Langkawi - Conclusion

after so many  nights of a heart sharing conversation,
i felt that ...
im one of the luckiest person ...
at least i still have my parents with me ,
my parents love me ,

and although my dad loses his former job,
(i really hope everything will be fine , stupid company !)
there are still people who has a harder life to live than me ...
and at least im healthy , i can have an internet service.
i have friends that really cared about me ,
have friends that i can joke around,
not bad what ... hehe !

yup,
thank God for giving me a save trip,
thank God for loving me ...
thank God for everything ...

God bless those who I love and cared .

This are the links of my trip :
Day 1 
Day 2
Day 3 
Day 4

Lagkawi - Day 4

Last day of the trip !
we woke up about 9.45 am ,
luckily the phone rang , if not i think we all would sleep till 11...
haha !

and then we plan to go for the cable car, but guess what we saw...
the line was so damn long, from the 2nd floor they lined till the 1st floor !
chi sin meh !
so we just shop around that area lorh ,
N i bought a bag , haha 1 luv it so much , so happy ...

Oh , did i mentioned that i spent RM 81 for just chocolates,
OMG ! HEARTACHE ....
haha ! nvm la ~

then , we drove to the airport for the 3pm flight which was once again delayed to 3.30pm ,
and i did a most unwanted decision...
I went and explain to a guy that likes me that I am not ready to start a relationship .
man , i really don't like to be a bad person, but what had to be done have to be done .

yup, that's it ,
that's  more or less the trip , a 4 day 3 night in Langkawi ^^
Hope to have a class trip with u guys again after A2 ,
Love it very much
yeah !

Langkawi - Day 3

day 3 not much happening, no pictures , haha !
er...
we went to shop in town , not interesting at all !
and we called that a day !

oh , and then the rest of my friends went for water activities,
para-sailing , jet-ski n stuff la,
i didn't go , i slept at the hotel room , XD

er... yalo, more or less like that only lorh ...
oh ya , and actually we plan to see sunrise the next moring ,
but then all the guys like don't wanna go ,
and when we thought the plan is cancelled,

they went and wait at the lobby on 5 am , for us...
haiz ! communication problem ! ><

no sunrise lorh ~ hmm....

Langkawi - Day 2

this is the 2nd say where we go for Island hoping ...

lolx, my hair as totally like a lion ! zzz... XD

this was at the evening , when we all girls plan to buy an "I luv Langkawi" T shirt

which was only RM5 per person 1 wakaka !

lets see, then we went to town for dinner, 

and then for the night , no more beers, this time , whiskey ,

and of coure, this time, 

i nv tried, haha !

Lots of things happen after the drinking session, 

1. My friend is drunk , and i don't know what to do , haha !

like normally when my dad is drunk , he can walk upstairs and sleep all by himself,

haha ! but then i really dont know what to do that time ,

and then we decided that we all carry her up.

2. erm, then in this class , there is a broke up couple larh .

then when the girl is drunk ,she kept on crying  ady ...

coz she cannot forget her ex...

so she n her ex went up to her room and her ex started to explain to her that it was not her fault n stuff...

i didn't mean to eavesdrop , but both our rooms are connected , so , im sorry ><

hehe...

err... that's all i think . 

haha !

and then !

4 something like that , 

the boys went n c sunrise ! 

stupid ! bo jio !!

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so nice rite ! haiz ~

Langkawi - day 1

yeah ! time to update my blog again ....
so now Im gonna share about my Langkawi class trip larh , haha !

