Hey, 2 days till 2015 ！

It's going to be a new year in 2 more days, happy and sad at the same time.
Happy because I had actually survived another semester on my medical degree and sad because this means I am another year older.
In this year, many things had happened.

What I really wanna remember here is trust and disappointment.
I had this friend, we had this very weird relationship. I hated her but at the same time, I don't. I take her as a friend, I look past all her flaws and take her as a friend. But one day, I realise you don't always get what you give. Maybe you give your whole heart out just for people to stab on it, to hurt you. Anyway, I learn to let go, forgive... I don't know if this is God's act or not but people start telling me that they dislike this person too, and then out of a sudden, I pitied her. Karma, people say, is a bitch. Until today, things escalated to a level that cannot be turned back. I don't know how will our future be, I don't know if we are still friends anymore. But at least I know, no more fake smiles, fake laughs, fake conversations. Sometimes when we talked, I mean, I know you don't like me, but yet, you can talk to me, laugh with with me, I'm starting to feel confused on whether who is faker, me or you ?

Next, I'm happy this year is gonna end because it's full of tragedy. I kept receiving sad news from people around me... I'm not gonna say much about this but I think what I learn from this is to say how much you love a person before it is too late, especially to your parents.

Ok, next, another year with my boyfriend. Well, almost. But I'm grateful. I hate being alone, I hate being lonely, I hate eating alone in the room. At least, there is someone here to rely on, to support me whenever I'm down, for me to fight with whenever I'm bored. Although we do quarrel quite often, I guess that's the way we communicate. He may not be the sweetest guy, the most romantic and creative guy, he is definitely a kayu but I appreciate his presence in my life <3

Still left with 2 weeks of exam. I'm going back home ! I can't wait to meet my family and friends. To actually have a break from all these dramas =)

Glass of Milk

Found this from a blog, thought that it would be great to spread the moral behind this story =)


One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry.

He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked, “How much do I owe you?” “You don’t owe me anything,” she replied. “Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness.” He said….. “Then I thank you from my heart.”

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Year’s later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly ! was called in for the consultation. When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to room. Dressed in his doctor’s gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case. After a long struggle, the battle was won.

Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill. She read these words….. “Paid in full with one glass of milk”

Signed Dr. Howard Kelly. Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: “Thank You God. Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands.”

credits to : virtual medic

in the end, i have already forgotten what's the point of being mad.
Why am I mad at the first place ...
but I just couldn't let it go.
because i remembered how hurt and irritated  i was back then...
and how i know i don't want to go through that feeling everyday.

why can't you understand...
why can't you know what i'm thinking ...

is this the end ?

我们还适合在一起吗？

每当我很想放手的时候， 

突然会想起原来自己还很爱你。。。

原来我不想你走。。。

不是因为怕一个人的生活。。。

虽然真的怕，

可是更怕没有你的生活。 

你还想要我们两个在一起吗？

你还爱我吗？

你有想过我的感受吗？

你懂尊重吗？ 你懂，可是你觉得我不需要。。。

还是你懂，可是觉得我不配拥有？

可是一句爱足够吗？

一句爱， 就可以没有尊严吗？

一句爱， 就可以放弃你曾经想要，可是在他身上得不到的爱情吗？

我们什么时候开始天天吵架的？

是我脾气不好？还是你真的过分了？我不懂。。。 

我真的很不想很不想我的爱情到后来就好像我爸爸妈妈那样。。

我真的不想。。。

小妹妹， 思想成熟一点好吗？

“这世界上，没有浪漫，这世界上不是甜蜜的。。。 “

真的是这样吗？

I'm not hurt anymore

I saw a post today on facebook,
it's about 15 true but untold facts of a medical student ...
one of them is having friends that will help you during your worst...
I mean, it is true, but only happen to a few lucky ones la..
I couldn't complain because I found my boyfriend <3

But to you, I'm really confused,
OMG, what the hell you want ?
If you are not happy with me,
you might as well just say it out,
Why do you have to pretend that you are good friends with me and all ...
But stab me at the back =.=
Just ignore me lah,
not like I care,
I used to care, not anymore....

