian Games in Guangzhou ?
u watch that badminton match yesterday among CW Lee n Lin Dan ?
OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I supported CW Lee coz ... we Malaysian kua...
i some more go bet with my father ... if he wins, he get to eat Hokkein mee, i belanja, but if im the one who win, im gonna hv dominoes . =.="
So, the conclusion was, he won . >.<

Oh ! and did u watch the Mens doubles between Indonesia n Malaysia?
That was so close !!!!!!!!!!!!
And so , this is what i have been doing these few nights ! haha....

Dont ask y am i still updating my blogs when tomorrow is gonna be my SPM.
I dunno, too much devils beside me?
haha... no la...
just me.... im the one !
so stupid...
then when i go in fb... omg ! so scary, none of the ppl i know is onlining !
gosh , this scene is so scary, haha !
anyway, hope my spm can go on succefully...
hope that i can hv great achievements...
oh, my grandma went back Johor already today...
so , my room is prepared to transform into a warzone !!
nwahaha....
since that when my grandma is here, im afraid that she would trip on tables n books and hence, i dont plan to bring a small table into my room to stack up the books i need to use...
but now... my room will be in a mess in no time...
hehe....
k la, toodles .

To : Fikri !

Oh Great,
at last i know what the hell is happening...
u will just totally regret what u had said to me...
yeah ! i make ur life miserable...
out of my stupid n naive thinking that out of so many things, i think u r actually ok n there is no harm to be frenz with u...

n then out of a sudden, when i just sms 4 fun commenting that u r so "belagak" today...
n i get scolded from u , which i think even my best friendz doesn't talk to me like that b4... and this is not the 1st time u do this to me !

and then after so many smses u said u don't mean to...

sometimes i feel very confused... i really dunno what shall i do, especially knowing what i shouldn't know... knowing what that should be a secret from the start...

so tiring...

imagine if i treated u the same way...

n u r rite, i din tok to u in school n its u who mostly start a conversation.
Sadly, yeah ! this is me ! all my ex`boyfriends mentioned to me the same thing... so what .this is me , acccept the fact... noted that we r frenz .

do u no that sometimes u can be a gd fren n sometimes u reli drive me crazy... each n every word i say also i must think twice, coz im afraid that u will really go n kill urself n whatsoever ! Y R U DOING THIS ! THIS IS UR BLOODY LIFE ! APPRECIATE LAR ! OTHERS WANNA LIVE ALSO CANNOT ! U PRAY TO GOD FOR TAKING UR LIFE! WTH WTH WTH !

and im so stupid to worry that if one day u die is it going to be my bloody fault? or maybe im just thinking that u r to weak to accept the bloody fact that you wouldn't accept ! i guess we all o what im mentioning here.

just say im evil or watever, im tired of facing all of this man !
well, i hope u read this. bye .

[Undisclosed Clip] 2AM

omg ! i watch this n i keep on laughing.... haha

movie movie

u no wat,
i just cried yesterday....
i feel so silly of crying....
y ?
becoz my cousins n reatves come to stay for 2 nites at my hse,
and so , my mom suggest to bring them for a movie,
and she came to my room to tell me that they are going out for a movie,
at the same time , im studying la....
then i just look at my sejarah ook w/o saying a word,
then she said since u wanna go then go la....
then i sat down n look at her,
i said i dun wanna go, i sked i wll regret....
n i cried....
wth !!! so stupid....
then she said nvm la, one movie oni mar....
lolx..... y ah?
haha....

long long time ~

After a very "long" time leaving my blog....
i hv so many things i wanted to say ... but it seems like ... i had no time...

1. My Sunway Lagoon trip with 3 of my frez.... i wanna share plenty of things here but... once again, i dun hv the time...

2. I went to I-city the day before with my families and my father's friend... lolx, there are also things that i wanted to share ... but when i hv the time... the feeling is different already... the things i wanna mentioned is only the tickets are expensive... RM 10 per car.... means the entrance... don't go more than 5 ppl because u will need to pay extra money inside... and it should be more lively... maybe a few bistro n pubs... coffee shops ? or a life band , a few boutiques might improve the place...

3. One more month n im leaving the school... imagine the school losing me ! haha... no la, im not that important, but anyway, although i dun really like my skool, i will also miss my sec life... too many memories... love n friendship ... haha... n living an easy life also... at least u no u can rely on someone... well, im actually growing up .

4. oo, bz with homeworks... trying really hard to study... but just couldn't concentrate fully... although i already trying so hard to leave the computer... i even let my mom take my monitor away... haha ! but when i am alone in the room , after reading not more than 2 pages of Sejarah, my eyes are wandering aroung finding things... hearing music fr my hp... taking photos using hp... haha...

And i figured out... ok , off the hp ! when i am out of the hse only i will on it, so , call my hse phone if wanna contact me =) .

ok. bb .

Editted MV - Adam Cpl

Adam Couple in We Got Married....

watching "we g6t married "
and i fell in love with this couple...
dunno y, just feel very attractive...
especially their bali wed. photo....
lolx, i also want... haha
and i finish watching all adam cpl episode liao,
seriously, finish liao....
im so proud of myself in this side of mine lor... haha,
but i wont be this efficient in my studies... keke....
Nevertheless, these are the google search pictures i get....
so sweet ~\
and the pic i luv most is when Ga In is in the bathtub... hehe
credits to : http://wgmadamcouple.wordpress.com/2010/07/26/instyle-magazine-adam-couple-wedding-photoshoot-hq-magazine-scans/

失败

今天，
一向来都被成功宠坏的我，
遇上了失败和挫折 。。。
一向来都自以为是的我，
终于被真实打败了。。。
我本来对这次的考试充满希望，
却换来一次又一次的绝望。。。

当时，我明明有时间把全部的题目都做完，
但，
因为懒惰，
我只是把该做的做完而已。。。
其它的，
我也懒的理，
就这样，现在就要怪自己也没有这个权利 。。。

失败的我。。。

Quarrel ...

Today, i did something really bad...
really very very bad,
i should get striked lightning when i walked out of my hse...
u no what happen...
so leh, yest. night, means few hours b4 la,
i was watching the list of movies in pps, excited to watch,
and then i went to the Nicholas Cage option, and i wanted to watch National Treasure 2, before even hv time to c what movie it has, my father had called,
so i went out of the room to c what happen,
he asked me to refill the biscuit tin with biscuits...
then i was thinking, " Fine, y can't you do it yourself ?" n because i was too excited n longing to read through the list, i said that he was annoying...
in front of him...
then he said " next time, you don't ever ask me to do anything for you... "
My heart was like shattering into pieces....
i dunno what to do...
i just walked away.... figuring out what to do next...
and then after he watched his movie, i went to apologise to him...
but he nv talked to me ....
i dunno what to do...
i no i was wrong, i shouldn't act like that, i should be striked by the lightning...
i should get punished...
sometimes, i rather getting scolded... but not being ignored ar neglected...
im really scared that his heart was shattered to pieces also... im scared that he wouldn't forgive me, even if he forgive me, i'm scared that he wouldn't be like last time anymore.... im sorry ... im really really sorry...

