There's a break in in my house !!!!

Damn it ! 

why can't everyone like study nicely and get a job ??

why must you steal other people's stuff ???

we are just students you know ?! 

like why are you attacking students ? you cruel little shit !

This happened at 3.30am today when the thief broke into my housemate's room through the window...

IDK how he managed to crash the window and bend the window fencing,

but he managed to steal away a laptop, 

and my housemate's laptop isn't a normal laptop, his one is a really expensive gaming laptop...

I really felt heartache for him >.<

My housemate manage to wake up while the thief is on his act, almost caught him red handed but he was too fast,

I was awaken, shocked, when I heard him yelling to stop the thief >.<

It was really scary as I was alone in the room, and I normally don't lock my door,

and I was wearing my pyjamas =.=

From now on, I'll never leave my room without locking my door like seriously. 

The CNY 2015

So, late posting of how my CNY went...

To be honest, I never expected much actually, 

you know, after my grandmother passed, things will never be the same anymore.

Nevertheless, having the chance to go back and meet my cousins and relatives has given me a different kind of happiness and familiarity.

So, I spent about 3 days in my dad's kampung and recently my relatives renovated the kampung house. So, it's like so different from last time. 

But every corner, every small detail of the house made me think of my grandmother. 

Usually on the CNY period, she will be busy cooking in the kitchen, 

she will be busy arranging who will sleep at which room,

she will be at the door waiting for our arrival everytime,

preparing the praying ritual everytime =) 

you know, the welcoming the Chai shen ( God of wealth ) XD, praying to the ancestors ...

her breakfast on the first day of CNY, the same thing every year, but it really warms your heart so much. 

I remember playing with the flour she bought in the kitchen everytime. 

Because she will put all the flour in a big transparent container. 

So when you see somthing so white, of course you will have the tendency to play with it right.

I mean, I really do lah, and then she will scold me in a joking manner. like " you play with my flour again ah ?!" hahaha ! 

And this year is the second CNY without her and after they renovated the house, the more the place changes, the more I miss her, more memories of her flooding back. 

You know, when I was younger, I remember asking her not to leave us so early, I asked her to help me evaluate my boyfriend, make sure I don't choose the wrong one =D I thought she would be with us for a very very long time back then but life just proved me wrong. 

And whenever I thought of her, I was hoping that wherever she is right now, is a place full of happiness and only happiness. 

and then....... yeah having fun with my cousins. 

despite of the age of 22, I still behave like a child with them lah ....

It's not that we are immature, is just that this is the way of having fun XD 

anyways, most of the time we are just you know, playing that thing that got to do with cards.... haha ! 

and watching movies at night , and lepak-ing at mamak, and walking around the kampung.... and showing of my riding bike skills(and i totally suck at it)

this little girl on the bottom left is reaaaaaaallly cute, my niece hahaha 

I was asking her to take a selfie with me at first, but she literally just blocked my whole face with her face, so in the end I gave up and only took a picture of her hahaha 

Happy Valentine's Day

Yellow? Blue's there ? 

hehe, once in a blue moon post from me on this very special day lolol....

coz I don't know what else to do haha~

Yup, it's Valetines today and there are so many lovely pictures flooding in Insta...

Almost every couple I know was dressing nicely going some place nice. 

And I'm here, staying in my room blogging. 

Hahaha sounds sad lah but really it''s okay =D

Maybe I'm used to not living fancy-ly romantic with him lol

If this were to happen last year, honestly, I'll feel sad , like really

But today, Valentine's Day is like any other normal day =)

like nothing to expect haha

because I'm being mature mwahahhaha !

Anyways, this is our 2nd Valentine's Day together...

and I'm grateful for what I have in life <3

Thank you 

My OSCE today T.T

So, this system is about CVS and RESPI ><

I tell you, OSCE sucks !!!

when you come to think of it, it is really pretty easy...

especially the hands on practical, if you practise means can ady one. 

BUT, I don't know what had gotten me this time, 

history taking ... OMG !!!! I know I studied, but then in the end when I got into the room, 

everything in my brain just disappeared. 

I got insomnia yesterday because of this and yet my mind still went blank when I go into the room. 

Damn saddening. 

Hands on practical -- WTF ! Especially about nebuliser. Overconfident. 

Get into the room, mixed it up with the oxygen therapy procedure. 

Just sad....

