Last day of 2013 !!

Hesitating whether to update this post or not because I don't think there is anything significant happening to me this year, 

but after some recalling back, (thanks to my photo albums and facebook, haha !! ) I realized there is quite a lot of big stuff happening ! Couldn't wait to list down each and every of them, haha ! 

OK, headstart, hmm.... January... the 1 week break ! What I can remember most is going out for a date with one of my friend. Yup, a date, for the very first time. haha ! Eh, if you are reading this and if you remember you are the one that bring me out ar, I wanna say thanks for everything, haha ! You made my very first date of my life special and unforgettable. And you have been a great friend and whenever I need support and encouragement, you will always be there =P 

Next, February, spending Valentine's alone ! I forgot what happened that day but most probably I was watching dramas with my roommate in the room, haha ! Cause' that is what we do most of the time. 

Ow ! Then my roommate and I went exploring places in Bandung la ! Quite fun !

Somewhere around March or April I guess, I won my very first sports medal ! haha ! for badminton. 

Then around April, complicated relationships. I ended a relationship with a guy and started one with ZF. Something I'm not proud about till today but I didn't regret. 

Then we have this social service thing where we have to stay in the kampung kampung area for 2 nights ! 

Road is super cacat, and the destination from my campus to the rural area is like 8 hours ! 

This is result day ! End of the semester around June/ July. End of Reproductive system !!! 

After that, holiday !!!

Hanging out with friends and family, asking bro to skip school just to accompany me to shop around ! haha !

went to aquaria KLCC with bro ! just for fun ! as just so he can skip school ! haha !

Zoo visiting with family 

Sunway Pyramid with A-LVL friends, typical hang out place. 

Visit to Pui Yeng's new house, super super big ! haha ! 

Hey !! P.S. I worked for two days ! haha ! in an entire 2 month holiday ! thanks, I'm proud of myself too ! hahaha ! 

September ! My birthday ! Haha ! 

Following that is Jakarta trip !

Next is the start of my new sem which I'm going through now. And facing exam in a few days =D

 And that roughly wraps up my 2013 !!!

YAY ! HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

UNPAD Year 2 Day 105 - Last lecture of the semester !

So today was the last lecture of the semester already,
And the dosen was late !
7 o clock class become 8 o clock !
Woke up so early in the morning to entertain you guys, one hour of sleep very important one lorh ! So your time is precious our time is not larh =(

Ok anyway, to conclude the lectures in the whole semester  - I can understand nothing, im not paying attention on most of the class, my body was there but my soul was wondering in Neverland, God save me ! I don't know since when paying attention to lecturers is such a hard thing to do ...

Ok, next, study break starts ! People are going back to Malaysia already and I'm stucked here, God please make this worth it ... Now, guess how long my study break is.

=> ONLY ONE WEEK !!!! =(

Damn pathetic !

Haha. Enough with all the complains, erm... Since today is Christmas Eve, I wish everyone A jolly Christmas and a happy New Year !

Lots of love ! <3

Be realistic my dear ...

Christmas is around the corner !!!!
So is my final exam =( saddening

"Last Christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away,
This year, to save me from tears, I gave it to someone special ~"

My favourite Christmas song, haha !

Do you know what boyfriends should do during Christmas ??

Bring her out for a Christmas date !!!!

which is what I think I wouldn't be getting this year, or next year or the year after
why ?
because they love to put exams after the Christmas break
HOW TO GO OUT ??
teach me how to go out lorh ....

such a festive night and I'm going to spend it with my laptop and books...

anyway, for you guys out there,

Merry Christmas and have a joyful night !!!!!!!!!!!!

PMR results are out !

Feeling so happy for my bro !
He got 3A 4B,
Although there is no straight A's,
Although so many people out there doing better than him,
but im really really proud of him !
He actually did it !
When my mom told me I really felt damn happy until I teared up you know !
OMG ! Haha !

Very happy ! Very very happy !
Really really happy !
Wakakakaka !

Sending love to heaven

My grandma left us today morning,
Breast cancer .... Fuck Cancer !
Her condition was under control for a few years and now the cancer cells decides to metastasis out of a sudden

I weren't really aware of what's happening until my cousin posted this on facebook,
Nobody is willing to tell me afraid that I might get too worried

She was the strongest and toughest woman I've known in my entire life.

God may take her away but she will forever be in my heart and memories .

I wasn't  there when she left. I wasn't there when her condition got worse, I wasn't there accompanying her through all these agony ...
I was no where near. Why did I choose to study so far away omg !

I miss her so much...
I miss her so much =(

UNPAD Year 2 Day 87 - Blackout moment

So yesterday right,
During the night, the town blackouts suddenly,
And I was in the room by myself !
Thank God I'm not bathing !

Then right, at this very crucial moment, I couldn't find my torch light,
Very good
Then I couldn't find the torch light apps in my phone,
Even better !

So I just open the door and wait for people to come out from their room ! Haha !

Then it's kinda fun larh, coz everyone coming out from their house,
Then we are flashing torch lights at each other,
And then we got bored hence we played something really ... Typical
We played cards - chor dai di
And if u r wondering how to play in the dark ,
We used torch lights, that is how desperate we were, haha !

The funny thing was one of us suppose to have an emergency light, mana tau he forgot to charge =.="
Haha !

Then after half to one hour, the current came back.

The end.

I talked to his mom !

Damn funny !

He was talking in a Hakka dialect to his mother through the phone and I think I can only understand 2-3% of the whole conversation ! Despite the fact that my dad's side was Hakka too >.<

Then out of a sudden he told his mom that I wanted to talk to her,
Actually no, I don't, haha ! Nervous sial !
Then suddenly im taking his phone ady

Then im like hello aunty, how are you, have you eaten dinner and quickly return the phone back to him ...

First impression gone liao lorh !
Haha !

Im immature =(

Ok fine I admit,
Im really a little immature posting all this issues in a public medium ...

Actually before this im thinking whether to apologize ...
Coz from the start its not my fault,
But posting my own issues in a public medium , kk that's not very thoughtful of me ...

But in the end I did apologize,
And well, she apologized too and at that moment,
I felt really happy, really really happy sincerely happy ...

Well I guess at times we do have to force ourselves to grow up a little ...

Being young and crazy is not an excuse for you to act immaturely ...

And I realized... I don't wanna be an anti social anymore ! I know I can do this .