Recently, what i said really hurt someone... i really should get lightning strike ! i must get !!! lolx ! I HATE MYSELF ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Continue...

about what i mentioned yesterday,
i figured out that i should not do anything further...
how can what i wished ever happened,
im just acting naive here....
ok , fine.... bye bye...

Facebook =)

i saw something....
dunno leh, gt terasa sikit
but like very perasan wor if i comment....
but i wanna know....
but how if things turn up not as i wish...
so "yu" lor.... embarrasing...
lolx, but i hope ....
i dunno lar....

ok , i did something liao...
hope it turns out as what i wished...
oh god....sked sked...

sorry =(

sorry,
i really dunno what to do to you....
i no i shouldn't treat you like that...
but i really dunno what to say...
you say no one is loving you.... what am i suppose to say....
Furthermore, i don't even have the rights to tell you anything about your life...
i feel guilty of not saying anything abt your "experience"...
sorry....

hope that u r ok... take care....

my mom has came back !

ok, today my mom came back,
it should be yesterday but becoz something she came back today...
anyway, she bought me 3 t-shirts n a dress...
i luv that dress so much , so graceful n elegant,
most importantly , its white ! hehe...
n there is a Levi's t-shirt...
OMG ! lolx... 1st time having something with Levi's brand....
she told me that she also dunno y she bought that...
but anyway... thx !
and everything went back to normal....

N i wanna kill myself lor...
this 3 days... most of my time is for dramas...
i no i shud study, but i just cant leave the computer...
n now,im still blogging....
haiz... i dunbo wat happen to me...

oh, n my mom said study at Singapore la !
dunno leh, i also want but i sked...
anyway, hope i hv the opportunity la...

I cried ~

ok, i cried....
haha, ang dun laugh !

coz, today my mom went to Singapore, with my bro n my aunty n my grandparents n my great grandmother....
and i can't go...
That is not the reason i cried of course,
because a few weeks before i had already accepted the fact that i couldn't go,
coz gt trial exam...
and my mom had ask me whether she should go without me, and i said she should because she really deserve it, she should have some time for herself.... without anything around her to be worried...

and so after school, she said goodbye... and i was thinking, ok , bye bye... without feeling anything special...coz i already accepted the fact as i mentioned before...

ok, then my dad came back with the salted chicken and we ate that for dinner with tv (ka hou yuet yun)... hehe...

omg, then all the hse chores i did, washing the plates, moping the floor, cleaning all the stuff...fold clothes , keeping everyone's clothes into the cupboard (which i normally won't even mine )"rendam"ing the clothes....changing my bed sheet !
because normally i only did moping n sweeping n rendam clothes... now everything...
fine, im still worrying if i will hv time to hang up the clothes tomorrow...

ok, then i called my mom, its not a request , but i just feel like calling her...
then when i heard her sound i started to cry... i dunno why, but just talking with her in the phone and tears coming uncontrollably. especially when ending the phone... i managed to sound okay in the phone because i really want her to have fun... so by the time the phone ends... i started to cry to myself... to the walls of my room... lolx, sound so pathetic... haha....dunno y? because i miss her? i think so... probably...

then my bro come calling again... he talk like how i talked to my grandpa in the phone...(hv u eaten? what had u eat for dinner? ...) LOLX ! SWT... haha... and this made me cry once again....

lolx... haiz... pls let me score for add math 2morrow...(>.<)

Happy Birthday to you...

the pic i took when i went back to kg...

yesterday was my birthday... ^^
and i had a good time,
1st , at school, before starting my English exam,
the whole class had sang a " Happy Birthday" song for me...
it was our class trend actually... haha ...
then , after school, i received present from my "sei dong ".... haha ^^
I had 2 t-shirts, a lip gloss, a Secret Recipe cake and a key chain...
not to mention that i had a kiss from Fatimah... haha,
seriously, she kissed my cheeks.... haha....

and of course, numerous greetings from old friends and new friends...
of coz im happy la, when you went back n u saw your facebook profile and sms....

K, then i went to a friend's house , Faiz for open house for Hari Raya....
hehe.... 1st time i go to friends house for hari raya.... so dunno what to do...
so , after i step into his house, i salam with his mother and two aunties...
which i just agak-agak abt how to salam because i really dunno...
but of course, my respect towards them is at the max...
then i ate nasi lemak in his house...
which they use a plastic tea-pot to wash hands first before eating, another new theory for me...

OK, and since there was a Birthday cake for me... Pui Yeng drive us to my house... and we sang the birthday song for me.... ^^
and cut the cake...
after boasting for some time, when they mention they are going back, Yong Qi said she wanted to visit my room...

Haha... dunno y , when i say my room is messy, everybody gets excited... haha ^^

Ok , then at night, my father brought us to the "K-box" in Digital Mall....
Its a new karaoke centre la....
RM 44++ per person... coz its a Friday...
and because there are food also la....
it is also reasonable la coz there are oysters ans sushi and lots of deserts too...
but i only wanted to hold the mike that i refuse to go out and take my food...
haha....
hence, the night was only about singing but not eating, i only had a few sushi and salmon piece...
and the rest of the night, im singing....
my brain was like " Hey Girl, you are lacking of oxygen la !" haha....
but i really had a blast....
from 7- 12 something im in the room.... hehe
stupid la ! my handphone camera spoil !!

and here, i wanna express my gratitude to all of you that loved me... thank you very much !

I had no courage ... where am i to hide my face ...
I don't know what to do....

fine... im stopping here ...
I don't even have the courage to say it out .... great !
coward bitch !

these are all my frenz ...

I will miss all of you ! ^^
ask me y im doing this...
haha, ya , just to waste some time while escaping fr my sej book...
i wanted to do this long ago di, but doesn't hv a chance,
now u go....
^^

One week of holiday... bye bye

One week of holiday already pass....
I dunno what the hell im doing....

Study ? Yes, i studied, but it turns out that i gain nothing,
when looking at the quest, i still have to refer my ref. book...
i mean, all the things aren't i my brain.... y?

aiya, god knows la....
then , when looking at my ref book....
im like only reading it, but not remembering it.... shit !
and i couldn't concentrate !
fine ! fine !
i no i will regret one day ...
fine, the day my result come out....
if i couldn't score...
im gonna hate myself....
im gonna try to kill myself !
commit suicide....
and its the end of me...
IM DOOMED !!!!!!