God, I guess I shouldn't underestimate the stressful environment or overestimate my abilities. 

SAD SAD SAD..

But I still wanna mention about the dosen lah, she is just irritating . 

I just step forward only, she thought I wanna peek at the marking scheme.

Please lah, I won't do that kayyyyy !!!!

Wah, the facial expression, I tell you, I will never forget =( 

The most depressed part is.... some people study last minute also look more confident then me...

fail ! >.< 

Ok, there are also things that I really felt grateful today...

The dosen that I love very much...

He has been my tutor for almost the whole semester 

and I swear he is the nicest teacher on Earth. hahaha ! 

And, he cared about how I did in my exam 

I was over the moon when he asked, hehehe...

I don't know, I was thinking like....

OMG, if he wanted an apprentice or anything I would totally sign up for it, 

even if I have to stay here for another couple more years I won't mind that. 

Like seriously =D 

But that only happens in dramas...

Okay, gonna go now, 2 more hardcore days and a maybe got maybe don't have remedial day =( 

really hope don't have lah, *fingers crossed* 

tata !

New Year's Eve !!!

Hello darlings hahaha !
So what I did on the last day of 2014 ?

1. Saw that pieces of paper in the plastic can ? That is a time capsule containing my boyfie and my wishes we wrote last year. At first I really wonder what he wrote but few months later I totally forgot about it. But now when we read back, it all became really funny , and I felt happy coz' I really achieve some of it XD

2. Me with a bowl on my head. Despite of the awkward-ness and all going around the house, we still had a wonderful time last night playing card games and this was one of the punishment hahaha !

3. My last meal in 2014... It was supposed to be a dinner but it turns out as a supper! Why ? Because we were too tired preparing for the exam on that day itself hence after that , we nap till late night, so , dinner became supper. Haha!

Damn sad lah, thought like Christmas or new year your boyfriend will bring you out makan makan and all but no =/ coz exam =( and bf Kayu hahahaha !

And hence, that wrap up my 2014 ...

Happy 2015 everybody !!!

May the new year fill with happiness and sweetness =*

Hey, 2 days till 2015 ！

It's going to be a new year in 2 more days, happy and sad at the same time.
Happy because I had actually survived another semester on my medical degree and sad because this means I am another year older.
In this year, many things had happened.

What I really wanna remember here is trust and disappointment.
I had this friend, we had this very weird relationship. I hated her but at the same time, I don't. I take her as a friend, I look past all her flaws and take her as a friend. But one day, I realise you don't always get what you give. Maybe you give your whole heart out just for people to stab on it, to hurt you. Anyway, I learn to let go, forgive... I don't know if this is God's act or not but people start telling me that they dislike this person too, and then out of a sudden, I pitied her. Karma, people say, is a bitch. Until today, things escalated to a level that cannot be turned back. I don't know how will our future be, I don't know if we are still friends anymore. But at least I know, no more fake smiles, fake laughs, fake conversations. Sometimes when we talked, I mean, I know you don't like me, but yet, you can talk to me, laugh with with me, I'm starting to feel confused on whether who is faker, me or you ?

Next, I'm happy this year is gonna end because it's full of tragedy. I kept receiving sad news from people around me... I'm not gonna say much about this but I think what I learn from this is to say how much you love a person before it is too late, especially to your parents.

Ok, next, another year with my boyfriend. Well, almost. But I'm grateful. I hate being alone, I hate being lonely, I hate eating alone in the room. At least, there is someone here to rely on, to support me whenever I'm down, for me to fight with whenever I'm bored. Although we do quarrel quite often, I guess that's the way we communicate. He may not be the sweetest guy, the most romantic and creative guy, he is definitely a kayu but I appreciate his presence in my life <3

Still left with 2 weeks of exam. I'm going back home ! I can't wait to meet my family and friends. To actually have a break from all these dramas =)

Glass of Milk

Found this from a blog, thought that it would be great to spread the moral behind this story =)


One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry.

He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked, “How much do I owe you?” “You don’t owe me anything,” she replied. “Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness.” He said….. “Then I thank you from my heart.”

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Year’s later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly ! was called in for the consultation. When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to room. Dressed in his doctor’s gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case. After a long struggle, the battle was won.

Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill. She read these words….. “Paid in full with one glass of milk”

Signed Dr. Howard Kelly. Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: “Thank You God. Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands.”

credits to : virtual medic