The SWEEPING issue

har.....

see la .....

stay together la .........

no la, I just wanna say if I've done something wrong, 

no matter how scared I am, I will admit. 

If I make the floor dirty, I will say I make the floor dirty. 

SO PLEASE DON'T SIMPLY ACCUSE PEOPLE FOR SOMETHING I DIDN'T DO !!!!

When I say not me means not me la,

If you really doubt, or if you really confirm it's me then why bother ask and keep asking really or not when I deny !

Your whole point is to find someone to scold only right ?

But really not me mar 

how can you comment someone is brainless when you don't even know if it is really her 

I mean, who are you to scold someone brainless ?

U have bigger brains is it ?

Be kind to people doesn't even cost a single cent, 

I mean, whatever it is, we had lived together for one year plus,

Words hurt you know. 

At that moment, I really hope that something will  prove that it's not my fault, 

whatever it is!

But now... 

I know it's not my fault.

I know others will have my back, 

I know they will believe me,

That's enough already,

that's all I need to know. 

<3

The act smart guy !

Is there anybody around u that is that IRRITATING !!!!

"THE ACT SMART ONE"

THE CANTO PPL CALL THEM "LAN LEK"

The Hokkien ppl call them "Geh Gao " !!!!

The Chinese ppl call them "jia li hai "

I mean, u are only a half bucket full you wanna act like a guru ady, 

please la ! 

annoying la !

and then tak sabar sabar wanna show the lecturer that he is fully prepared !

PADAHAL during presentation, he telling this he not sure that he dont know =.=

some more dare to act smart ! 

zzz....

The Gap

So Huilin and I were talking about this gap thing,
and I realised I had a gap too between my friends and I,
since I start having a boyfriend...
which leads me thinking who is the culprit ?
and I realised .... It's me, intentionally...
I tend to distance myself from them a little.

Since the air ticket issue,
I kinda repel myself from any ...thing or people that might bring me back facing that kind of issue.

even if I don't have a boyfriend, after staying at this new house,
I guess I'll just act the same...
too much drama out there,
I rather just stay in my room alone,

Then I started thinking, if this were to happen back in Malaysia,
with a bunch of my old friends,
all these wouldn't happen too

Thinking of the needs to deal with people here is very exhausting,
sometimes when I hear voices out there I plan to ignore most of the time rather than mixing in and listening to what they wanna say.

Jakarta Trip

Ok, to start it all,
first, eight of us left home about 4A.M.
and it takes about 4-5 hours to reach Jakarta from Jatinangor,
1-2 hours is contributed by the jam.

we are sitting at the back row, so this was our faces after waking up from a long drive. 

Our first stop is at this place called MONAS (National Monument) of Jakarta....
and it's a really really hot and sunny day !!!!!
haha !
so I don't really know what's the point of visiting coz it just prove that u went to one of the tourist attraction, so ??
some more the lift out of service so we couldn't go up to the top floor that day to enjoy the view so its extra meaningless.
lol.....

it's not hazy but i just took the picture from my phone and i'm just lazy to focus the picture nicely, hehehe...

1. In the building

2. view at the ground floor, there are wall carvings, kinda nice

3. view from second floor. 

4. Historical exhibition in the museum. 

5. The building

6. The admission fee (Rp 3k /adult with student card)

a small tri-wheeled car only in Jakarta =)

then we went to a pasar pagi bunga something i forgot....

It's a place like a trade centre but it sells clothes, 

and I would strongly recommend if you like aunty clothes 

or if you r really really patient to look into so many pile of clothes. 

But right, I guess all that kind of clothes you can go to Bangkok and find the exact same design with a much cheaper price, seriously. 

So, I didn't bought anything there. 

Next, we went to a place called Senayan City Mall,

strongly recommended by our Indonesian classmates, 

coz its really big....

and I'm really super happy to find Secret Recipe in it !

I tell you, I really feel super grateful ... hyper grateful to find a secret recipe there....

but then my roommate complaining that they don't sell (i forgot which chocolate cake she mentioned)

potong stim ! 

I will actually spend all my money on cheesecakes if I can, seriously <3

I don't care what they have what they don't have , I'm just happy it's there 

but their cheesecakes are more expensive compared in Malaysia... hmm..... 

and I guess it's okay...

you can check out my Instagram for the picture.

something similar to Pavillion la . ok ok lorh. 

My dad used to say if u wanna travel, it's pointless visiting shopping centres coz it's just a waste of time as you know Malaysia has so many shopping malls for you to shop and you still wanna shop when you are at other people's country ??

But still, at last we went shopping. 

This was for dinner, I just love Italian food. 

The stupid thing was I remembered to take a picture of everyone's food except mine ,

stupid !

Btw, mine was a squid ink spaghetti with salmon cream <3

and that wraps up our one day trip to Jakarta ....

Comments :
I will wanna go again coz I missed out the most important thing ! shit ! the Magnum Cafe thing that Hulin mentioned which is located at ...... Grand Indonesia.... T.T It's a cafe with lots of variety of MAGNUM ICE CREAM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next, I would wanna visit the DUFAN themepark tooo, it sound nice...
other then the reason above, I would consider twice coz it has really bad traffic =(

House of 9

So today was the second day of my exam...
and I think, i think.... it's ok.
But this is not what i wanted to say today.

Today's topic would be about staying together in a house of 9 people.
If in the beginning everyone lives together harmoniously,
I can confirm, eventually conflict will just happen out of no where ...

I'm really getting tired of all these conflicts.

I'm not happy with what you did, you are not happy with what I did...

I mean, isn't staying together a happy thing ?

What I wanted to say was,
all of us came from different places, came from different families.
Of course we would have different habits and different ways of looking into things and problems,
we will have different perspective,
you cannot force people to do it in your way and stuff,

and that's where compromising comes in.

If you don't like the way it's done,
then just calmly discuss about the issue... Not using that kind of complaining tone right ?
Am I right ?

I mean, when people throw a blame on you, the first thing you will do is to defend yourself  and not thinking is it really my fault, and this is where a fight begins. And then the problem will still be there and both of the parties will not be happy about each other.

Tolerate and compromising, this is what everyone needs right now. including me of course.

My Guardian Angel

He kinda solves problems lol

But this guardian angel very grumpy lorhhhh ...

Or that I'm pro enough to make everyone vomit blood hehe ...

='( the planning of Jakarta trip

Another night crying alone in the room

I feel really bad, I really really feel super super bad ...

