National Service...

lol, i no which place im in already,
it was kuala kubu bharu or something like that which is located in Ampang...
and i kept on convincing my mom not to worry about me...
everything is gonna be fine...
but it doesn't last long...
because i myself can't convince myself that everything is gonna be alright...
mind that im the only one in batch 1....
and im gonna face this all alone by myself...
leaving my hse for 3 months is already what i don't like most...
and i dunno how is it going to be...
what if nobody wanna be frenz wid me? what if it is a dangerous place...
then my neighbour come saying... now is the rainy season n sure gt many spirits come out ...~.~lol.....

i dunno larh...
then ? what will be my plan after national service?
Form 6 , A-levels or foundation in science ??
coz actually i haven't even choose which course to take after that ...
although i've been telling everyone im considering medics, but is this the course i really love? is this the course i would be interested in? i dunno....

and i just realise.... i wont meet the chinese boys anymore unless there is a gathering, lol... haha... now oni i know...except ann....
and then i realise , after chem paper, i wont hv a chance to meet non-bio frenz anymore, unless there r gatherings....
n after my last paper, im counting down for 2 more weeks to ns !

lol, actually im afraid.... afraid to leave home, afraid to be lonely....
argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!