='( the planning of Jakarta trip

Another night crying alone in the room

I feel really bad, I really really feel super super bad ...

Everyone is so happy planning to go Jakarta. And because I felt it's kinda expensive, I think I just piss off everyone.

Omg im so stressed up

I think they'll hate me so much now

Aiya. Conclusion is I really feel bad spending money other than necessary,
going Bandung walking around is ok,
But going Jakarta is a little off. Kinda expensive, I underestimated.

Then now they deciding between wanna go one day or two days .

I really don't want to be the reason to make them feel that the trip isn't fun.

I don't want them to just go for one day all because of me .

Please, just decide to go without me, please please please, I really really don't wanna be the reason ....

Economical problems is not what I wanted also okay.

Then ... He is mad at me too ...

Can I don't be in this position ? FML