Immature....

I'm allergic to two-faced people, please stay away from me.
If you don't take me as a friend, fine, go away,
don't act like you like me and all, don't let me think that we are really friends.
It makes me sick.

Happy Birthday bloggie !

I can't believe I had blogged since the age of 16 !
means this blog is 5 years old ady eh !!! haha !

And then when I read back what I had written this few years,
despite of all the memories flooding back, I kind of regret to not write every details of my life out...
I mean, there are sad moments which when I now look back, it seemed so funny,
There were all the drama moments with all my friends and family...

I missed those times =)

Anyway, I shall not do this again.
5 years from now, I'm going to read back all these and laugh at all the dramas I'm going through now
haha !

I wish I can put more attention on my studies =)
I wish I can do better this year, especially this system,
because I  think this is the most related system to my family lol
and I hope I could learn more in this system ...

I wish I can succesfully graduate from this course,
I wish I can be a successful doctor,
I don't have to be like super rich, I just hope that I could afford a comfortable life for my family.
I wish I could really help those patients ...

I hope time flies where I could go back to my own country.

Happy Birthday to me

This year's birthday felt different
well, not sure if this is the way to describe this but ,
I felt like I have gone to another phase in life (cheh~)
hahaha !

no, like... it's different from previous birthdays,
I mean, people who greet you and all, changed...
I missed last time, but i also enjoyed now
so.. i guess this is growing up =)

Well, thanks to everyone who greeted, wished or gave me presents,
thank to you guys who still had me in your mind after so long...
If not, I und that we all hv our busy lives going on ... ;) don't worry,
I'm sure you guys still miss me , hahaha !

every year, i actually anticipated for today to come because it's like an opportunity or chance to talk to people that eventually u stop talking to despite of how close u guys were last time...

even a short conversation is enough, to prove that, ya... this person is still in my life,
I had never lost you ...
especially you, i still hope i didn't lose you despite of the things we've been through but it seems impossible. I guess people can't be greedy =( 

But, to wrap things up,
thank God for what I've gotten today...

Thanks for this wonderful 21 years of life...

and I realise I couldn't do it ...
>.<

Don't blame me for being a bitch from now on

For two years I try to please you,
For two years I try to make everyone around me happy,
although sometimes I can be a little ignorant, but still, I try to make it up to you.

And yet, this is what I get...
You feel uncomfortable with my presence ?
You don't want me in an occasion where you were there ?

I'm writing this is not to remind myself how bad you are or to hold grudge
I'm writing this to remind myself no matter how much you give,
Sometimes you just can't expect people to treat you the same.

I learned my lesson.

I don't know how I will face you after this...
But at least I know I don't have to put such high hopes in our friendship.

Today will be the day our friendship died.
Today will be the day I won't put hope and effort anymore.

Thanks for letting me see this.

If one day you start complainng about my ignorance and my bitchi-ness,
please don't forget, you started it first.

why couldn't I meet that sort of people that makes me feel special all the time.
I feel so worthless right now

Updates : bf's family

hi...
finally have some time to blog...
not that I've been super busy or anything,
it's just that I'm always outside with either parents or friends.

So, yup, the trip to my boyfriend's house in N9...
we took the KTM to Seremban, then her sister fetch us from Seremban to his house.
I was there for 3 days 2 nights.

