It's going to be a new year in 2 more days, happy and sad at the same time.
Happy because I had actually survived another semester on my medical degree and sad because this means I am another year older.
In this year, many things had happened.
What I really wanna remember here is trust and disappointment.
I had this friend, we had this very weird relationship. I hated her but at the same time, I don't. I take her as a friend, I look past all her flaws and take her as a friend. But one day, I realise you don't always get what you give. Maybe you give your whole heart out just for people to stab on it, to hurt you. Anyway, I learn to let go, forgive... I don't know if this is God's act or not but people start telling me that they dislike this person too, and then out of a sudden, I pitied her. Karma, people say, is a bitch. Until today, things escalated to a level that cannot be turned back. I don't know how will our future be, I don't know if we are still friends anymore. But at least I know, no more fake smiles, fake laughs, fake conversations. Sometimes when we talked, I mean, I know you don't like me, but yet, you can talk to me, laugh with with me, I'm starting to feel confused on whether who is faker, me or you ?
Next, I'm happy this year is gonna end because it's full of tragedy. I kept receiving sad news from people around me... I'm not gonna say much about this but I think what I learn from this is to say how much you love a person before it is too late, especially to your parents.
Ok, next, another year with my boyfriend. Well, almost. But I'm grateful. I hate being alone, I hate being lonely, I hate eating alone in the room. At least, there is someone here to rely on, to support me whenever I'm down, for me to fight with whenever I'm bored. Although we do quarrel quite often, I guess that's the way we communicate. He may not be the sweetest guy, the most romantic and creative guy, he is definitely a kayu but I appreciate his presence in my life <3
Still left with 2 weeks of exam. I'm going back home ! I can't wait to meet my family and friends. To actually have a break from all these dramas =)
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