MWAHAHAHAHAHAH !!!!!!

Fav . ! (female artist )

of, coz , they are pro and gd looking too...
dun forget to check out on the male artist below .



1. Charmaine Sheh... most fav one....



2. Selena Li.... sweet looking...



3. Fala Chen.... cute !



4. Zhang Jing Chu... pretty , saw her latest movie ?? "The City Under Siege"



5. Charlene Choi ... aw , another cute and lovingly one...



6. Jennifer Garner . check out her movies in" 13 going 30", "Valentines Day ", " Ghost of Girlfriend's Past ", "Invention of Lying " and much more... love her movie!



7. Anne Hathaway . Her movies : " Alice in Wonderland ", "Princess Diaries 1 & 2" , "Valentines Day " and many more !



8. Jolin Tsai



9. Jeanette Aw.... Singapore actress.... luv luv luv !



10. Hilary Duff

Fav . ! (male artist )

like them coz in a polite way, gd looking, haha....



1. Louis Koo.... ah ! gd looking and pro actor, haha



2. Daniel Wu, same reason... keke... like both of their movies...



3. Ryan Reynolds.... oh, u should see him in the movie " The Proposal".... Hv u seen his Hugo Boss advertisement?



4. Gerald Butler.... amazing acting.... in " The Bounty Hunter ", " Law Abiding Citizen" and so much more...



5. Zac Efron... ok ok lar... hehe



6. Lee Hom .... lolx, everyone agrees he is sooo leng zhai, hehe...



7. Lee Sun Gyun, dunno why , but just attracted to him, maybe influence by his character in the drama "Pasta" .



8. Wu Chun .... in the movie " 13 Blades "



9. Wilber Pan



10. Lastly, Hinz Zhang, coz his songs are nice...

change

its time to change...
I wanna change myself completely....
1. i cut my hair... a big step !
2. i ponteng... haha, no la, tat one just becoz i dunwan go school....


3, 4, 5.... lets c... wait ....

Unlucky Day !!!

you know what happen to me today??
today is a Wednesday, and so me and Yi Xiu should walk home,
but if we go for lunch, my mom is free to fetch us at 3....
Hence, we went for lunch and we waited for until 3.30 pm like that...
So, i went to call my mom...
and my mom said she is still working and couldn't come...
i was like, i waited for so long and you at last you ask me to walk home...
actually, im ok with it... so wat? walk home walk home la..
but i really feel remorseful for yi xiu,
she paid for the transport ... and now i need her to walk home with me...
and the distance is also not short...
although yi xiu never say anything,
but if im her mother, i will be very angry lor....
luckily half way my dad also come and fetch us...

So what i felt angry is ....
WHY IS HANDPHONE PROHIBITED FORM SCHOOL !
AND BLOODY PUBLIC PHONE THAT DOESN'T WORK WELL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I KENA MARAH FROM THE RESTAURANT TO BORROW THE PHONE TO CALL !!!!!
THAT IS THE 1ST TIME I CALLED....
my mom said eat and wait, and the 2nd time i call , she ask to walk back....
im not blaming my mom....
coz she also dunno my dad is so free at home ....
what la... the conclusion is... bad luck today.....

Sorry Yi Xiu, Sorry.....

THE SCAR !

can you see the scar ??
its from my head !
y ?
because my head terhempas at the edge of the window....
omg ! haha... but i still can bear the pain la...
my dog still knows how to sayang me ... haha...

Love

Love really exist?
Or is it just simply no one knows how to respect it?
Or maybe "love" is just a verb,
where people only imagined it to make things look perfect?


Bullshit !

Time, don't Go !

don't go....
i really don't wanna grow up !
i really wanna just maintain in this stage...
I don't want to face something new...
i hope that everything can turn out to be good,
but why it isn't?

OMG !
it was like im growing old and is going to die anytime !
i haven't have enough childhood...
i don't want what so called as adulthood,
so many conflicts...
P.S. IM NOT BEING HISTORICAL !

Maybe you would say,
rather than worrying so much here,
why not appreciate time ?
but that is not what i want,
maybe i hope to be like Peter Pan, a boy that wouldn't grow...

Im facing a problem here,
i don't even know whether it exist,
just suspecting,
i really hope it is not real,
but if it is ,
please be honest ,
leave me and my family...
i don't need a person like that....
i know you love me...
but... don't do things that i really feel disappointed on you...
Don't let this be real ! please, i beg you ...

My blog is almost one year old !

this is not the thing i wanna post actually,
but since suddenly realize, hence...

wa...
looking back at my blog post...
hehe... 128 post...
all my feelings,
some made me laugh, some made me feel a little sad...
really lat me think fo so many things...
memories are forever sweet...
how lovely...
even the sad ones are also sweet and memorable,
out of 128 post,
6 post i never post it out,
sensitive issue...
haha,


and 1 more post is abt family,
not confessing or posting out...
XP ... XD....

Wedding and Labour !!

well frenz.....
on my way finding idea for informations...

this is the blog where she writes abt her life ...
nice... gt baby...
http://markandmeg04.blogspot.com/search/label/karis%27%20birth

this is a blog abt a wedding photographer....
http://www.andylim.com/blog/sim-arisa-wedding/

Looking at thise wedding photos....
I had some thoughts...
how can a wedding turn out to be a disaster? a divorce?
how sweet it was, the smile on their face...
why ? so sad lor....

12.8.2010

Lolx, on the way writing my essay,
have not started ...
but finding information now...
The title is " I t was the most exciting moment in my life "....
And i planned to write on delivering a baby...
Although i don't have any experience la.... haha
That's why i have on find information on the internet...
And i find it wonderful - these mothers...
They commented that the pain was unbearable and it was like squeezing all your organs at the same time... and pushing is the only relieve,
unless you chose for cesarean or taking the injection - epidural ....

hmm... see how hard our mother did to bring us into this world...
lolx, touching lor.... haha...

10.8.2010

Guess what i wanna say today?? hehe....
actually i kept thinking wat i wanna write during the day,
but i forgot di... keke...

1. I find it very hard to trust people lar....
excluding my BFF'S la...haha...
coz ... dunno le...
The 1st second i willingly believe you, but after that i will like doubt abt wat i did...
I will ask myself many times that do you really know this person?
What if he has another character which i do not know?
Who knows maybe one day he/she will stab you at the back?
Don't judge a book by its cover?
lolx....

2. Y do ppl hv conflicts mostly about money? Haiz.... damn ! i also dunno hw to start... Anyway "hoi yan hoi gei" !
If this stupid thing that happen ever make conflicts between my parents ar.... shit la... you lose my respect to you ! Pls la, hv mercy to my mom !