Day 1

erm , plane was 3 , but delayed to 3.30pm, reach there by 4.40pm if im not mistaken.
In the plane , lolx ... I sat beside of this quite funny friend, haha ~
so from departure talk till arrival ~ haha !
ok , then we checked in lorh ...
the hotel was said to be 3 stars, well, not bad la , cheap lorh , counted as comfortable also larh ...
later , watch sunset at the beach , then dinner...
Sunset was beautiful ! dinner for the 1st day was a little suck la ... =P
then we spend the night at the beach ... playing pepsi cola and ice and water...
haha ! All those primary school games,
then suddenly got this guai lou wanna join in...
so scary man ... haiz ~ he pointing at me ask me to keep quiet ! lolx ~ =P

Next , all of us went to the boys room for beer !
yalo, can imagine already larh , what else can a group of 18 years old do ...
haha !
and for the 1st time in my life, i joined them drinking hooegarden...
felt so guilty at the beginning,
but i didn't finish it also larh , XD
we played blackjack and who loses shall perform a dare...
haha , so all those embarrassing stuff lets just skip it, haha !

and that ends the day !
the night was really horrible ,
i cant even fall asleep....
coz my muscle was damn pain after playing the ice and water thing + the temperature was very very cold,
my muscle hurts even more ><

and so , i just talked with my another friend who cant sleep also , till like 4 something almost 5 ,
and then i asked f she wanna watch sunrise,
but at last nobody wanna go , and so i tried to sleep again,
thanks to my storybook , i manage to sleep abt an hour before the next day ^^

tall tall tall

anybody have any ways to grow taller ?
i wanna grow taller...
T.T
i VERY SHORT AH !!
haha !!!
>.<
but im already 18 ...
old dy , very hard to grow taller...
haha !

Holiday ^^

yup yup , 

my term break starts !

for a month , 

but ...

lolx, i  know i have so many things to do ,

but im just so lazy to start it up...

haiz ~

cannot larh !

haha ~

凡人的爱

如果给不到承诺，

就只好放手。

如果对自己没信心，

就不要再拖累人家。



真心的祝福你。

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oiyo!

Exam just over ,

Now have to cope for a2 stuff.

But the thing is , I didn't even pay attention to what the teacher is teaching b4 the as exam.

Too bz thinking of as.

And now have to see back what the teacher had taught.

Aiyo!!! Wat is this?

Haiz ~

Can I tear my text book?

Really , I dunno how to face it that I rather post this on my blog 1st before continuing to discover them.

XD

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to further my studies

Well,
Guess what , it is November now !
means more or less half a year more before my A levels course ends...
woah ~ time really flies fast !
and of course i and spend my time thinking of the future,

Not going to say much right now because its not confirmed yet,
Once confirmed i will announced it here...
haha  !
A few questions bothering me :-

1. Do i really like it ?
>Well, after eliminating the course i don't want, only the science field courses left for me to pick ,
and there it is : Medicine , Chiropractics or Food Science .

2. Can i cope the course ?
>coz they say Medicine really very hard , must have strong determination. But i kept telling myself if ppl can manage to graduate them , y can't I . But who knows , maybe it is really hard?

3. 5-6 years , u can or not ?
>Leave home for 5/6 years .... really ? i can ?? argh ! that is why life freaks me out .
all along our lives anr options , options and options . and as choices leads to choices, there is no turning back anymore . ><so ... really quite scared... hehe .

my life!

My life is really freaking me out !

Lolx , I really hope I know no  my capability so that I can make good choices.

I'm scared!!!

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my aunt

So sad ,

My aunt is having a farewell party tmr ,

She is going to work at s'pore,

Lol , I will miss her so much!

I mean , we are so close.

Lolx , all the best and. ..

I love you !!!

Must take pictures tmr! Yes! 

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2nd week of exam-ends^^

Yup ,

Without realising ,

I had gone through 2 weeks of my exam!

Cool ya? ^^

Hehe ,

But the important part is at the back ,

Y am I blogging now is because I found this apps in my phone, 

This means that I don't hv to on the pc to update my blog ,

Cool ya^^

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Eternal

a song i made ~ hehe ,

erm, about friendship i think , can u feel it ?

-the end-

I wanna thank you guys for reading my blog post....

and this will be the last post of my blog . 

WHY ?

because i really spend much of my time on the internet....

and i have a feeling im gonna die very uglily in my exam ...

i couldn't blame anyone because its all my fault ...