Everyone is so happy planning to go Jakarta. And because I felt it's kinda expensive, I think I just piss off everyone.

Omg im so stressed up

I think they'll hate me so much now

Aiya. Conclusion is I really feel bad spending money other than necessary,
going Bandung walking around is ok,
But going Jakarta is a little off. Kinda expensive, I underestimated.

Then now they deciding between wanna go one day or two days .

I really don't want to be the reason to make them feel that the trip isn't fun.

I don't want them to just go for one day all because of me .

Please, just decide to go without me, please please please, I really really don't wanna be the reason ....

Economical problems is not what I wanted also okay.

Then ... He is mad at me too ...

Can I don't be in this position ? FML

你对我的爱到底有多深 ？

The motorcycle issue

Today went to play badminton with J in Bale Santika, quite far from the place I stay so J borrowed a motorcycle from a friend, so I just tumpang la,

Mana tau he angry, he said how come you still can follow when you know sitting a motorcycle here is very dangerous...
(as the traffic here is really bad)

Then when I come back he gave me the im not angry face then he doesn't wanna talk to me =/

Fine, I know I deserve this... =( I really never thought of the consequences. It's just me being me, the immature me... =(

Actually right,
It's not like I love badminton as if badminton is my heart and soul also...

It's just that I wanna improve my badminton skills to make him feel proud, like sincerely ...

You know, like people's girlfriend has super nice body figure, has such a pretty face, or maybe smart, or maybe can cook well ... Or maybe can dress so well

And he has a girlfriend that, I don't know, nothing outstanding ... And she sucks in solving issues, very immature, and stupid =/

我幽默的同学们 1

Too many jokes happening everyday that I decided to record them down whenever I remember, haha !

So what happened today was,
My friends and I were eating lunch,

J's food was very spicy, then ... Suddenly YK and HY start discussing ...

YK :  wah, 吃到喷火啊？
HY : 什么喷火 ？
YK : 喷火啦，你不懂啊 ？
HY : 不懂！
YK : 喷火就是讲吃到很辣啦 ！ 酱也不懂！
HY : 你试试看去字典找看喷火是不是酱的意识 ！

I literally laugh my ass off, sorry if you don't find this funny but OMG. Really funny la ! Hahaha !

UNPAD Year 2 Day 46 - New System

Yeah, so the last system was endocrine and  metabolism .... System ??

And now we are starting off with 'neuro behavior and special sense' (NBSS)

I have a feeling this system is so much harder compared to the last two ...

Im squeezing out as much brain juice as possible on the first day itself.

Not to mention now there's only 2-3 Malaysians in a group out of 11-12 people ... Actually it's ok, but sometimes it's really hard to catch up the different language and you have to translate them in your mind real fast, so it's kind of hard, but I think I can cope up ??

And SOCCA ! OH SHIT ! damn scared lah !!! Both systems together >.<

Oh ! Then now I have tutorials in the morning , not a bad thing coz every tutorial starts at 9, so compared to the last system where labs are in the morning at 8 , I have one more hour to sleep ! Haha !

However, as exam is around the corner,
Sleeping is like .... Something u couldn't get enough of >.<

And that's kind of the story of the new system ! Haha ! Tata <3

Last Day of September !

Its the last day of September ady ><

Which also meant that I'm here for a month,

What I've done so far.... 

nothing productive, like seriously. 

Except for homeworks and assignment that I NEED to do,

there is nothing more that I've done. 

Every free time I have I spent it by watching drama or wasting time with him. 

And suddenly I am really super super guilty and regret yesterday. 

Thinking of all the consequences that might happen. 

If anything happens and I couldn't continue to study here...

My life is literally screwed. I'm going to live a meaningless life. 

Whatever aims and dreams I have will be bullshit by then...

It's not like I really love this place and all you know, 

It's that if anything happens and if I were to go back to Malaysia, 

I will lose everything I have right now. 

And then the money I spent here, the time, the money 

My parents are going to kill me....

I couldn't let all these things happen to me, seriously. 

Yesterday night was the scariest night in my entire life 

having all sorts of thoughts going around in my head >.<

Dear me, pls remember every moment you have went through yesterday, 

don't make any stupid mistakes that you  will regret in the future anymore 

and yup, tata ! haha ~

An unexpected present

These presents are from a friend I know for 2 days, 

when we are working together for the U mobile thing in Sunway Pyramid !

LOL 

and actually this was something he wanted to give me during departure. 

and which I declined ask him not to give me anything,

mana tau he posted here by pos laju >.<

aiyo, guilty ~

anyway, grateful, thx man =D

mooncake !

a small birthday card

and an elle WHITE HOODY ! 

omg ~

UNPAD Year 2 Day 27 - I'm late for class 0.0

AN EPIC DAY !
what happened was,

around 3 something midnight , God knows what happened to my phone,
suddenly it just hanged at the lockscreen =(
then the alarm doesn't ring on 7 o' clock in the morning
evil phone =(

so my friend woke me up at 7.30a.m. which is suppose to be the time I start leaving my hours to the campus.
So, I amazingly finish brushing my teeth, changing my clothes and head of in 5 minutes,
and when I was sitting on the public transport only I realized my watch is out of battery,
so scary you know, suddenly can't estimate the time !

Next, lab coat issue,
So this Jason right, suddenly got lab class in the evening,
so his friends and him forgot to bring lab coat,
so asking me if I have 4 or 5 to borrow.

I actually don't think it's a big deal AT ALL !
what is wrong in borrowing people lab coat,
and then all of them start scolding me saying I'm stupid

LOL

but anyway,
I know it's just a way they don't want me to like rugi.
Coz' if anything happens, I were to take responsibility of all the lab coats, not him .
haiz, the world is so complicated .

The following issue is my fan not functioning ady.
and i ONLY USED IT FOR LIKE A MONTH?

SO, i decided to open all the bolt and nuts to see what's inside and try to fix it !
and actually i was really close to success one,
but at last my friend help me to repair it,
by adding just some drops of WD-40
stupid , haha !
so easy one meh ?

and now it's functioning !!!! hahaha !

so have you seen the core  of the fan ? hah~ jie jie show u ! haha !

and that's all today XD

Happy Birthday to Me !

Haha ! 

yala i get it la, 20 years old dy =.=

anyways, today was also my blogs godknowshowmany years anniversary !!!

hahaha !

forgot la, 5-6 years maybe. 

then....

well thanks to everyone that wished me and remembered my birthday.