5.8.2010

Lol, i online again, hehe ....
Its already August...
means there is only more or less 3 months to SPM...
means there is more or less 4 months until we won't meet each other...
as frequent as now...
every morning going to school what i hope to c is all of you,
after 7 hours of studying...
boasting at the bus stop with all of you... is also what im longing...

And all of us now is already in our 17's...
is it true that when your age increase, things to worry will also increase?
hehe... directly proportional...
I hope you guys are happy...
and until today i accidentally linked myself to Jazz's blog through Jasmin blog...
only i no u hv a blog...lolx, what fren am i?
n there it is...a person who hangs a smiley face has also her prob...
hope she can solve her prob la...

Miss you miss you miss you.... saranghaeyo !

Appreciate...

That Saturday,
I went to add math tuition and heard a love story from my sir...
Wow, erm, lazy to tell the whole story... keke
but the conclusion is, loving you is not because of beauty or sex...
Its just purely I Love You...
My sir is willing to take care of a cancer patient w/o letting her know that he actually loves her...
And the cancer patient die in peace, i think...and she will nv no that he loves her.
And he became an add math sir because the girl loves add math....
Power of Love can't be questioned...
Wow ! so touching ...
The story let me believe that there is still true love...


ok, bb...

from afraid,
to escape,
decided to face it...
im happy now...

26.7.2010

Today there's a new German boy in our school,
erm, exchange student i think,
and he is currently studying in 4 Bakti,
So since there is no teacher during Moral time,
We all discussed about that German boy,
not for long...
N then we started playing "getting married"...
haha....stupid la, form 5 liao, still play this kind of things....immatured, haha!
but then hor....
i dunno who he is saying la....
but he said y ppl now so fat hao....
lol! asking only is not call fat hao...
like if a new boy/girl come to our school,
we also will give the same reaction,like asking many questions....
for example : like Fatimah or Soliheen or even Victor...

And then this Victor , lol ! Her kept on boasting of his old school ,
swt ! nvm la....
suan liao.....

hmm... this percubaan coming...
GUD LUCK ! pls.....
pls give me gd results....
and of coz same goes for SPM....
ok , tata

a phrase i like... dunno y , but it sounds comfortable : Bon Voyage !

The Chronicles Of Narnia : Voyage of the Dawn Treader - Official Trailer...

Bye bye .

21.7.2010

written with love by,
Jocelyn....
on 0829 Hour
in Malaysia .

BIG BANG - Tell Me Goodbye

Tell Me Goodbye lyrics
Letting you go... (here's somebody...)
Letting you go... (here's somebody...)
Yo I got this, yeah
Still thinking about this thing a lot
You got me shaken up
(Please tell me there's a way)
And it got my head just spinnin' round round round round
(Please tell me there's a way)
Don't wanna take a fall
It's best to break it up
It's gonna be better for you, move on
(Please tell me there's a way)
Uh huh we break it break it
Or thought we make it make it
And now we cover it up

Girl I swear kimi no koto wo ichibyou demo
Kanashimasenai yakusoku
Mamoru tame ni wa mo moukoreshika
Erabu michi wa nai kara

Baby aishita bun dake kizutsuketeshimau
And I've got nothing, nothing to say

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Hanasou
Boku wo wasureru koto ni jiyuu ni naru nara Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

Girl you know kimi ga egao wo naku shitaku hodo
Boku wa jibun mo semeru yo
Nego semeru kotoba mo hikari sae mo
Nanimokamo miushinau

Baby kono kuchibiru ga hanareta shunkan
I'll never find better, better than you

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Hanasou
Soba ni iru koto dake ga yasashisa janai to Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

Yo and it's so, so
Sad it just ain't happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to scrapping
But I just can't let ya
Shouldn't be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn't live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve
Baby you was a part?
Must believe that it hurts
That lead this world
I feel the aching through my body
It just takes a bigger part of me
To be let you go
I wish that weren't so...

Kimi no koe setsunaku fade away... away-ay-ay-ay
Kaze ni kakikesareteyuku stay... stay-ay-ay-ay

Kore ijou wa I can't take it, sono namida don't cry for me
Kimi no tame never look back again

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Hanasou
Soba ni iru koto dake ga yasashisa janai to Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye

16.7.2010

1. I got the national service thing ! lolx, haha.... i dunno how to comment on this. Should i be happy or sad ?? lol, at first i tot that this thing is only a waste of time.. And then when i had one night to think about it, i feel that it is not bad trying this type of activities too.... Despite of getting yourself a roasted skin..^^
I mean like, if you nv participate in this, like not a true Malaysian, haha....Anyway, i gt my name on the list, so i will leave it to fate.

2. Oh, Raymond and Charmaine will have a new drama . (Colourful World of Sister Fa ) ...Charmaine will play a mental - retarded person....0.o
This drama hasn't started yet... but it will be aired next year ! Yeah ! They act together again ^^

3. Charmaine and Moses new drama will be aired on Sept : Can't buy me love.... Mwahaha... Yes !

4. I went to PY hse today, coz gt stay back rite... hahaha.... an unforgettable scene : Marly bite Jasmin's shoe w/o reason.... lol.... u shud c her face that time... so funny.... lol !

5. I think this is it... bb

14.7.2010

i feel damn depressed today...
y all the decisions i make recently can hurt other ppl so easily!
im such a bitch !
maybe i shouldn't say anything using my bloody mouth anymore!
wth !!!!
wat a bitch !

13.7.2010

OK, this would be the last post already, i promise...
Coz what happened today really lower down my mood....

1. If blog isn't a place 4 some one to express their feelings , then where is ? Lolx, sometimes when im thinking of something, only here is the only place i wanna express out... but it seems like posting something out here also need to care about peoples feelings... y? then whr should i go? Talking in the phone with no one, just like talking to your ownself... lol, i really think that one day i will do the same thing also...

2. Im going crazy... i've met so many problems today and i dont know how to solve them to make everything better....
(a) Fikri ( i hurt his heart ...) i wanna appologize.... but ....

(b) YX & Ray ( I dunno if i shud believe what YX say abt Tong & guys n believe of what chong said ).... Anyway, i hope that this thing is this thing n our friendship is our friendship... Dont this thing ever spoil our friendship !

(c) SEJARAH... STILL GT SO MANY CHAPTER !

(D) EXAM PRESSURE !

3. lol, my dad is on a lift today, so he stayed at home. Since my mom is working, she asked my dad to hang up all the clothes, lol... so funny .... haha

OK, this must be the last post liao ! lol !!!!!

12.7.2010

1. My class won the class terbersih for last week, i shud be happy, but once i realise i need to go on stage... haha, i hope tat we don't win... but we won also larh 4 this week...