It was ok, her sisters were friendly, so was his father....
when I arrived there were so many durians and rambutans haha !
his dad opened a few durians for me and it was so filling >.<

oh ya, and I met both of his doggy, bi and bu, which are cute too...
and his dogs liked me hehe ...

erm, actually nothing much to talk about,
what I did in his house...
wake up, prepare lunch with his family, rest, prepare dinner with his family, dinner , mahjong then sleep.
and it repeats...
haha !

on the second day, his sister brought me to a nice chinese restaurant for dinner,
and there were so many seafoods and it was so kind of her..

well, really nothing much to talk about,
I shall say his family is really friendly =)
nice experience

Boyfriend vs family

Yeah. So before coming back to Malaysia , my boyfriend and I plan to like meet each others parents ..
No special reason la, just to know each other better ...
I personally really looking forward for this ...

But unfortunately, he will only be at his parents' house during the raya holidays ...
And coincidently, my grandmother's birthday falls on a day before raya.
And it is more impossible for me to leave my family on a public holiday. 
Call me mama's girl , whatever. I am !

Then im quite disappointed, I know he is too, I feel so useless and helpless right now. I really don't know how to make things better ...

Somebody please read this and teach me what to do
I desperately need suggestions right now =(

Sometimes I really wanna like rebel once a while, like do what your heart says...  but it is really impossible ... It's like your conscience kept reminding you that this is the only month you have with your family, but at the same time, it tells you that this is also the only chance you get to meet his family members ...

I mean, not the only chance la, but I already let him down this time, who knows how many times are there left for me to let him down ...

Damn sadded la ...
You und my feeling or not ???

Types of people

Going back to Malaysia tmr !!!
weeee !!!!!
not that kind of excited and looking forward feeling that I expect myself to feel....
different place, different problems,
anyway,
I just wanna leave this place ASAP !

as the days past, I realised....
some friends are just for meaningless talking,
some are just to make your life less sad,
some appear in your life for you to learn new things ,
or they are just like a mirror for you to make sure that you won't be like them...
or behave like them...

well, not everyone is easy to talk to..
I mean, they will only see what you have in the exterior,
how many of them are willing to see what's inside you ?

I guess we are just born to face more and more problems when we get older and older.
lesser and lesser people to rely on until one day,
there is no one but you ...

be grateful if you still have someone to talk to, someone to share your burden,
someone to take you out from this whole bunch of problems...

if not, be strong, and fight them ...
victory will not be easy, but it will be worth it =)

sorry for the long winded meaningless mumbling lol...

The Result Day !!!

So yesterday was result day,
and that means my second year has ended !!!!
thank God !
I SURVIVED !!!!

HAHA !

So, my result was... not bad haha !
but not genius-ly good lol
I got 3.41 >.< have to try harder next semester. =.=

Ok, anyways, I really worked hard for it ...
so I really hate it if people said I'm lucky ...
ok la, in some ways, i'm really lucky BUT
hello , after so many sleepless nights, this is not only lucky okayyyy...

ESPECIALLY IF THE WORDS ARE FROM PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T STUDY !
JIE JIE STUDY DER LORH OK ~
(U MMG LUCKY LA, LAST MINUTE STUDY andyet STILL PASS THE SEMESTER )

ok, so enough of bragging hahahah !
although we had just taken our results,
we still have an optional remedial session,
where you can retake any 4 papers that you are unsatisied with your previous marks..
that's why I cannot go home yet larh =(

still have to prepare for exams... AGAIN...

I'm taking some of my first year papers because...
My result really suck =/
because,
first, not used to the system,
second, first year mar... slacking most of the time lorh ... and
third, i didn't stay for this remedial session last year, hence, I have to pay my debts this year haha !
FORTH, I WILL NOT LET THE DAMAGE I DID IN THE PART RUIN MY CERT. IN THE FUTURE


So , lots of love, I miss home and I miss Malaysia FOOD...
I'm coming home, remember to miss me , I'm coming home
muaxx muaxx muaxx.... hehehe ....

The Bali Trip 2014 : Beach and Babes !

Yup, so I just came back from Bali .... =D

and it is such an alluring and serene place <3 

filled with all the artistic architecture, embellished with hints of Hinduism design ...

not to mention the sun, the beaches and the babes ! haha ! 