I know i shouldn't waste all my time watching dramas ~

And hence, 

The least i can do right now is stop blogging , stop facebooking . 

at least i would waste time on other stuff than this time killing thing . 

I think i can do this , but the only thing i can't sacrifice is Charmaine Sheh's blog T.T

at NS also sacrifice 3 months liao lar, kkk , dun worry , 

i can do this !

Thank you u guys ~

Lots of love

muaxx muaxx muaxx 

-XOXO-

math today

Today's math paper was awesome! Really , 1 st time in my life I can't finish a math paper! Stupid la! Y did I choose a level in the 1st place? T. T

watch ? where ?

saw that watch ? i spent two days finding it when it was just there .
=.="
proves how messy my room was , haha ~

Phy paper 3 today

lolx, reli felt like cursing now~
haiz !! stupid ~

u no wat , today phy paper 3 , two questions ! 1st question,

aiya , the conclusion is , my gradient of the graph should be negative ,
but based on my reading , my gradient is positive ! stupid !

taking the reading is already a piece of shit ~ the reading increases n decreases , increases n decreases!
how i no wat to take !
wth ! aiyo !
graph i think i oni hv marks for the title of x and y axis = 1 mark .
lolx ! whole graph one mark ! genius !!

Lemon meringue pie

my very own lemon meringue pie, haha , recipe from allrecipe.com , but i changed a few things .

PIE CRUST

1 cup quick cooking oats

3/4 cup all-purpose flour

1/4 cup vegetable oil

2 tablespoons ice water

1. Preheat oven to 425 degrees F (220 degrees C).
2. In a medium bowl, mix together oats and flour. Stir in oil and water. Press dough into a 9 inch pie pan.
3. Bake in preheated oven for 12 minutes, until lightly browned.

link is here .

FILLINGS .

1 cup white sugar

2 tablespoons all-purpose flour

3 tablespoons cornstarch

1/4 teaspoon salt

1 1/2 cups water

2 lemons, juiced and zested

2 tablespoons butter

4 egg yolks, beaten

1 (9 inch) pie crust, baked

4 egg whites

6 tablespoons white sugar

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).
2. To Make Lemon Filling: In a medium saucepan, whisk together 1 cup sugar, flour, cornstarch, and salt. Stir in water, lemon juice and lemon zest. Cook over medium-high heat, stirring frequently, until mixture comes to a boil. Stir in butter. Place egg yolks in a small bowl and gradually whisk in 1/2 cup of hot sugar mixture. Whisk egg yolk mixture back into remaining sugar mixture. Bring to a boil and continue to cook while stirring constantly until thick. Remove from heat. Pour filling into baked pastry shell.
3. To Make Meringue: In a large glass or metal bowl, whip egg whites until foamy. Add sugar gradually, and continue to whip until stiff peaks form. Spread meringue over pie, sealing the edges at the crust.
4. Bake in preheated oven for 10 minutes, or until meringue is golden brown.

link here

then rite, i enjoy making this , haha , n my meringue is a success, mwahaha ! XD
but then hor, after finish doing this, the kitchen was a mess....
then my grandma come in saying " zhin gao" ( which means very smart in hokkien )
OMG ! so sarcastic ... >.<
lolx ~
then she start washing , i say la i will wash , but then she kept washing ,
she make me feel like i make the kitchen a mess n waiting for her to clean it up,
lol ! whr got !
so at last i said i will clean it myself ~ then she say i dunno how to clean ~
lol =.=
pls la !
anyway , there it is ! haha !

ambition ~

What I wanna be in the future ? That was really a tough one ~ You know , since I was small , Whenever people ask me what I wanna be in the future , I will hesitate a little and say I wanna be a doctor . I remembered when I am celebrating my dunno how many years old bday , my wish was to be a doctor . As time passes , the time I spend to hesitate my ambition became longer , although I changed my ambition in between , doctor will still be my final decision. Until now ,I doubt if I can still hold on to my dreams . Thx to a level. U made me realise how hard will your future be if u wanna choose this path . I doubt if I can hang on till the end . And hence , I actually decide to change my direction. And when I was trying to set this to my mind , I realised , my mom actually hoped I could be one . Lolx ... although she never say it out , N when I mentioned I might give up , She didn't say anything too. But I no ... I shouldn't disappoint her ,but everytime when I think of the interviews n test that had to be taken in order to study the course , the fees , the competitors , the limited post , the tough course structure . Lolx , it isn't my freedom anymore to choose whether I should feel anxious . And if I'm reli lucky to successfully finish the course , How abt jobs ? I will have to sit for another paper in order to get a job . Wth !