Sincerely thank all of you from the bottom of my heart <3

well, it's not how i expected but I'm super grateful for what he did for me 

haha !

these are the gifts he gave me lol XD

<3

then these are the gifts Huilin gave me, 

forgot to camwhore with her shite ! 

anyway, thx darling, love it so much <3

and as usual the four of us camwhoring before going out for dinner =P

and this was taken during dinner la ~ haha !

so I thank God for everything I had today ~

I'm grateful for what I have,

It's a lovely evening,

and to wrap everything up,

I LOVE YOU GUYS TTM !

<3

UNPAD Year 2 Day 23 - Busy !!!

So, it's my second year already,
Now we are in the endocrine system.
And I felt quite interesting la, every week also get to know new stuff.
Only the study part is a little ... haha ! hard?
neh... I think I'm just lazy.

anyway, since we are learning endocrine,
every week also get to see dead bodies,
I really respect all the deceased that like donated their body out for all these research and education.
I don't know, imagine after you die, then people will like cut open your dead body digging here and there.
the furthest I think I can go is organ donating only, seriously >.<
so i think they are really really great =)

then, tutorial class became 3 times a week,
super tiring la like that ! still ok la, but compared to last time only two times per week,
so much more relaxing,
hahaha !
then although like that right, I still got time to play one you know XD

Don't know what else to update leh ...

ow !!!! regarding my new house !
not bad la !
First, it takes 20 minute from my house to the campus.
very far la >.<
haha !

then, last time still got chance to like exercise,
now the gym center and the stadium so far dy, no one accompany me =(
haha ! so now a lil fat =P

next, staying together with 8 friends in a small house is quite fun and cozy.
people teasing around and stuff, not bad la...

But there were bad times also la,
for example we quarreled about the kitchen once or twice,
I think we'll get better with time no doubt =)

yorrrrr !!!! came here like 23 days ady ! haven't watch a movie yet,
because the cinema is so damn far =((((
XD

Then I think that's all la, nothing much to say
toodles =)

IMMA SENIOR YOOO !

HAHA !
Yup, back here to Jatinangor =)
but with a different status kayyy, second year senior (wakakkaka !)

hoooooooo maaaaiiiiiiiiiiii gawwwwwwddddd !
coming back here was making me so frustrated !!!!
First, I miss my flight.
yup,
I ACTUALLY MISS THE STUPID FLIGHT !!!!! WTH !!!!!!

THEN HAVE TO BUY NEW AIR TICKET,
SO RIGHT , THIS FLIGHT ACTUALLY COST ME RM600++ !!!!!!!!!!!
STUPID !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I REACHED AT BANDUNG AROUNG 1.00+AM

and when I thought things wouldn't go any worse ! God proves me wrong ='(
I ACTUALLY FORGOT TO TAKE MY BOYFRIEND'S HANDCARRY DOWN THE CAR,
when he is busy finding keys to enter the house.

then of course he very angry larh... then he start complaining lo, saying why am I so careless and stuff la, then after a while he start talking to himself, blaming himself for not being more careful....
GUILTINESS TO THE MAXXXXXXXX !!!!

so we called our transport that fetch us back and then go around finding his handcarry lorh,
epic night ! luckily at last jumpa juga lorh, but the most epic part is, find find find find till 5 something AM baru can go back and sleep ....

and then things went better la....
we settled down and stuff.

then,
lol I think I'll get jealous of myself, haha ! I enjoyed being with him in the same house very much. =P
like although only one hour or a little more than that every night after we settled all our stuffs,
at least we had our own time and privacy alone.
but this made me worry also at the same time,
can't help it la, there's always all this pressure and stress form my studies just by thinking of it.

then,
schedule became tighter dy this year,
so not much time to slack also actually,

but anyway, life's good =) don't worry
and that's for today !!!!!!!

Getting lazier

Sem break got whole 2 months !
Getting lazier day by day...
getting fatter day by day !
weigh increase day by day !
being a couch potato everyday !
very nice =/
hahaha !

Thinking of Life !

Have you ever been thinking like ...

How will your life be ??

Dunno leh, for a typical women's life. 

It's like study, work, met a guy , get married, have kids, work, work, work, die !

girl -> lady -> aunty -> grandma -> die !

that is also like if u are lucky enough to die old. 

I don't want leh...

so typical, so common, so fated >.<

and I thought for a very long time, 

and I think the only solution is to

STUDY HARD, WORK HARD, EARN MONEY, THEN PLAY HARD ! 

LOL ! 

HAHA !

Told My DAD !

and yup, so today officially both of them knew I have a boyfriend.
Feel so guilty for hiding it from my dad for so long.
I guess the only reason why I don't have the courage is because my dad really really loves me,
and like, I don't know, I couldn't bear to know if he will be disappointed or what.

But it turns out ok larh,
I just sat beside him and said, "pa, I hv a boyfriend ady~"
then he just replied "congrats ~ "
LOL...

then he didn't say anything regarding that ady,
then I guess..... everything's fine larh =D
haha !

Working as a promoter ！

So...
I worked as a part time promoter for U-mobile last weekend.
At Cold Storage, Sunway Pyramid.
Very exhausting !
I had to like stand and walk around asking people if they are interested in pre-paid plan for 12 hours !
Erm, I personally think it makes no sense having promoters for prepaid cards, especially in places like Cold Storage !

I don't know la, I thought people who needs a prepaid card, they will automatically approach you. Is not that you persuade persuade, then they will buy right ?
Plus, people nowadays all with postpaid plan already what ...

So the fun part of the job was...
I get to know some new friends, 2 working together as U-Mobile promoter, 1 as Lays promoter.
spent last few hours of the day chit chatting ! haha ! lazy to walk around =P

Then another thing is that I get to give out balloons to the small kids !
haha ! they are super cute la ! then their parents will like " hey ! balloons ! say thank you !"
haha !

OMG ! Then there is one kid, he apporached me and say, "Aunty, I want balloon ~"
I was like ( in my mind la) OMG ! Who you calling Aunty ??? T.T
HAHAHA !

Then overall it was okay larh....
my dad complained though, asked me not to do all these stupid things anymore,
he said that I'm wasting my weekend,
I guess he was just a lil heartache XD

Then...
most of the people ignored me,
some smiled and nodded then walk away,
some said thank you =)
Some just flirting around ! chi koh peh fellas !

to wrap it all up, it was sort of a different weekend i guess XD
tata !