2. yesterday, i went Kuala Selangor with my grandparents....lol, went there at 1pm, n went back at6++....onlt to buy fish n prawns... hehe... then on the way back, my mom went to check her hse which is rented to a Malay couple.... n she gt a shock of her life ! the Malay cpl ran away n still owing 2 years of rental.. lol... wth! shit the 2 person...


3. As usual, moral no teacher.... so we berborak-borak in the class only, then suddenly dunno who started but they mentioned bout ray. smoking... lolx... n joyce cry...haiz... sorry....

4. i decided already... no more dramas... 3 more months oni ma, i can der... 3 more months = 6 new drama... mwahaha... im gonna tackle all of u after my exam... Gambateh !

5. I hope this will be the last post for my blog until my exam ended.... my god...
haha... becoz i no i spent too much time on this... n now it is time to stop....hope i hv stronger determination... bb blog... i will come back der... haha...

tata... =)

Natural Bridal Look

Watch this in Youtube, well, i love all her videos on make up n i think this is the prettiest among all, enjoy !

10.7.2010

1. Yesterday, 4 episode of drama = 33 missed calls... what the hell, stop calling me ! damn pressure you know... lolx, its either you want me to feel guilty or you just call for fun ! but i really cant take it ! and the fact is we are just friends, call damn many time for what ! either you are in bad mood or what, you shouldn't call me so many times too....lol, so annoying !!!! I dun mean to be sarcastic of offending, but i really cant stand people calling me so many times which i dun reli wanna answer n the reception is so bloody bad N U R A BOY ! haiz, just sorry, im not tat kind of person...
N i dun wanna tell u (what do i care if u open minded or wat) because these words hurt...

2. Today morning, once i wake up, i did breakfast for me n my bro, hang up all the clothes n iron the clothes for one week... phew...N im thinking that once my mom come back from work then got new drama to watch...And then it seems like nothing came out to what i expected . I ajak my mom to buy new drama n she said, buy for what, you are going tuition later... then she said, yala, i ask u go out eat lunch but u dun wan !Lol ! wth... u promised yesterday....damn bloody disappointed !Drama seriously kill me... lol...

3. PY said she wanna compete wid me this trial... lol... i not yet even start to study ....anyway la, i just want all A... pls...I hope i can get scholarship for A levels... pls...

4. Singapore Drama : New Beginnings... starring Jeanette Aw... quite nice....

1. Looks like everything went back to normal...
im grateful... ^^

2. lol, today's talk at school is more or less the same as what happened during Form3, but it is quite funny also larh....haha, but if i were to choose, i prefer staying at home ....

3. so many new drama coming out.... HK drama really kills me, haha !

4. Lol, yesterday PY said i look more like a lady....mwahaha... means i look like a boy la previously... haha....



K la, bb...

Random Picture

Nice mah?
This is taken when i went to the Drive through Mcdonalds somewhere in Shah Alam.
I like the picture on his/her car....

Just read PY's blog...
hmm... what does she mean ??

LRT to KLCC

Yesterday, which is Sunday...
My father has an exhibition in KLCC, "the convention centre"...
So, he went there early,
so my mom suggested maybe we could go KL n find him n eat Bah Kut Teh at the same time.
So we called n my dad suggested to take the LRT...
Quick n safe cost...
haha....
After Bah Kut Teh... just shop at KLCC Bookshop - Kinokuniya
That is the only destination, lol ...
but i found the storybook i wanted too lar...
"The Voyage of The Dawn Treader "
Nv buy yet, b'coz my mom said that i would't hv time to read...
But im going to buy during the end of the year, maybe... haha

OO.... n i met Li Jia ^^

Okay, the main point is the time i go back ...
The LRT is fully loaded ... so i have to stand...
nvm, i dun mind also...
n i saw a woman letting her seat to a pregnant mother...
aw... how sweet...
proud of her...
but there is also a bastard taking 2 seats for placing his bag...
Like his bag is made form gold...==""
haha....
That is wat we say...
"Ranbut Sama Hitam, Hati Lain Lain "

Haha...c, by reading my blog, u had learned a peribahasa...haha

Passion is really hard to find...
for me la...
hehe....

passion for music,
passion to study,
passion to do the things you like....

hence,
currently finding my passion to all of this....

Do you find me annoying ?

Scrabble

Ooo....
hw i will miss my scrabble days i sec. school....
The 1st time I played scrabble was during Form 1,
that was the Minggu Koko competition and i participated because teacher ask to...
haha, and not to mention that the spread was very big...
Then form 2 i forgot why, but then i joined Scrabble Club...

And thx to Li Jia jie jie coz whatever i know abt scrabble today is what she teach me...Im very grateful coz she is willing to come on Saturday to teach me the technique and strategies...After that, i don't dare to say im pro but quite satisfy with my level now...Haha... the most unforgettable game i played is with Jin Zhen and Eugene... because i nv thought i would win them, but i did.... OMG ! haha...
And the most "failure" one is wid Syahmi (spread :4) n Soliheen... coz im over-confident ! haiz....

Oh... and u no what happen today, OMG ! Yean called me "jie jie" ... walao ! Totally unbelievable.... haha... i nv tot that he will call me jie jie lor... coz erm....i feel tat im dont deserve that lor...

I think tomorrow will be the last time i play scrabble in sec school.... so, gd luck...precious every moment....

Im currently writing my EST essay now, OMG !
damn, 2 essay... last minute work !
haiz...
haha...


And im thinking, i wanna play kingdom hearts after SPM !

Hello, erm.. i dunno what to write now specifically but just wanna type everything i have in my mind .

1. My BFF, PY, is facing a very complicated prob which i dunno and dun und, but nvm....Looking at her face, sad everyday, honestly, i also feel heartache. Not because i sympathize or whatever, it is simply because she is my best friend, we studied together for so many years, now looking at her, i wanna help, but i know i couldn't . Hence, i made the conclusion that no mater what, i wanna keep talking to her... At least there won't be spaces or gap between us. And at least when her prob is solved, we may be like before...

2. Im grateful to have friends during this secondary life... Friends that im able to share my problems... Friends that we are willing to share and concern...Well, not all of them have that kind of luck to find friends, some people dont have friends. And Im really very grateful to have met 6 of you...Although we would travel different paths after a few months, Omg, I already missed you all before this actually happen .

3. This 5 years of secondary life, really make me grow up a lot. I learn to tolerate and concern...I learned that love is not mend for playing, respect Love . I learned that sometimes when a person tells you " I love you " , its not true . I learn that if someone treat you better, there might be a reason behind it ( some friendship isn't reliable, i dun wanna mention who... but i will not forget that he made me feel that im a fool !) .

4. Sometimes facing family problems, I really dunno what to do. I really wanna pick up my handphone and call somebody to just hear what i wanna say . I even draft the sms of what i wanna say, but at last I didn't do so. Why? because I find it damn hard to complain to someone else about your own family. I feel damn remorse and guilty. Lastly, im just letting it go although still feeling not worth-it for myself.

