Quarrel ...

Today, i did something really bad...
really very very bad,
i should get striked lightning when i walked out of my hse...
u no what happen...
so leh, yest. night, means few hours b4 la,
i was watching the list of movies in pps, excited to watch,
and then i went to the Nicholas Cage option, and i wanted to watch National Treasure 2, before even hv time to c what movie it has, my father had called,
so i went out of the room to c what happen,
he asked me to refill the biscuit tin with biscuits...
then i was thinking, " Fine, y can't you do it yourself ?" n because i was too excited n longing to read through the list, i said that he was annoying...
in front of him...
then he said " next time, you don't ever ask me to do anything for you... "
My heart was like shattering into pieces....
i dunno what to do...
i just walked away.... figuring out what to do next...
and then after he watched his movie, i went to apologise to him...
but he nv talked to me ....
i dunno what to do...
i no i was wrong, i shouldn't act like that, i should be striked by the lightning...
i should get punished...
sometimes, i rather getting scolded... but not being ignored ar neglected...
im really scared that his heart was shattered to pieces also... im scared that he wouldn't forgive me, even if he forgive me, i'm scared that he wouldn't be like last time anymore.... im sorry ... im really really sorry...

Recently, what i said really hurt someone... i really should get lightning strike ! i must get !!! lolx ! I HATE MYSELF ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!