Attention !

So right, recently a junior found my blog through google.

Yer very embarrassing lorh !

Coz my whole blog is about my personal life >.<
nothing constructive about life in UNPAD.

Erm,
So if you happened to google and accidentally found my blog and expecting something educational to read then I'm sorry larh ! It's all about my personal life, and I couldn't bother to change this to a private blog, hahaha !

Don't judge me!!!  haha !

Cursing

I realised right, after I came back from indon , I've changed a little lol ...

Coz right last time right I wouldn't say the f word one ,

And now I do mention it one or twice in the blog when im super pissed ...

Sigh ...

Kena scold today WTH !

The issue was :-

Many months ago, I helped my roommate booked an air ticket. 

And then when i came back, I realised that my bank never receive such money. 

Then she said she use cash deposit and she threw away the receipt ady so she cannot do anything ! 

ok la, fine la, then I went and update the bank book lorh ! Then during the whole October no transaction lorh !

Then she went to her side of the bank and ask the person there to call my mom, like to proved that she paid whatsoever la ! Then ask my mom to check again. 

OK, no 1, my mom is not as free as her mom one ok, she worked all day where got time to go to the bank and check with the person in charge. That day went and update bank book also take leave one. Then she just check through machine for the second time see the total amount got change or not la ! then really dont have mar. But she already ask the bank to called my mom then we didnt receive also cannot do anything so I also diam diam ady mar. 

And I happen to help her book her air ticket for this time also larh. And then I told her the total amount and ask her to pay ASAP. What is wrong with that ?! Now I'm using my money to book your ticket for you without any benefits and all i wanted was you to fucking pay asap ! And you know how she responded ! Literally okay.

"The last time I pay you edi u insist I didnt pay. Then now what do you mean ?? U mean I delay payment is it?? U simply accuse people one. WTH. U din check dun accuse people din pay lah. Deng. Next time u talk filter a bit la. U talk like as if I dun pay like that. When i tt money edi u immediately check la. WTH. Past so long edi u only bother me. I pay edi u dun check is my fault la is it. WTH ... banking stuff u also dunno how to check ???

WTF IS WRONG WITH HER !!!!!!

1. From the start I didnt even accuse her of not paying. I just say I didn't receive the money.

2. I just sent " pls bank in the monet ASAP thx" and i suddenly kena marah. 

eh pls ! I dont have the responsibility to book your ticket for you. Im just kind enough to do this favour and now I kena marah ! My mom busy working trusted you guys that the money has been transfered so didnt check kena marah ! Then check ady twice really dont have also kena marah WTF ! I didnt get the money I'm the one who should be angry and I kena marah 

what is this ?

already very angry right. My boyfriend there saying I ALWAYS cannot settle stuff. Saying that he don't understand me . Then saying kindness is used to treat for different people. Then say I'm not matured. 

I don't understand why I'm the one kena blamed by two parties. Even the one who should be supporting me, the one who should make me feel better only telling me that I'm not matured. 

FML  now I didnt receive money also make it look like my fault like that bloody hell 

and he knows what im angry about and he refuse to like make me feel better he just said I'm immatured. 

and i dont know why my fingers are super bengkak now =.=

I dont know what to say anymore FTW

Xia Xue !

lol, yup, another post today,
kinda active recently, too free at home nothing better to do than blogging ! XD

So recently I was addicted to this Xia Xue guide to life videos on YouTube.
From ep 1 two days ago until now I'm at ep 113 XD

They said this Xia Xue is a famous Singaporean blogger, and hence I went to visit her blog,
but I felt nothing special also, just a normal blog where she post about her life,
and she has heavy make up which makes her look so pretty in pictures.

But when I start watching her videos right ,(I forgot what makes me want to start XD) , but anyway my opinion on her was that she's real, straight forward, not that jia jia kind of lady lorh !

I don't think I wanna elaborate anymore, feels weird describing someone you don't even know XD

my point is, go watch her videos during free time la, I'm sure you will enjoy it ! XD

Told my MOM !

yeah, it's a huge step I did today.
Still can't believe I did that.
Dei, commitment ! haha ~

So how it happened was,
I were in the kitchen and my mom's cooking.

And then randomly I said " Ma, I wanna tell you something, and this needs a little bit of courage."

Haha ! I wonder what's in her mind when I said this.

When the first sentence is out, I really feel like giving up la, suddenly all the courage like gone for a moment.

But then I thought since already decided then just spit it out la !

So I asked, " What do you think if I had a boyfriend?"

And she responded, "Who? Why suddenly wanna paktor?"

And then she said, "as long as you don't do anything wrong and it wouldn't influence your studies then ok larh."

haha ! and then it's a little awkward to stand in the kitchen anymore, I guess I'm just afraid if suddenly she shoot out a question and then I don't know how to answer.

The funny part was, after dinner, she logged in to her Facebook profile, open my profile and ask me to point out who he is.

Why would I want to do this in the first place was because the issue I mentioned in the last post makes both of us a little unhappy and hence I decided to do this to cheer him up. Because this was his idea at the first place okay. 

BUT SUPRISINGLY, when I told him, his first reaction was "WTH". Damn him, later see how he explain ! haha !

I mean, I, as a girl la, I would appreciate this kind of acknowledgement.
Like you tell your friends, your family,
at least it's a way to show how... proud, how grateful you are when we are together.
It's not like I'm hideous or what also right, I'm totally presentable (chehwa ~ XD~)
In some ways, I think this is some kind of respect also lorh~

Maybe guys have different perspective or anything.
I don't know.

Sleepless night

Yesterday night was miserable,
I can't even sleep well.

So many thoughts running through my head.

The major thing was about the air ticket la,
but I decided to go back early no matter what.
I mean the money I just saved from this, I can spent it on clothes and stuff for my new room
and the super expensive medical books.
He said he is willing to pay for my air ticket,
But I wouldn't let him do that la seriously.
I know he is my boyfriend, I don't know la,
I mean, I don't want it to look like I'm taking advantage of him,

Plus, it's not like I cannot afford the new air ticket.

I guess I'll be there a week earlier from the others with my ex roommate.
a little stupid but whatever la
rather than sitting here complaining about all these stuff,
It's better I cherish all the moments I had left with my family,
and my lovely room, my lovely house <3
that silly bro ! hahaha !

