Scary dream I had

A dream filled with fights, blood and tears =(
why do I had such dreams ?!!!!
It's almost like a movie man ...

It started when my cousins and I were in a car, parking at the side of the road,
and then another car came while we were talking beside the car,
and the driver purposely park the car super near to ours,
and walked away,
so of course we must do something about it right,
hence I encouraged my cousin to scratch his car, lol, using the carkeys,
"Scratch his car only , scratch only !"
and then he turned around , angrily walking towards us, wanna confront or something,
and then out of a sudden, there are a few guys from the newspaper kiosk joining him,

and then a fight started,
they all gang up and hit my cousin,
placing keys between their fingers, fist up and hit him,
me and my other cousin was like standing there not sure what to do,

but they kept hitting him, so I braved up, approach them and beg them not to hit anymore,
then one of the guys picked up a metal rod, and said, if I were to let him hit me using the metal rod, he might just let my cousin go,
I agreed and then quickly ran,
panjat pagar climb fences and all, screaming, yelling at my other cousin asking her to call the police,
my cousins escaped the gang fight and everyone was running all around,

at last, we end up in a parking lot,
I felt so helpless,
I kept begging and begging, hoping that they will let us go,
begging and running begging and running,
then out of a sudden, a guy appeared with a parang knife, no joke,
and start aiming the bad guys like a boomerang,
and at last the one that was chasing me surrender,

end of story,
scary right !!!!

What is 20 years from now ?

Just too bored,
Trying to escape from reality,
Reading the text book for 5 minutes and rest for the whole day >.< haha !

So saw a guy in facebook,
Knew him as we used to go to the same tuition center ,

He broke up recently from a long term relationship ( seems like it lah not sure lol) and his PDA used to be quite high profile one leh,
Did I mention he is really good looking and tall haha ,

And then I went thinking,
Some people are just not meant to be in your life, not even a second, nor a minute,
I mean we went to the same tuition center for 2-3 years, we live in the same area, we even went to the same camp during national service ,
And yet, we are just like some other strangers, not even friends I guess
#justsaying

Some people will just automatically click with you the moment you met while some people is around you every single day but cant be called as "a friend"

Nothing important, just talking to myself ,
Wasting time ,
Don't wanna study....
Stopping myself from opening the YouTube website

That's it ! Cannot slack anymore aiyo >.<
Exam in a week time =.="

There's a break in in my house !!!!

Damn it ! 

why can't everyone like study nicely and get a job ??

why must you steal other people's stuff ???

we are just students you know ?! 

like why are you attacking students ? you cruel little shit !

This happened at 3.30am today when the thief broke into my housemate's room through the window...

IDK how he managed to crash the window and bend the window fencing,

but he managed to steal away a laptop, 

and my housemate's laptop isn't a normal laptop, his one is a really expensive gaming laptop...

I really felt heartache for him >.<

My housemate manage to wake up while the thief is on his act, almost caught him red handed but he was too fast,

I was awaken, shocked, when I heard him yelling to stop the thief >.<

It was really scary as I was alone in the room, and I normally don't lock my door,

and I was wearing my pyjamas =.=

From now on, I'll never leave my room without locking my door like seriously. 

The CNY 2015

So, late posting of how my CNY went...

To be honest, I never expected much actually, 

you know, after my grandmother passed, things will never be the same anymore.

Nevertheless, having the chance to go back and meet my cousins and relatives has given me a different kind of happiness and familiarity.

So, I spent about 3 days in my dad's kampung and recently my relatives renovated the kampung house. So, it's like so different from last time. 

But every corner, every small detail of the house made me think of my grandmother. 

Usually on the CNY period, she will be busy cooking in the kitchen, 

she will be busy arranging who will sleep at which room,

she will be at the door waiting for our arrival everytime,

preparing the praying ritual everytime =) 

you know, the welcoming the Chai shen ( God of wealth ) XD, praying to the ancestors ...

her breakfast on the first day of CNY, the same thing every year, but it really warms your heart so much. 

I remember playing with the flour she bought in the kitchen everytime. 

Because she will put all the flour in a big transparent container. 

So when you see somthing so white, of course you will have the tendency to play with it right.

I mean, I really do lah, and then she will scold me in a joking manner. like " you play with my flour again ah ?!" hahaha ! 

And this year is the second CNY without her and after they renovated the house, the more the place changes, the more I miss her, more memories of her flooding back. 

