Monday, September 30, 2013

Last Day of September !

Its the last day of September ady ><
Which also meant that I'm here for a month,
What I've done so far.... 
nothing productive, like seriously. 

Except for homeworks and assignment that I NEED to do,
there is nothing more that I've done. 
Every free time I have I spent it by watching drama or wasting time with him. 

And suddenly I am really super super guilty and regret yesterday. 
Thinking of all the consequences that might happen. 
If anything happens and I couldn't continue to study here...
My life is literally screwed. I'm going to live a meaningless life. 
Whatever aims and dreams I have will be bullshit by then...
It's not like I really love this place and all you know, 
It's that if anything happens and if I were to go back to Malaysia, 
I will lose everything I have right now. 

And then the money I spent here, the time, the money 
My parents are going to kill me....
I couldn't let all these things happen to me, seriously. 

Yesterday night was the scariest night in my entire life 
having all sorts of thoughts going around in my head >.<

Dear me, pls remember every moment you have went through yesterday, 
don't make any stupid mistakes that you  will regret in the future anymore 

and yup, tata ! haha ~

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