Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Boyfriend vs family

Yeah. So before coming back to Malaysia , my boyfriend and I plan to like meet each others parents ..
No special reason la, just to know each other better ...
I personally really looking forward for this ...

But unfortunately, he will only be at his parents' house during the raya holidays ...
And coincidently, my grandmother's birthday falls on a day before raya.
And it is more impossible for me to leave my family on a public holiday. 
Call me mama's girl , whatever. I am !

Then im quite disappointed, I know he is too, I feel so useless and helpless right now. I really don't know how to make things better ...

Somebody please read this and teach me what to do
I desperately need suggestions right now =(

Sometimes I really wanna like rebel once a while, like do what your heart says...  but it is really impossible ... It's like your conscience kept reminding you that this is the only month you have with your family, but at the same time, it tells you that this is also the only chance you get to meet his family members ...

I mean, not the only chance la, but I already let him down this time, who knows how many times are there left for me to let him down ...

Damn sadded la ...
You und my feeling or not ???

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Types of people

Going back to Malaysia tmr !!!
weeee !!!!!
not that kind of excited and looking forward feeling that I expect myself to feel....
different place, different problems,
anyway,
I just wanna leave this place ASAP !

as the days past, I realised....
some friends are just for meaningless talking,
some are just to make your life less sad,
some appear in your life for you to learn new things ,
or they are just like a mirror for you to make sure that you won't be like them...
or behave like them...

well, not everyone is easy to talk to..
I mean, they will only see what you have in the exterior,
how many of them are willing to see what's inside you ?

I guess we are just born to face more and more problems when we get older and older.
lesser and lesser people to rely on until one day,
there is no one but you ...

be grateful if you still have someone to talk to, someone to share your burden,
someone to take you out from this whole bunch of problems...

if not, be strong, and fight them ...
victory will not be easy, but it will be worth it =)

sorry for the long winded meaningless mumbling lol...


Friday, July 4, 2014

The Result Day !!!

So yesterday was result day,
and that means my second year has ended !!!!
thank God !
I SURVIVED !!!!

HAHA !

So, my result was... not bad haha !
but not genius-ly good lol
I got 3.41 >.< have to try harder next semester. =.=

Ok, anyways, I really worked hard for it ...
so I really hate it if people said I'm lucky ...
ok la, in some ways, i'm really lucky BUT
hello , after so many sleepless nights, this is not only lucky okayyyy...

ESPECIALLY IF THE WORDS ARE FROM PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T STUDY !
JIE JIE STUDY DER LORH OK ~
(U MMG LUCKY LA, LAST MINUTE STUDY andyet STILL PASS THE SEMESTER )

ok, so enough of bragging hahahah !
although we had just taken our results,
we still have an optional remedial session,
where you can retake any 4 papers that you are unsatisied with your previous marks..
that's why I cannot go home yet larh =(

still have to prepare for exams... AGAIN...

I'm taking some of my first year papers because...
My result really suck =/
because,
first, not used to the system,
second, first year mar... slacking most of the time lorh ... and
third, i didn't stay for this remedial session last year, hence, I have to pay my debts this year haha !
FORTH, I WILL NOT LET THE DAMAGE I DID IN THE PART RUIN MY CERT. IN THE FUTURE


So , lots of love, I miss home and I miss Malaysia FOOD...
I'm coming home, remember to miss me , I'm coming home
muaxx muaxx muaxx.... hehehe ....