5. I will miss my 2ndary life ! I hope I can study and work with YX or PY in the future ! and we will still have the connection that no one can replace... haha (shy, shy ). Or maybe if I had enough money, i can share wid KH to open a cafe... Opening cafe is one of my dreams too.... Just a small one will be. No need to be famous, just a place for a person to slow down their footstep and relax their mind from this strong competitive world...

5.

Mid Year Result 2010...

BM : 68
BI : 83
MATH : 98
ADD MATH : 82
BIO : 77
PHY : 75
CHEM : 78
EST : 81
SEJ : 74
MORAL : 77

SVK : 84
PJK : 80

hope all sub also can get up to 80 n above during trial...
hope the marks wouldn't decrease...
then im gonna go for scholarships !
pls...

FREAKIN .....

I can't believe I can bear with the 3 of you for 7 hours today at school today...
More n more people wear a dull face mask to school ...
Shit la!
I know u all hv ur own prob....
Just not happy when whatever we ask also u all said nothing...
Aiya !!
I DUNNO LA....
I DUNNO I DUNNO I DUNNO !!!!!!
I TOT WE ARE BEST FRIEND, AND WE CAN SHARE EVERYTHING...
DUNNO LA !
FINE !
I DUNNO N DUN WANNA CARE LIAO !!!!
ONE DAY.... I WILL STOP BEARING N WILL MAKE A FACE LIKE U ALL DID TOO EVERYDAY TO SCHOOL !

Genting Highlands

Today i woke up and grab my hp immediately to look at the time ....
11AM ! OMG !!!!! I nv thought of waking up so late ....
Nvm, so i went down and ate the dumplings my aunt had made few days ago...
watching the tv at the same time....
felt so dull ! what a dull Saturday !
so i suggested to my mom :
" we go Sunway Lagoon want or not ? "
"no ! no point going there "
" then, we go Genting Highland wan or not ?"
Then my mom made the eyesight that symbolizes - Go ask ur father !

Fine, so i went to ask my father whom is currently playing fb , haha...
Just trying my luck , coz the chance of going is quite small ....
So ,
" wanna go Genting Highland or not ?"
" Y ?"
" Coz i wanna feel the cold atmosphere there ..."
" Go on the air-cond in your room la ... "
" Cannot , that one need to pay our own money... GH is free of charge... "
-No respond-
" Or we go Ipoh play la ... We eat Tau Fu Fa there ..."
" Sampat... "
" No, c a... July and August also no holiday already... Sept gt UPSR....then my exam also coming... very cham...."
" Me too, i also dun have holiday , so ?"
"Thats Y we need to go play now la !"
" E....." (insisting )
"Go pack ur clothes la...."

OMG !! UNBELIEVABLE....
haha.... during the journey... My God , feel like vomiting, coz on the same time, im playing my hp... haha...

when i reach there...
nothing to do !!!
nobody wanna accompany me to play the outdoor games...
my dad is in the casino !
fine, so i figured out maybe the next time i go is wid my frenz...
And when i reach 21 years old...
I wanna go into the casino to c whats up there....
-The End -

feel so helpless ...
fell like stopping the time...
I dun wanna grow up ...
Just let the moment freeze ...

feel so wrong

Pandora's Box

Have you heard of pandora's box before?
I came across it and feel like sharing....
A meaningful myth...

Story:
Prometheus was a Titan who really liked humans. He helped them in any way he could. When he saw them shivering at night and eating raw meat, he knew they needed fire. But the gods did not allow man to have fire. They knew that man would misuse it and destroy with it. Prometheus was sure that the good man did with fire would outweigh the bad, so he stole fire from the gods and gave it to man. Zeus decided to punish Prometheus with trickery. He called Aphrodite to pose while Hephaestus made a clay figure of a woman. Then he brought the statue to life. The gods granted the woman with many gifts including beauty, charm, cunning, wit, eloquence, deceit, skill, and curiosity. Then Zeus gave her a box and told her she was never to open it. Zeus then offered Pandora as a wife to Prometheus.
The Titan wanted her, but he refused because he knew it must be a trick of the gods. Zeus became angry and punished Prometheus. The Titan was chained to a rock. There, a vulture came daily to feed on his flesh. Prometheus's brother, Epimetheus, accepted Pandora as his wife, and the couple settled down for a happy life. But Pandora always wondered what was in the box Zeus gave her. Finally she couldn't hold her curiosity down anymore. She opened the box, and from it flew hate, anger, sickness, poverty, and every bad thing in the world. She slammed the lid down and managed to trap the final evil still in the box: hopelessness. So today, even when the going gets tough, every human still has hope.

My dreams.....

What can u see in his picture?

My opinion : Achieving dreams....

well, everyone has their own path in the journey called life....
I might just put it as a lonely and challenging journey....
Yes, it is true that during some part in life,
we met different things and people....
we met friends and friends....

As i grow up,
i get to realise more and more things....
Not anymore the naive girl who said " I don't want to friend you anymore " or " I tell my mom u bully me "...
As i realise, nobody can help you in solving problems you faced,
there's only you.... and whatever it is, you have to count on only yourself to solve the matter,
No more relying on the person you always rely on...
that's what i learned

Nevertheless,
I love my Family...
They are always the most important factor in my life.
haha... i don't know if i could really leave them and study overseas or maybe study in other states....
I couldn't bear to leave them,
I'm afraid that i wouldn't have the chance to accompany them anymore in the future.

Coz i heard my tuition teacher said that he acccompany his father at the hospital until his last heartbeat...He said he hasn't talk to him since the day he was married, which is 8 years ago...And when his father was admitted to the hospital, he kept on talking to him.....But at last his father passed away... i felt sorry. He said that appreciate things you have before they are gone...Human : only realise the importance of something when they lose it ....

And this made my heart more confuse... felt harder to leave them...

Mid Year Exam

My 3 weeks mid year exam has just ended !
OMG ! Actually felt happy, but then when i finish my last paper,
don't really feel excited or whatsoever....
so ... really nothing special...

Well,
how i survived my exam?
last minute studying...
haha.... nevertheless,
the pursuit for last minute studying is sacrificing my sleeping time,

Bad News:
I got back my BM marks...
OMG ! Thunder n lightnings ! so disappointing !
erm, the teacher's comment is that i use simple BM,
"penggunaan perkataan yang tidak menarik !"
so i think i need to work hard on that .... >.<

And My bio teachers face today is "very" sour !
haha....looks like additional class on monday will not be further better...
Gd Luck ! haha

Autumn's Concerto

Just finish watching this Taiwan drama !
Very nice, i strongly recommend....
Haha.....

erm , I can guarantee it is much more nicer than all the love drama u had ever watched !
yes !!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.......