So first, let me show you a selfie of me on the plane XD 

P.S. this is my face when I have not more than 2 hours of sleep before the flight >.<

Upon arrival, we ate something light in the airport, then straight to ULUWATU TEMPLE, which is located at Padang - Padang . What you can expect here is nice sea view and lot of monkeys ... haha !

saw the monkey statue between the pool ? ya, the said this is the place where monkey swims....

so this is the temple...
Oh ya ! and wear decently before going in, if not you will see yourself wrapping in a purple cloth like me =(
I wore shorts that day ...

the girls =)

 After that, we visited to a beach nearby called the Padang - Padang beach, soft sands clear sea water, but many stones =(

Most of all , bikinis and six packs is abundant here XD

little kiosk nearby, if u really wanna buy something, bargain first !
Don't be afraid to cut the price in half.
Whenever you think the price you offer is too little, it is actually not so little at all ok ！ 

don't ask why am I not in bikini ! I'm very sad >.<

After that, we head to another beach at Tanjung Benoa, for water sports,

well, the price is kinda expensive if you only play one type of water sport, 

so, upon reaching, there will be like some person in charge that will sell you packages of water sports . 

I highly recommend "Big Mable" ! I swear it is so fun that you will wanna try it again and again ! 

I didn't have the time to take any pictures... but I hope you can imagine it out from my words hehe...

They have all kinds of water sports like parasailing , banana boat and so on .

The beach is only suitable for water sports . ONLY .

I got major sunburn while waiting for my turn =( damn pain haha ! 

Lesson of the day : Never ever forget your sunblock ! =)

Next we went back to our hotel ... Because there are 11 of us, we rented something like a semi-D...

It's called "Kuta Ardenia" which I'll rate it 9/10...

It is a super nice place. 

Dinner is in a beach-side restaurant. The environment is totally 10/10 but the food... hmm... I think it's because I took a package, they grilled all the seafood... so it's not that delicious after all. I'll give it 4/10. Unless you ought to try their ala carte, maybe it taste nicer, I don't know =/ If you are there early, you might get to see the sunset also =)

friends and I       

    

these are the seafoods, I don't know about you but I don't really like it ...

boyfriend and I

After that, we went clubbing... I will not say much about it because I didn't have much fun... 

But in Kuta, the night life is very very happening. 

A club that everyone recommend is called "Legian" ! 

So if you are there, enjoy ^^

The next day, we went to a place called "Ubut" ... well, there are a lot of souvenirs there. It's a pretty town actually, very flamboyant, very colourful. .. Nothing much to say here, just a place that sells souvenirs.  

On the way to Tanah Lot, we visited a place where they produce "Luwak Coffee" 

Next we went to Tanah Lot. There is a very famous temple here ...

Sunset view is superb ! 

Make sure you are there around 3pm so that you will have enough time to take pictures of the scenery and also the sunset. 

The next day, we just walk around the beach walk in Kuta... 

  

Kuta beach - the best place for surfing !

I kissed a girl

Hahaha !
First time in my life,
But to be honest, it's something I always wanted to do and it's one of my goal to achieve before the age of 25, no joke ...

And here it is, mission accomplished !
Wakaka ...

So this is how it happened ...
We were playing cards and I lost , then they dare me to kiss the person who loses the following round,
And then lucky it was shehui la,
Then they suggested licking which is super gross, I was the one that thought the idea though but it was meant to see other people suffer , hahahaha !
Anyway , at last, it was only kissing on the lips , just lips to lips n sustain there for 5 seconds ...

The feeling is kinda different , coz like if kiss lips to lips I only kissed my boyfriend before , so I don't know how it's like in general but kissing shehui is different , girls lip softer wakaka n less fuller XD

Then overall ok ok la haha not bad not bad =P

Don't ask why are we so free, exam is around the corner but everyone just decides to fool for a while hahaha !