I seriously can be unbelievably sampat at times la !

I don't act my age most of the time XD

well and that concludes everything la,
I really don't wanna be unhappy about al these stuff anymore...
so smile ~~~ =)

Going back early

Felt like whole world is damn grey right now you wouldn't believe,

What happened was,
I booked my flight ticket back on the 26th Aug.
And now it happens that class starts on the 2nd Sept.
And SUPPOSINGLY he should accompany me back on the 26th despite that everyone is going back on the 31st.
He said his sister insist that he goes back later.

Actually I shouldn't be angry. I know, actually I understand the whole situation, I told him that I'm not also.
But after that video chat, I am. Lol, I don't know if this is angry or disappointment.
I bet he doesn't even know that I'm sad right now.
It's like I don't feel like replying him, actually I don't feel like doing anything,
I'm just staring blankly at the ceiling but figured out I must find a way to spit out all these negativity hence blog ! I don't even have the mood to tanam all my farmville crops right now stupid >.<

I should have booked a new ticket few days ago when it was still RM169. Stupid Uni cannot confirm the date one. Now gg ady larh ! now became RM 300+.

Stupid shit don't know go back one week earlier can do what.

fine la fine la !!

A day out with him ^^

So he came all the way from Johor to meet his friends, 

and reserved Monday for me.

So we went Mid Valley.

where I felt the aura there a little weird,

I can't help but feel that people might see us as an eloping couple. 

hahaha !

why ?

coz you know on weekdays midvalley will be filled with you know, 

businessman , office lady.... and people like that. 

hmm, anyways, in conclusion, day well spent 

tata =D

I'm A Meanie !

Today, I broke someone's heart again.
Why I kept doing all these stuff one >.<

K so what happened was,
There is this one guy, let's name him Joker.
For all of you who know who Joker is... ( yeah, it's him and yes  I still keep in touch with him)
Since I came back, he has been trying to keep in touch with me.
through FB through phone, but I never replied him.
I guess I just want all these to end.

I don't know, to be honest,
I thought we wouldn't keep in touch anymore since Form 5,
and to my surprise, he will still chat with me in FB and sometimes SMS me.

And then when I'm leaving to Indonesia, I thought we will end there,
but again to my surprise, we still chat but very seldom in FB.

And you may ask, why don't you just ignore him from the start.
Maybe I'm just a little soft hearted to do so.

But since i came back, I literally ignored him.
But then at last i still went back to square one. I can't tahan all the guiltiness.
I mean, all he tried to do was to care about me and this is how I treat him back =.=

but then things are still settled though, he said he will stop all these things.
and the conversation sounded so much like a breakup dialogue !

and then out of a sudden he posted "Thanks 4 everything.u really light my world up b4 this.u r my special one.now n always :)" 

And then i don't know whether i should click like or not but I guess I'll just ignore lol

Sem break !

Currently on sembreak ,
As much as I've love doing nothing ,
It's actually kinda meaningless and I started to think that im wasting my time.

I mean, im at home, doing nothing...
Shit >.<

Very stupid.
So many people struggling to live a day more and im here wasting time.

I've tried to find for jobs with HIGH income ! I mean like part time teacher perhaps, but I guess all tuition centers have enough teachers ady.

And then actually I have sufficient time to get myself a driving license but then because of the fees issue I decided to postpone it again.

And I thought I might get to travel somewhere during the break but once again because of the fees issue I guess it's not happening also. God suddenly felt depressed. This is the only two months break in this five years, and then it will get lesser and lesser and I guess it's even harder to plan a trip and hence I think... After my five years course I'll be busy working, all those hectic life might not give me a chance to travel around.

Ok stop stop stop !!!

Enough bye >.<

承担

承担 承担 承担 承担 承担
Stupid

High School Buddies

A bunch of friends that I love so much.
Like seriously,
in front of them,
I can be myself.

Crazy night, great night !
Feels great being able to meet them again.

8 years, one even more than that,
not easy...
haha !

they partially make me who I am now.
yay !!!!

Fees

I miss my old life,
Where I don't have to worry about my fucking fees

3D2N camp !

previously lazy to talk about this, haha !

so this is a so called "supercamp" program where all the first years HAVE ! MUST ! COMPULSORY! to join. 

Erm, it's like you home stay la, where you will be staying at a very very kampung area ! literally very kampung! for 2 nights in one of the villagers house.

From my campus to the really really kampung place takes about 12 hours.

It's like from one end of the land to the opposite side . 

And the road ah ! OMG ! VERY VERY BUMPY !!!!

and lots of turns ! for 12 hours !

OMG next time pay me also i dont wanna go like seriously !

and then 3 days right , 

one day spent on the journey lo !

they make us wake up at 4 am ! 4 !!!! and my bus moves at 3pm ! very funny right ? walao !

then dawn only reach the place T.T then only can sleep few hours T.T

ok ok, next day, we start helping the locals la, 

we are divided into few groups... like this group for survey, this group for pembantu for the houseman....

I am in the survey group, I don't know whether it's consider lucky or not lorh...

Like less job but not fun, 

when other people get to see the housemans operating minor operations la, very minor one. 

But nvm la...

at least get to rest earlier. haha !

And then ar, the seniors say the toilet very ancient la, shit in the hole one la ! 

but of course not la, the toilet of the house i'm staying quite big and clean, haha !

then the third day, we spent on going back !

damn lame one la ! have to suffer that bumpy road again....

N that's all for the trip 

haha !

Shift house 2

Now I totally recalled what happened ady !
Wth !!!! Damn pissed off right now !
Wth wth wth wth wth !!!!!

I remembered asking my roommate whether she wants to share van or not ! Just because she wants to wait for an answer from the private van hence she told me she don't know !

Then ?

Omg ! Wth ! Then she said that I never ask her ! Omg ! Pissed off to the max right now ! Dammit !

See ! Couldn't even sleep at this hour !

Great ! And when im quarelling with another person she diam diam sitting there.

Sigh, go back la go back la,
Too much drama here !
>.<

Shift house !

I thought it should be a happy thing ,
And we turn out quarelling ,
And I thought why the whole day am I so awkward around them ,
And the fact is that they actually kinda blame me for the transportation today =/

But what really happened was,
Few weeks ago, i already asked if they wanna use the public van, to shift all the stuff to our new house.
And they said they rather use the can that has to be booked,
Ok fine.