bio surprise

So today rite , bio rite ... Haiz ... Last week teacher already say giving quiz , But I tot she wouldn't give it on monday , because there are other papers to discuss , then suddenly teacher say ok , quiz today ! Lolx! Last time also like that liao de la , Without warning de , This time better la , paper 1 , Haiz ... Although I read plants the day before , I don't think it helped much lo. >.<

pilih kasih, hmph !

so today morning, below is the conversation between my grandma and me ~

(of coz my brother's shoe is not this clean lorh )

it all started when my bro is washing his school shoes .

G: y u nv help ur brother wash his shoes one ?!

Me: For what , not my shoe also ....

G: aiyo, u r jie jie(sister) ma, u should help your brother wash one ~

Me: where got like that one ?

G: yala, law is like that der ma ...

Me: zzz..... cannot like that der lo, jie jie is not maid, who say jie jie means need to wash her brothers shoe ~

G: haiyo, nowadays kids ah ~

OMG ! wat " now a days kid" ? so bias lorh, boy cannot wash theri own shoes is it ? only girls can do housechores is it... haiyo ~ fine la, anyway , at last , i didn't help wash it also , Because that ISN'T MY SHOE ~

nvm la, not angry also , old ppl lidat der la, a little bias towards boyz, hehe ....

scary ~

so right ,
yer scary ~~~ ><
there is a guy and i name him "G" la ok,
today he went n comment my profile picture and write on my wall ...
with the language i dunno ....

and before this, i tot he was a friend i know in NS,
so i added him la,
coz they both look alike from the profile picture,
when i c his picture, i just add him lo,
nv go study his profile...

Then one day , before this , i met this guy in IOI mall ,
so one day this G guy fb chat me , then i tot he is my ns friend,
so i went and reply ... in chinese ! lolx...
obviously he wont know what i am talking la,
then he go comment on my photo and write on my walll...
with the language i don't know !
lolx, so scary ~

Love You ~

 hoho, this drama really nice !

"Love You"

then , haha, so sweet ,

i want the husband ~ XD, 38 !

go watch go watch ....

this is a few pic of the last episode,

arrangement not in order one la ...

Donate blood - 2

okay ,
so today UM came to our campus and held out a blood donation booth ,
haha , so i went lorh .
wanted to take pic one lorh , but hp memory full , so sad, haha !
then ....
3 of my friends and I went loh ,
one of them is like we pujuk pujuk him only he derma one, >.<
like terpaksa, so cute ~ haha !
erm, not really pain la,
just that the 1st injection hurts a little.
Blood donation this time is quite special lorh ,
coz i donate with three of my friends mar...
then like mm... quite nice ^^
haha ,
i actually quite sked one lorh ,
although tried once during NS ,
but i couldn't forget that the 1st injection hurts,
then i kept thinking , if this time the nurse dunno how to poke how?
if she poke wrong how n stuff la
haha , but at last also okay !

love is the only answer!

Haha!
At last , I can go for the movie already!
You know when the movie 1st released , I was like , okay , we will watch it during weekends
 P. S. I'm a super fan of charmaine sheh !
Unfortunately , parents are bz! So the only thing I can do. ..
Was to slip moral class on Tuesday ....
But , the remorse feeling was like I feel guilty after killing someone .
Haha! However , actually I planned with ck c how to go n stuff .
But at last I also gave up coz going there by bus will probably make me late for the next class.
So I told my friends today abt. this
N they said ok la , we go together .
Lolx , feel so bad making them skip class like me.
Then 6 of us went .
The movie starts at 12.10 ,
We reach there abt 11.30 but we have to wait till 12.00 for McD set lunch .
The funny part was , we squeeze everything into our bags in order to bring them into the cinema .
And we missed a little in the front !