Guys just don't listen to girls, do they ?

So, there is just a friend of mine who is really really really obsessive/crazy about this online game ...

He used to go to the cyber cafe everyday for few hours to play, sometimes if we don't have class the next day, he can play till morning.

I find it kind of ... over la, everything should have its limit right ,

Not to say playing online games is forbidden or anything but don't go play overnight and sacrifice your sleeping time right ? Most importantly, it's bad for health !!!

Then, I told him la, one day, randomly,
I said exam is coming, why do you still play so oftenly...
Then he said, for fun lorh and ya, i know exam is around the corner, I feel stress also,
but yet he still goes and play everyday...

Maybe he doesn't wanna listen to me because who am I to judge him on what he does in his life kan,
Or maybe the egoness of a guy will automatically block out whatever advise a girl gives =/

anyways, all the best la, u r a medical student , shouldn't do this to your life, behave like a medical student mar =/

I couldn't cook =/

Yes I know im a girl but seriously I just couldn't ...
People cook when they have to eat, when they are hungry right,
It just took so long for the raw materials to be .... Unraw lol ...

Seriously , even instant noodle, when im really hungry I just simply cook it for a few minutes and eat ...

I don't have the patience to just stand there and wait,

So bo bee bo bee this will be my future husband... Or bobeemyfuturehusbandcancookkay ,

If not I'll just eat not fully cooked food =/

365 Days

Officially a year now =)
and gratefully still counting ...

you know, I've tried to be as contented as I can be ...
I know my expectations are a little too high,
Come to think of it, maybe not,
and I know I'm not that perfect lady to deserve all this...

But why other people's first year anniversary so damn sweet and mine is like other ordinary day ?
It's like my life is already miserable, it is not as good as other people, can't at least my relationship life is something that people will at least just a little jealous or a little envy ?

Am I asking for too much ?

Maybe I am...
Some people who love each other can't even be together and I get to be with my love one for a year already,
I should feel contented, I should feel grateful... I should feel happy

But right now, no, none of my feelings is grateful, none of it is happy...
Ok, I don't expect like a big bouquet of flowers from you, I don't expect a room filled with chocolates from you but if my anniversary is also like any other day, then why bother celebrate ? why is it so special ? I don't need you to spend money doing all sort of stuff, but just show me you cared ?

Huilin told me a story today...

One day, a couple wants to cross a bridge, the man crosses it first and when the lady wants to cross, she ask if the man can come back to the other side to cross with her because she felt scared,
then the man said if it's ok can u cross by yourself ? So, the woman crosses the bridge filled with a mixture of sad and unwillingness. When she reaches the other end of the bridge, she broke into tears realised that all this while, her man was supporting the bridge so that he can go over the other side safely. So, sometimes, maybe what he gave you is not obvious but no doubt he did many things behind you in order to show his care, his support, his unconditional love.

the moral behind this story, I always knew. I knew he was there whenever I'm sad, I knew although he scolds me and all when I create problems, eventually he will find a way to help me solve things. Just the way he loves me is not how people show their love.

He teases me all the time, literally ALL THE TIME. He laughs at me, mocking me in front of my friends sometimes, and apologizes to me at the end of the day. Everyday it repeats and repeats, I no longer feel that his apology is sincere, it's just a way to resolve my unhappiness and start everything all over again the next day.

I once told him that whatever he did, I will forgive him if he apologizes and I really meant it. But imagine if you listen to the same apology everyday, repeating and repeating, it doesn't sound sincere anymore.

He thinks that teasing is a way of communication, because him and his family , him and his friends communicate in such a way. He thinks it is funny, he think it is okay. It's not funny when people try to humiliate you in public and think it is funny and suppose that you will think it is funny too and laugh along.

But no, I'm not your family nor your friends. I don't need all this humiliating and mocking. What I need is what other couples will do, am I really asking for to much ?