Anyway , exam has not ended ! so, gd luck......
1 more week
my keyboard is so dusty...
haha.......

Friendship....

"friendship"
an easy name but a hard process to maintain....

haha,
during that miserable week,
lol, i once thought that...

I'm a bad lover, i stop loving after him....
Now , i'm a bad friend, what shall i do??

Fortunately, things go well at the end...
grateful and happy,
thx guys !

I dun wanna lose anyone of u !

I dunno if I shud blog this out...
because whether or not i blog this out,
i will feel sorry for one of u both...
i dunno what to do....
i felt confused....
do u no that both of u are my best frend...
i reli dunwan things to end up like that,
seriously ! 5 years of friendship isn't easy to mantain...
omg, i reli felt sad and helpless....

I wanted to tell you badly wat is going on...
At least u will hv the chance to think wat u shud do...
at least by chance this may just end...
not like now,
u dunno anything and u dunno hw to solve the prob...
and i reli reli wanna solve the matter between u both,
but, omg ! help me.....
I don't wanna lose anyone of u !

I can predict that if what u said earlier happens,
we will reli split into groups,
we will nt e as last time...
hw close, hw unique feel...

Pls at least try to mantain this?

DONNIE YEN !

The purpose I on9 today,
(coz exam coming n i shudn't been on9ing)
is to tell u that ..........
I LOVE DONNIE YEN !
erm,
the 1st time i noticed his acting is in the movie "Twins Effect II"
that time leh, when i went to the cinema to watch this movie....
they gt free something like bookmark lidat lar,
so gt all the actor/actress photo...
then i saw him lor, c like very "ying" lidat...
haha....
then i no gt this actor liao...
so keep on watch his movie like "SPL" , "Dragon Tiger Gate" , " Flash Point", "Painted Skin" , "IP MAN"....

The latest one i watch is "14 Blades " coz just bought that dvd!
OMG ! OMGOMGOMG!!!!! RELI damn very "ying " lor...
so man ! haha..... especially the half naked scene with "zhao wei"
his eyesight was like killing me ! haha.....

erm, looking foward for IP MAN 2.....
hope can watch at cinema ASAP !
LOLOLOL....HAHA.....
I strongly recommend " 14 Blades".... RELI VERY NICE...
erm, wu chun also acting quite gd in it...
haha.... but i still like donnie yen !

Gambateh !

Jocelyn Pang, gambateh !
no matter what, everything will be fine at the end....

Pediatrician

Pediatrician - a child doctor...
the long years of being in school, including 4 years of college, 4 years of medical school and at least three years of an internship and residency

8 years of studying + 1.5 years diploma...
can I??
hmm... more or less 11 years,
then i will be like 28 yeras old...
then only i start working...
Do you think it is ok??
pls, i need comments...
I myself think it is fine...
Comments please....

Lost in the middle of no where...

Help me !!!

OMG,
Help me fr onlining,
help me from wandering aroud,
help me form day-dreaming,
help me from accumulate all my works to the last minute....
help me to concentrate on my studies....

My God !! I feel so "san fu"...
Im wasting my time....
but i cant resist...
i wanna study,
but just cant concentrate...
i wanna study...
but im bloody lazy...
aiya, help me la....
lol, feel like cryin man , sure will regret one day der...
ish ish ish, stop !!!
stop ask me to trade things in rc...
dun play country story ler...
dun discuss bout fb game !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anugerah Bestari today....

well,
erm, today seems okay to me....
nothing special happened,
but met many seniors last year,
haha.... to me they don't look any different,
yalar, oni a few months, how to change??

今天看到他,和他的回忆再一次的来到我的脑海里,是甜蜜的,让我感受到,原来曾经拥有也可以很美好...当我们互望着对方,我希望他会走过来,和我就像一般朋友聊...but too bad, i need to go back...
so next time lar...

There is so many things i wanna say,
so many things i wanna express out,
but i couldn't
things around me gave me a limit,
a limit to tell me what is suitable to say
and what is not
because the pursuit for saying the truth,
might cause injuries...
heartbroken??
yeah, something like that,


i wanna leave this place,
i wanna go somewhere i really belong....
i don't know where is it,
but i seriously don't feel my presence here...

Sometimes i really hate myself,
well, im not happy,
because i don't like the school...??
The school gave me so much memories...
there is sweet n there is sour...

Tommorow is Anugerah Bestari

Haiz, This year is totally diff already...
For the past year,
Pn Chua will sokong me der, haha....
well, that year im only in form 2,
she gave me the "president" place in choir,
N then the next year im pen. setiausaha under Pn Dhana....
N last year im nothing under En Ramli, but i don't blame him,
because he doesn't know me, haha... nvm
N this year im nothing under Pn Ghandi.
Because she said i already have post in Rumah Merah...
I have nothing to do but to accept,
well, this was few months ago already...
so no nid to mention,

N today im in front choir team,
The team once is under me...
Now is other ppl's team, not mine already...
Once so close,
Now already far away from me....
Once im the one who guide them,
Now it is other ppl's turn...

today, on our rehearsal,
im in the choir group, will be singing tomorrow,
actually i prefer playing the piano,
but since Py wants also, n she said she will contra in the team,
I also dun have a choice anymore,
Yes, i can quit....
but , nope.....
i don't have the courage.....

And i told myself,
Fine, this is my last year,
anything will do,
i know i can find somewhere that i belong....
but not here...

A SEGI Comp.

This is the segi comp i mentioned few blogs ago...
well, yes it is a failure...
because teachers don't let us participate,
they thought that we are not ready enough...
well, but i think we were,
too bad, too late,
even the SEGI ppl say the same thing,
haiz, i wasted 1 week for this thing,
and it came out meaningless...
i guess this is how fate works...

And then both of them(teacher n segi ppl) ask me if i understand the situation...
To Segi (Mike):
You asked me if we were still friends? I said yes....But how could i say no? What is the point of saying no?Can i get back the qualifications to the comp.?I really wanna say that i hate you ! but how? it isn't going to benefit anybody... Make you feel remorse... please la ! Who we are to you, if u ever feel remorse, it will only last for a few sec..... Have you ever thought of our feelings? Maybe a few sec, maybe not ! And you are telling me study is important right now... wth ! pointless....

To Teacher (wonderland) :
You ask if i understand the situation? I said yes, nevermind ....so, what else do you want me to say? Yes i mind,im angry....same goes here, it doesn.t benefit anybody.... So , the only thing to do is to keep quite and act like you dont even mind...You just shake my shoulders and said hope you understand to end up this thing. If things really go that easy, life would be meaningless..... What should you do? Sigh.... I don't know...