You know, when I was younger, I remember asking her not to leave us so early, I asked her to help me evaluate my boyfriend, make sure I don't choose the wrong one =D I thought she would be with us for a very very long time back then but life just proved me wrong. 

And whenever I thought of her, I was hoping that wherever she is right now, is a place full of happiness and only happiness. 

and then....... yeah having fun with my cousins. 

despite of the age of 22, I still behave like a child with them lah ....

It's not that we are immature, is just that this is the way of having fun XD 

anyways, most of the time we are just you know, playing that thing that got to do with cards.... haha ! 

and watching movies at night , and lepak-ing at mamak, and walking around the kampung.... and showing of my riding bike skills(and i totally suck at it)

this little girl on the bottom left is reaaaaaaallly cute, my niece hahaha 

I was asking her to take a selfie with me at first, but she literally just blocked my whole face with her face, so in the end I gave up and only took a picture of her hahaha 

Happy Valentine's Day

Yellow? Blue's there ? 

hehe, once in a blue moon post from me on this very special day lolol....

coz I don't know what else to do haha~

Yup, it's Valetines today and there are so many lovely pictures flooding in Insta...

Almost every couple I know was dressing nicely going some place nice. 

And I'm here, staying in my room blogging. 

Hahaha sounds sad lah but really it''s okay =D

Maybe I'm used to not living fancy-ly romantic with him lol

If this were to happen last year, honestly, I'll feel sad , like really

But today, Valentine's Day is like any other normal day =)

like nothing to expect haha

because I'm being mature mwahahhaha !

Anyways, this is our 2nd Valentine's Day together...

and I'm grateful for what I have in life <3

Thank you 

My OSCE today T.T

So, this system is about CVS and RESPI ><

I tell you, OSCE sucks !!!

when you come to think of it, it is really pretty easy...

especially the hands on practical, if you practise means can ady one. 

BUT, I don't know what had gotten me this time, 

history taking ... OMG !!!! I know I studied, but then in the end when I got into the room, 

everything in my brain just disappeared. 

I got insomnia yesterday because of this and yet my mind still went blank when I go into the room. 

Damn saddening. 

Hands on practical -- WTF ! Especially about nebuliser. Overconfident. 

Get into the room, mixed it up with the oxygen therapy procedure. 

Just sad....

God, I guess I shouldn't underestimate the stressful environment or overestimate my abilities. 

SAD SAD SAD..

But I still wanna mention about the dosen lah, she is just irritating . 

I just step forward only, she thought I wanna peek at the marking scheme.

Please lah, I won't do that kayyyyy !!!!

Wah, the facial expression, I tell you, I will never forget =( 

The most depressed part is.... some people study last minute also look more confident then me...

fail ! >.< 

Ok, there are also things that I really felt grateful today...

The dosen that I love very much...

He has been my tutor for almost the whole semester 

and I swear he is the nicest teacher on Earth. hahaha ! 

And, he cared about how I did in my exam 

I was over the moon when he asked, hehehe...

I don't know, I was thinking like....

OMG, if he wanted an apprentice or anything I would totally sign up for it, 

even if I have to stay here for another couple more years I won't mind that. 

Like seriously =D 

But that only happens in dramas...

Okay, gonna go now, 2 more hardcore days and a maybe got maybe don't have remedial day =( 

really hope don't have lah, *fingers crossed* 

tata !

New Year's Eve !!!

Hello darlings hahaha !
So what I did on the last day of 2014 ?

1. Saw that pieces of paper in the plastic can ? That is a time capsule containing my boyfie and my wishes we wrote last year. At first I really wonder what he wrote but few months later I totally forgot about it. But now when we read back, it all became really funny , and I felt happy coz' I really achieve some of it XD

2. Me with a bowl on my head. Despite of the awkward-ness and all going around the house, we still had a wonderful time last night playing card games and this was one of the punishment hahaha !

3. My last meal in 2014... It was supposed to be a dinner but it turns out as a supper! Why ? Because we were too tired preparing for the exam on that day itself hence after that , we nap till late night, so , dinner became supper. Haha!

Damn sad lah, thought like Christmas or new year your boyfriend will bring you out makan makan and all but no =/ coz exam =( and bf Kayu hahahaha !

And hence, that wrap up my 2014 ...

Happy 2015 everybody !!!

May the new year fill with happiness and sweetness =*