I don't like all this, I don't like people shooting bad words at me, I don't like people arguing with me because I know I couldn't talk as fast as them, I couldn't think as fast as them, and when I get it right, he for sure will find some way to deny his wrong arguments and here comes the mocking part again.

I know you knew I don't like. But what's the point of knowing and doing the same thing again and again.

Ok, end of all these whining and complaining. Whatever it is, I know you love me, I know you had done what you did best to prove that you love me.

I know I'm not perfect too. I forgot our anniversary. I didn't prepare anything for it also (but usually guys do that you know)...

I know I'm a little hot tempered, I get depressed easily, I have all these unrealistic expectations...

I know you love me I really do, I love you too.

What is done is done. Few years from now, I'll just rmb for our anniversary, both of us forgot about it and it was funny somehow realising it and he prepared this weird thailand dessert for me >< hahaha ! I  don't really like it because it has so much of coconut milk... and then yalorh , like that lorh hehe...

Great dream I had

I dreamt of my bf and I went for a vacation and we are staying at his friends house or we rented a bungalow im not sure but anyway his only friend I rmb being there was chua rj most probably because we were talking about him yesterday night, btw his description for him was just perfect ok move on.

The bungalow was beyond perfect, a small indoor swimming pool in the first floor, a big garden balcony in the second floor ... Just perfect ...

And the area was perfect, minimum cars u get to play at the road.

First it's like everyone was sitting in the living room and then one of the friends suggested that we go out and play , so we were at this place, and omg all the outdoor games are so fun .

Then when we start walking home, the road became super slippery and I slipped a few times and he helped me up and asked my bf to come help me ....

I dont know I just love this dream most probably is because of the beyond perfect bungalow <333 awesome !!!!

My relationship updates

I've never ever cried so much before in my entire life seriously ...
Before this, I don't understand what's the point of crying and stuff,
Once I saw a lady and a guy quarrelling and at last the lady start crying and walks away, and the guy just stood there, the only thought I had in mind was wow, so dramatic =/

But this time, our relationship has come to a stage where ... I don't know, we just start quarrelling all the time ... Crisis stage ?

Maybe we stay together under a roof, so we kind of like see each other every hour, so there are more reasons to quarrel ...

And yesterday ... He brought up about this and said why are we acting  like that and stuff ... And said that if both of us are not happy , why still be together ...

Then I don't know la, things just got emotional, and well, I tried anything that I could ... Im that useless , im that scared that I lose him ... Until a points where he doesnt give any response that I realise maybe he just wants a way out ... And hence I decided to let go ...

The moment was miserable, I don't want him to go but I dont know what to do ...

And he asked me is that what I really want and I said no and next I successfully saved my relationship ...

It really sucks to be the person where u want this thing to work a little more than the other party but what to do ? Man ... I know im weak , this is so stupid , probably karma =/

so .... yeah ... this is it, we are back together again =)

Steamboat night

So, after the exam, we decided to plan a steamboat dinner ...

And this is the era where guys do all the kitchen stuff one right ?

haha....

so, they bought everything, prepared everything, and I only helped .... hmm.... I don't think I helped, 

or... ow, got la, I wash mushrooms XD

but you know people say "too much cook spoil the soup" right ? that's why I didn't help la...

hehe...

so... these are the pictures...

first, these are the dry stuffs, others are all in the fridge. 

-guys marinaitng meat-

-vege- XD

the products....

well, I'll say it's a successful night ...

everyone had a chance to bond you know....

Don't think that our relationship is close to each other just because we are all staying under a roof...

No, it's not true...

even if all of us stays under a roof, well, we have walls between us and most of the time I don't really like get to know what is going on behind the wall, but anyway, this event gave us a chance to bond with each other, 

and i think it' fun la ^^

After the examination

Seriously,
it's so annoying listening to people discuss about anything regarding their exams !!!!!

unless I started it lol...
NO but seriously annoying larh !!!!