Since it has ended, i have nothing more to say...nothing worth to be mentioned...
No more means no more...
eventhough you put 99% of hardwork, the 1% of fate can pull you down enough...
Thanks for making me undersatnd this...

Dissappointed !

haiz, teacher sya wanna call off the segi competition...
weeks before, do you know how high my hope was ?
N from cloud nine i drop to hell !
y is this happening to me?
i reli sacrifice my whole week for this thing !
y ? y ?

Sked Sked Sked !

2morrow is the last practise for the segi thing,
we haven't prepare anything yet!
2morrow is the last day, 1st practise.
my god, stressful !

Alif (my group member) wants me to dance Muzik - 4 minutes and Gee - SNSD...
OMG, dance, i reli dunno la....
do u no when is the last time i reli dance?
KINDERGARTEN !
N hw old i am now?
16++ !!!!!!!!
shit !!!
sked la,
i no i cant dance as sexy as them der...
shit shit shit !
huhu !!!!
stress, wanna cry !!!
god help !!!

Confess.......Apologize

I am sorry,
to all my friends.......
For all these years we studied , cried, laugh....2gether...
I may not be a very good friend...
During this years ....
I may have or accidentally hurt some of you....
I sincerely apologize to all of you...
For my...mistakes i have made....

To : Joyce....
I know i have been an idiot once,
hurting u so many times,
im sorry,
i didn't mean to,
just i had never thought of that....
im such a jerk, don't deserve to be your best friend....
but luckily,
You found the right one now,
feel happy for u !
luv u, always there for me....

To : Jasmin
hehe, sorry for not supporting you that day....
psps, just sked to pok zhui....
haha....ur reli a great friend...
coz we can discuss bot dramas...
haha...>.<

To : Pui Yeng
To my smart n pretty angel....
well, u have been looking stressful recently,
although u r not saying anything...
im sorry....im not there for u
when u need or nv need me ...
for one time..l. i misund. u,
dun wanna tok bout it,
anyway , im sorry, haha
luv u !


best fren!
i love u alll 4 eva !!!

School got ghost?

oh well, i dunno...
haha, but then something happened at school today...
erm , the 1st period today is chemistry...
so we're working on an experiment....
n then suddenly, someone shouted on the 2nd floor.
Out of curiosity, many of us went to hv a look, except me!
coz im very obsess in the experiment... haha....
so, nobody tell anything yet...
until someone said that it is histeria...
something to do with malay evil spirit...
wow... dunno what to do...
n teacher ask us to stay in class only...
so we waited for the latest info... haha
n then not long after that, heard screaming again....
means that this thing will spread la...
lolx, n then suddenly in the chemis lab, 2 ppl crying suddenly...
so, teacher put the malay prayer on the speaker...
then after recess it became better...
OMG ! BECOZ OF THIS, I HAD 5 PERIODS OF CHEMIS, Means....
3 hours n 30 minutes !
haha, oh well, better than sej lor...
haha

A very embarrasing day !

OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!1
this is the "very" embarrassing day in my life...
omg omg!!!
ok, it started like that....

so i stayed back at school...
and then Ezzah(my classmate) want me to keep her keys for her...
An when i got back,
i only realise that i forgot to give her back her keys...
omg, and then im at home already !

so i kept calling everybody !
none of them answered my phone !!!!
stupid, n luckily i called joyce's 016 number...
only i can find her, stupid !!!
n the thing is, b4 i called lim,
i tried to call daniel(ezzah close friend)...
n i nv realise that there is 2 daniel in my phone....
omg!!!!
n then i called the other daniel (jin zhen)......
omg, funny!

Me: Hello, Daniel.This is (my full name)Are you at school?
Daniel: Ya, im in class....
Me : oh, is ezzah with u?
Daniel : Ezzah ??
Me : Ezzah ruzaini...
Daniel : im jin zhen ...

N no need to say hw i replied la, haha, funny n embarrassing wei !!!!!!!

I KG

I slimmed down by one kg....
can u believe it!
my god, damn happy!!!!
haha!!!!
n y is this happening?
because i skipped lunch this few weeks...
i dunno if this is the reason...
if it is, then it reli works....
but i dont skip it in purpose,
i have no choice.......but anyway...
this will only last till this week, i hope...
hehe...
ok, but then my waist.......
hmm.....hehe, fat ! haha....
carbohydrates love my boddie.......haha

Scrabble Comp.

Yeah,
last Thursday my school gt scrabble competition for "language week" !
so, yes, i participated,
with crygnus n pui ee....
well, as i never played scrabble quite long...
coz im not in scrabble club this year...
so, im also worried...
hehe, 3 rounds all completed in a day...

1st round i battle with joyce...
my god ! our marks spread little only, make me so nervous... haha...
and then 2nd round i played with a form 2/3 girl...
and 1st time in my life i got bingo !!!
n i dun even no if that word really exist, just trying my luck...
but she never challenge, n i safely played through the game with 100++ spread,
coz, she is also a beginner,

Then 3rd round i played with a form 3 girl also i think...
n she is also a beginner,
so , she never challenge me also, but she is also good...
coz our spread only 60++,

N so our Group gt 1st place! haha,
n i get 3rd for individual,
nv wish more already...
haha... its lucky enuf for me to achieve something like that,
thank god ! heheh....

Lack of time !

C la,
now wanna update my own log also like... no time...
either im not allowed to touch the pc...
or im using my whole day in the school acting like im an active student...
haha....
so many things happened this week that i would like to post,
just doesn.t have the chance...
for example i fell down at school field during sukan tara...
coz that time wanna run 100 m...
so when run till the end the "mud " place was just rite there n i fell down!
very funny!hehe...

haiz ... n like today, my neighbour come n tok to me...
bout my future la...
er, which uni is gd, what shud i take, i shud go for ptpn loan n stuff lidat la...
coz she n my mom is also quite close wan lar...
then she said, u r smart , u sure can do it der...
n stuff ...
i dunno wat to do la....
imagine when ppl say u r smart when u no u r not one...
how would u feel!
n then she ask me y i score not that gd during march exam...
padahal march exam shud score best...
i also dunno hw to answer...jus buat bodoh lor....
i no i shud be more hardworking...
but c la, im onlining when im halfway studying bio...
stupid!
hehe....

Breaking Dawn

Yes, im on the way reading breaking dawn,
i skipped the last two books which are eclipse and new moon,
no reason, just wanna start with this book first...
well, im just a few pages ahead, so cant tell much,
but the starting of the story is about bella and edward getting married,
wow !
haha... omg, feel like resonance, haha...
give me the desperation to get married...
haha....
really, waht i loved about this author,
is that she can bring me to another world ! so nice...
like leaving all our thoughts here n diffuse yourself into the story !
nice...
hehe...