And then yesterday me n him was asking for public vans la,
And when I came back, they already went down to ask the management to provide vans, then of course I didn't ask la,

But I rmb-ed asking my roommate whether she wants to join our angkut or not, she said she don't know ! She really said she don't know !

Next, today afternoon , they still couldn't contact their van,
And then I said, u guys wanna use ours or not ...
You guys don't want what .
Then ? Why am I to take the blame? I did ask what, you did come to ask for the price also what ... What is this ?

I don't know whether to blame me for assuming you guys doesn't wanna use the public van

Or

Should I blame you for blaming me just because you can't contact your own van ?

Fine la, im leaving soon,
Don't wanna stay in this issue anymore .

Result's Day !

Result's Day !!!!

erm, nothing much to say here, 

just that I'm lucky I passed first year !

and I promise I'm going to score better next sem ! 

I must !!!

Because....

lol

I just scored 2.81 (my cgpa)

kinda low actually....

yup, so gonna score next sem !  =D

三人行

对不起啦 ，
三人行，
我真的不会，也不喜欢，
好玩在哪里我都不懂，
当我自私好啦，
没办法，
还是喜欢二人世界，

（好像有一点小贱）

管不了那么多人的感受啦！
就是酱 >.<

Quarelled for the first time

Not really quarreling actually ,
Just kinda having some problems on some issues and then kinda like blaming each other on stuffs,
Then ignoring each other's presence for a while,
Then I sat at the pantry emo-ing for quite some time =/
And lastly, problem settled...

Not bad, we quarelled, haha !

Happy Bday !

Wishing someone happy birthday on a wrong date XD
I realized I did this every year.
Just that in each year, different person kena ,
Damn epic,
Like last year, I wished the person one month earlier,
Then this year, 3 days earlier XD

To the victims : I'm sincerely sorry , hahahaha ! My memory really not good larh, XD

I have to stop doing all this silly stuff man !
Hahahaha !

Exam coming ar !!

My mom called worrying so much that I will be too stressed up,

My boyfriend gave me every notes he can get, so that we can score together,

Friends giving support, although we are so far apart ,

Loan depends on result ...

Oh my gosh, if I fail to score this time,
I don't know how to face all of them that have faith in me ...

K, back to study !
=/ bb <3

UNPAD Day 290 - Last day of May

It's almost a year here,
Unbelievable ...
Haha !

Nothing much to say today,
Just, finals next week,
And everyone is busy preparing ,

Like when you wanna spend some time for breakfast right,
You can see people around you holding notes reading...
At the spot destroy all the appetite you have !

Sigh, everytime during exam this one question will always appear in my mind without fail - why the hell did you choose this course ?!?!?!

But after that ok ady la,

Gosh, I miss home,
End quickly pls >.<

伯乐

So.... How should I begin ? Haha !

Have you ever wondered that maybe your life wasn't meant to be like that,
Maybe once in life. You dreamed to be a star, a street artist perhaps ,
But sooner or later,
You realised that you have to choose a more realistic future ,
A future that can provide food on your dinner table
A future that can at least provide your parents a comfortable life,

How pathetic that dreams are meant to be swallowed up by reality. How cruel...

Have you thought of the ifs in life ?

If im lucky enough to meet someone who realises my talent ?
If im lucky enough to be in the top bball team ?

Yeah, and everything will be different ...

(Lucky for me, my dream is to be a doctor)

However, life is life, maybe it just works that way,

What I can say is just appreciate what you have and live to the fullest everyday

=D

And then ...

I felt bad,
After lecture today,
When we walked back,
My friends start saying that I put much more attention in my relationship than friendship....
Lol ...
What can I say ?
A person I stay together with in the same room, and other two on the same floor,
Compared to a person living at another dorm that I can only see him .... I mean less often la, lol ...

And then they said why we rather eat dinner alone, like just two of us rather than calling them along,
I personally feel weird,
I mean, why ?
Weird...

But this is not the main thing I wanna say.
The point is,
They said my roommate almost cried when she asked if she overreacted today (as mentioned in the last post)...
Guiltiness x infinity >.<

Im not saying I did nothing wrong la,
Im just a normal person,
There are times where I don't know what's the right thing to say or do,
And hence I just took the easy way,
Mind my own business,
But I didn't mean to neglect anyone,
Nor ignore ones feelings.

Anyways, after apologizing, and she apologizes back, I think it's settled ,

Hope nothing more of this stuff will happen again =/

I feel so ...

Aggrieved and insulted
What the hell ?
People just think of what you didn't do for them,
Not what you ACTUALLY DID for them ...
Fine la ,
I don't care la...
Complain la ,
Go around complaining lorh ,

Go tell each and everyone how bad I treated you after im in a relationship !
Im cool about it !
At least next time I dont have to feel guilty anymore !
At least I know next time I don't have to offer you anything because you actually kinda take it for granted anyway ...
It's not that I need you to like, "omg im so grateful belanja you makan k ? "
At least not freaking say "oh, now like that la ! More n more selfish ady, I rmb you !"
And then start digging out what I did to her ...
Ok fine, since you feel so unhappy about it, then complain,

I'll just stay silent here .

Or maybe you are just kidding ?
Fine, I mind, I small gas
Whatever, I don't care.

The end.

Batchmates

Batchmates
Fighting yo !!!
Haha !

5.5.13

Ytd we went to Bandung to celebrate my roommate's birthday in advance !
So, actually , haha !
I spent the whole day walking around with him <3
Because I wore heels, he was afraid I couldn't walk well,
So he bought me flats,
Lol,
Kinda happy spending time with him,
We went in to shops,
Trying out clothes we chose for us,
Haha !

And then during the night,
We celebrate my roommate's bday.
In a club,
Which paying for a table cost about rm600,
Really that expensive one meh ?
Lol ,
And it's not even fun !
Coz we went there too early I think,
And even the coke is more expensive than the beer,
Lol ...
Had a crazy night,
I wasn't drunk but I felt so energyless ,
N he was there taking care of me.
Hahaha! Felt so funny la,
He literally had to hug me everytime we stop coz I couldn't stand on my own ,
There are some parts where I didn't know it really happened, or I imagined it, haha !

So, funs over,
Time to settle down n aim for finals !!gambateh !!!!!

Broke up

I broke up...
To go for someone I always love ...
I know,
Im being a bitch,
This act is quite irresponsible ,
But as a friend ,
I hope you guys will support n und,
At least,
I feel really happy n contented now <3 

Badminton third place yoo !