Because obviously I wouldn't remember the questions that had been asked inside,
I don't know, I just had this short term memory thing >.<
so you discuss discuss and I couldn't remember any of it ,
then I will feel that I did wrongly larh...
then I emo by myself liao lorh ! you get ???

Just annoying !

It's PANG not PHANG !!!

I really wonder why people would spell my name as PHANG instead of Pang !!!
Regardless of how long I've known them, they just wanna spell my name as Phang!

I even put my surname as my facebook username and yet people still will get it wrong

I don't understand ...

So pek chek ....

The badminton match _ KSM 2014

So, here in Bandung ,
We are having a badminton match for Karnival Sukan Malaysia !!!
And im one of the contestant representing my batch to play women's doubles...

Remember last year I've won the third place,
Yeah ... I lost this year ,
Most probably because of the lack of practice and also because I was lucky last year ,

I wanna cry !!!!

But my boy boy get first place for men's doubles ! See ! So not match one =/
He played really really well man, and that actually brought me out from my sorrowness ...

Im gonna train myself till I get 2nd place next year hmph ! *fingerscrossed*

Ok yeah tata

Something new I learnt today

You know what ,
For all these time ... I didn't know biscuits have expiry dates too !!!!
Oh shit, I'm really that dumb haha !
I mean, it's dry food, it's packed in sealed packages, it should last super long right,
I mean, its the kind of food that you will survive on when there is an apocalypse okay ... Zombie attack or whatsoever ! Hahaha !

But no, it can't even last for a year ??
Hmm ... Interesting , new knowledge XD

P.S. I don't really check on expiry dates anyway, neither when I buy nor use/eat them ... I mean, you will just assume that all edible food at home or food that are sold in supermarkets are still in good condition XD

So... Check your food's expiry date Kay =D

- random post -

this 9gag post right , is all about Disney inspired engagement ring !!!
haha !
all so beautiful ,

"http://9gag.com/gag/a9dXo20?ref=fb.s"


MY FAV : AURORA'S RING or RAPUNZEL'S RING <3
XD

The post CNY celebration

So this is the first year that PKPMI (I don't really know what this stand's for but it's like the Malaysian-Indonesian association thing larh ) held a CNY event in a place called Verona Palace in Bandung.

Nothing much to say about, but here are the pictures :

1. Huilin and I 

2. Arial and I, she is this super pretty FKG senior, haha ! I know I am a girl but I am totally attracted to her        <3 =P

3. Andrea and I, my badminton partner =D

4. Group photo

5. Shi Min and I 

this picture is like the making of my final face XD super yongsui

Hey, these are some of the juniors this year...

They are nice and cheerful larh, I bet if I was in the same batch with them, we would be like super close because Jason said their personality is just like mine XD

Interpersonal relationships

A very very confusing stuff,

Welcome to the adult world,

Is it me ? Seriously, am I some kind of outlier or what ? Like people around me can deal well in almost everything among people, why am I like a mess ?

He said, im that kind of person that after deciding something or after confirming some concept, I will just go for it without caring about anything , it's like whatever, as long as I just reach the end point, nothing else matters . Not that extreme type la, it's like living in my own world walking on my own path...

And I think he is right somehow. I don't know ... Sigh ....

For example, when I like a guy, I just confess lol, I don't care about anything I just want the guy to know.

I don't know how to bluff. Not that I don't know la, it's like I don't know how to make things better. I don't know how to say stuff that can like be in a win win situation. You happy I happy lol.

It's either I tell u im not happy , not thinking about what u think or just keep quiet and endure ,thinking too much about what you will think.

Straight line, no curving here and there.

Sometimes when I thought I did stuff right, actually I did not .

Haiyo, conclusion :

Dear friends, best friends, girlfriends, thanks for all your care and support and tolerance for all these time, especially the high school gang la, I gong gong one, I dont know how to say stuff but I felt so lucky you guys are still here.
<3

I'd realised something very important when I came here, like don't take friendships for granted !!!

They've met you by fate, but they remain staying beside you by choice ...

The Valentines 2014

Well hello !!!
haha !
having a quite busy life since I came back,
because it's the first week and of course during the first week everyone will be so semangat studying,
and I'm not excluded la,
everyday with books.
But when second week comes right, I actually can manage to slack for the whole week.
And the reason I gave myself is... hey, Valentine's day this week leh !
It's not like I'm planning some big stuffs on that day, haha ! but that has just automatically become the reason of slacking.

Ok well,
to the future me : this is how U spend your Valentines this year kay,
YOU MUST REMEMBER THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND DIDN'T TAKE YOU OUT NOR GIVE YOU FLOWERS !

haha !!!
I complained so much la, especially on the flower part, but he really kayu one, =.=

anyway, this is how it goes.

We went grocery shopping after class, for a four course meal,
and these are the products : haha !

spaghetti, nuggets, 2 sirloin steaks and mushroom soup....

a clearer view of the spaghetti, 

please ar, lao niang cook one ar, XD

fine, to be honest, I was just there stirring the pan of spaghetti, haha !

after that, nothing else, haha !
that is the highlight of the day .

THE END !

oh ya, i posted the picture to instagram, and then his group mates put it as their LINE profile picture.
Awkward....

he everyday go tease people larh, see, karma ! haha !

quarrelling, getting back together, fighting, getting back together,
I'm glad that we can still make it to Valentines,
and ....
I hope.... I can spend all my Valentines with you till I die la .... haha !

Happy CNY 2014

CNY this year is the same except it's different,
Since my grandmother left us,
I never thought that CNY will be the same anymore.
I no longer like anticipate CNY to come,
But yesterday, which was new year's eve,
Everything seems to be the same,
The food, the people, everything's the same,
But the feeling is sort of like snake without its head, or anything without its head la lol ...

I dreamt about my grandmother ytd night,
We were eating together,
Sitting at the dining table talking,
Really heart warming,
I really miss her...

UNPAD Year 2 Day 135 - The Year 2 OSCE !

So today, I'll blog about something so epic that happened today,

So for this semester, the OSCE examination is divided into 2 days,
Mine was in the second day.
so of course all of us semangat sangat are very enthusiastic preparing for this examination .
Woke up at 5a.m. go to the campus at 7, and wait till our name is called,
so after the first batch has been called,
we waited larh, god knows how long,
and out of a sudden, the guy announced that he has a great news, he will call out another batch and that will be the last batch of the day,
those name that has not been called have to attend tomorrow for OSCE examinaiton .

erm.... great news ? disaster okay @.@
But lucky me, I get to do my examination today larh,
but the others, really pity them lorh 0.0

that is what epic Uni do !
They make last minute decisions and tell you in the very last second.
Nice !

Anyway, it's the end of sem 3 !!!!!!!!!
wooots, one step nearer to Graduation ! haha !

Socca Sem 3 !

Socca today !
The dosen refuses to tell me my marks.
如果自己预测，我不知道，
我不敢把希望放的太高，
可是我觉得自己没有那么差，
不过想想下，又觉得不对路，
可是我真的准备了那么久，
每天四点睡觉我觉得很… 压力，
Im living under a lot of stress throughout the study break ,
I really feel like ending this and go home and just wash plates...

Anyway, 我真的不懂怎样能让自己的心好过一点…
我真的觉得自己单单 effort 就赢过很多人了，
I think I deserve an A lorh ! Like seriously,
But I don't know leh >.<sigh ...

您怎么能酱对我
Disappointed

我也希望事情其实没我想象的那么差…
可是无论我怎样催眠自己都没有用，
我还是摆脱不了那个 negative thinking

Give me positive ions please,
Give me lots and lots of positive ions !!!