Never thought that my bmt skills so geng leh , haha !
Anyways, the first sports medal in life ,
Like seriously ,
Haha !
Seriously never thought before there is a possibility of getting a sports medal
Hahaha !

First, thx to him that randomly asked me to participate and I took his words seriously and I went for selection the next day .

Next, thx to the P.I.C. for finding me a  bmt partner, and jio-ed  me for bmt training

Then, thx to my bmt partner, Andrea. Her bmt skills are really awesome ! Haha !

Next is seniors that gave comments on how we play lorh ...

Lastly is my dad la ! Haha ! The only sports I can play is bmt, seriously ...
Haha !

Lol ... The medal looks chiplak tho ... But still happy la, weeee ~~~

In a relationship

this is really awkward >.<
lol, i don't know why, couldn't help it but felt a little awkward admitting all these stuff.

It's a long distance relationship,
started a few days ago...
He is currently studying in Inti, Nilai.
And I knew him from NS.

So, why so sudden ? How it begins ?
It's like that.
It was his birthday last Feb...
then since then we start whatsapping..
and then during our chats,
we found out that we had so many things in common...
coincidence or what ?

and then eventually we are in a relationship now...

What about the guy here ?
 I don't know man. He doesn't like me, no point waiting right...
But ! I have to say I'm not treating my boyfriend now as a lifebuoy k ...

Frankly speaking la,
I don't really trust long distance relationship,
this time I'm like gambling >.< see how it goes,
patiently follow the flow see where God leads me.

If u ask me what is my point of view about love ? about a relationship ?
All I can say is for now la... I mean at this moment,
not the previous me, not the future me .
I think that feel is right then on lo...
too young to hesitate so much...
Haha ! Seriously, under huge influence of "How I Met Your Mother"

A little disappointed on myself la,
'Cause I should be focusing on my studies ...
But, i don't know la, it happened...

That's all.

The End.

P.S. Sorry if I didn't tell you this yet. I don't know how to tell =/

UNPAD Day 231 - Exam Week !

So ,
this is the second semester's mid term,
and tomorrow has no paper, hence...
blog !!!!!!!!!!!

haha !
how is the exam ??
So far, ok la, i feel ...
lol,
you know what ,
sometimes i feel like,
i used the whole day to study while one uses only the night to study,
why can they like know much more stuff than me ?
OK La, i admit, yesterday i simply study one,
like only go through slides, never seriously memorize all the key points...
ok, i get my reason,
but yet, still feel unfair,
its not that i don't put in effort also =( 

Haha, that's the only thing to complain today though....
Life recently wasn't bad, it was okay larh...

And... I wanna announce ....
Status : It's complicated !
LOL !!!

Haha, long story, i'll explain after exam
So, be happy for me first k ?
Coz... I am happy now =P

You know what food i crave the most now ??
Actually all of them XD
I sometimes all the time wish i had the body where no matter how much food you stuff into your body,
(biologically : high metabolism =.=")
YOU WILL NOT GAIN WEIGHT !!!!

haha !
and with that body !
I'm gonna stuff a lot of chocolate muffins everyday !!!
Why chocolate muffins ?
Coz I like la ! =P
haha !

O.O

其实对方不喜欢你，你再怎么追也没用，对方喜欢你，根本不需要挖空心思去追。或许真有一天他被你的诚意所打动，可最终大多还是会分手的。------ 因为爱情不是感动，你不是他心目中的理想伴侣，即使一时接受你，将来碰上他心仪的那一位，一样会离开你。
(source:weibo )

UNPAD Day 213 - updates !

Hey bloggie, I neglected you for a while wei, haha !

So... Lets see what updates I have now,
Hmm... Im already in the second sem and it is all about reproductive system ,
Not bad la, at least better than last sem !

Basically u juat need to study sufficiently, which is not exactly what im trying to do now, haha !

But im trying, really ! Haha !

Well, if everything turns out right, if I were able to score good results , I mean great results this sem, I guess I will be able to go back on July !

I wanna go back home, desperately, so well, I'll try my best !

Next, hmm ...
Omg ! So much gossips are spreading around recently,
It's not that I like to gossip and I purposely walk around gossiping k, it just comes to me =/

I hope I wouldn't become one of them who spreads all these things around !
I'll remain silent , yup, that's what im gonna do !

Exam is around the corner ! Specifically two weeks later , weeeee~ crazy !

You know what ! I started going gym when I was back here, but I don't see myself slimming down ! Worse still !!! Pimples are popping out at the forehead ! Omg ! Heartache man ! Haha ! Have to find alternatives !

Ow ow ow ! Today, the lecturer brought us to see corpse in the anatomy room, well, the corpse looks old tho ... And getting to the thought that it was real human makes me felt a little disgusted, gosh, it's like, lol, dunno, can't find the right word to express this.

And that's for today ! =)

Super scary !!!

One episode of Grey's Anatomy ! Just one episode !!!

Im feeling super screwed ! What the hell ! How the hell can i do all this !
Shit shit shit !!!
Im just a person who only plays with my hp, blog, internet , taking profile pictures !

Shit la shit la !!!!
Why the hell did I choose this ?
Why the hell !!!

Stupid on call 36hours , bluff ppl one >.<

Ok la, must get serious ady >.<

The sun always rises =)

Haha ! It means new day new hope =P my own definition tho . XD
So despite of the shit that happened few days ago ... I stood back up la !!!
Thanks to u guys who had my back ,
Xie xie ! Lots of love , muaxx muaxx !
Haha !

Then, thanks to you also la, didn't expect that you would find me after that =) although you wouldn't see this but anyway ! Yeah ... Felt better after that chat  =)

Haha ! Life wad ... Sure got ups and downs , I know ,no worries no worries !

So !!!!!! Smile =)

Shit happens

可以弄到我的心情那么糟糕莫过于你亲口跟我说声我不喜欢你 :'( 口说没事，心里其实痛的很，拖了那么久，从你说你不喜欢我，到对我有好感，希望我为你改变，到现在你对我什么感觉也没了，我坚持那么久的东西也没了…我恨你给我希望然后又让我失望，我恨你还让我抱着那个所谓的希望抱那么久 …我不会忘记今天我为你留下的眼泪… =( 我明白不是喜欢就是不喜欢的道理... 算了，怎么说，这也是一种解脱… 我还是希望你幸福快乐 …