Okay , the movie was totally great , but really ,
 I CANNOT TAHAN loh! Y!
Little bit kissing scene also they cut!! Hello !
The movie is already rated 18 !
What is the point of rating it when u already cut those since! 
Back to those scenes , according to the trailer , it is not even like terlampau over ~!
Stupid , the point is , y r they cutting the scene when both of them r not even naked!
Make the movie so cacat , like suddenly jump to another scene liao .
If I'm rich , no doubt I will fly to hong kong for that movie to support my idol lo.
Haha!

transform

Am I being hysterical here?
Because I feel that everything is changing so quick that I couldn't catch up .
So scary , feel so unfamiliar .
And, I should get used to it ? Should I ?
Accept the fact that this is life.
Accept the fact that we all resembles a circle .
The more we expand , the more further apart we are , Although we are still in the same circle ...
Lolx ... accept the fact that the same thing woUldn't happen twice .
Accept the fact that you cannot turn back time to just c what we have left behind.

-out of topic stuff -
Haha , can you imagine that when you are 50 yrs old ,
And suddenly u met your high school friends and talk abt the silly things u did in school .
Met your ns friends n start talking abt how we struggle the 2.5 months .

生日快乐

我对今天所发生的事情感到非常失望。
为什么你酱自私！为什么你不能体谅我为你做的一切！
我今天高高兴兴的去买蛋糕，
一心想要帮你庆祝生日 ，
可是我得到的，竟然是如此 。
我真的很伤心，但我有不可以怪你。
但不怪你，我又能怪谁？
谁没有压力？难道你的所作所为就能让压力全部消失吗？
我看戏是错的？算了，我不想数落你 。
我不想让你难堪，所以今天在亲戚面前我都死认，
可是你却又这样！

the biggest loser !

Lol ,
You know what ,
I kept on crying while watching the biggest loser today ...
not like the mucus coming out and cry like hell that kind of crying la ,
just that the tears keep flowing out ...
Feel like they very geng lor ...

The determination , you get me?
Omg,really salute them!

mm , hv a healthy life.

Okay , so ...
Today I felt a little sad , or specifically a little disappointed ,
When I saw my exbf's post on fb...
I was wondering y had he become a person like that?
As I can remember ,he is a good person lo ,
A nIce person , em .... ya lo ,
Then I came across his post,
He is smoking , drinking alcohol n clubbing,
Maybe this is his life la ,
I have nothing much to say ,
Furthermore , I have no rights to comment on his life at all as I dunno the situation that he is facing ,
But I hope that he has a good life ba ...
I remembered that one day he told me that the fortune teller told him that he is gonna break his leg one day .
Hope that this wouldn't happen to him la .

Love Love Love

Hello,
haha, dunno how to start wei ~ XD
ok , lidat larh ,
so there is a situation now that i dunno what to do >.<
Lets name the 3 characters Charmaine , Lee Hom and Louis. ^^
3 of them are my classmates la okay ~ XD
This Louis come to me and tell me that he had a cruch on Charmaine  ,
i think it is when the a-level course already started for a few weeks ,
O.O ~
then he said he suspect that this Charmaine likes Lee Hom,
but Lee Hom has a girlfriend already ~
so i told him that he have to be confident, and if u really like her , then just tell her la ,
but he said no lar, btw, Lee Hom n Louis are best frenz....
then i told him, this may not be the thruth lar, just wait till the right timing....
everything will be fine, lidat larh ,
the one day , specifically today , Charmaine told me that the person she likes is Lee Hom,
then she said la, she feels sad, she knows he already had a girlfriend,it is impossible to like get involved in someones relationship rite ! thats bad !
and then she told her problems to me lorh ,
thne suddenly i feel pity for Louis lar,
but i swear i wouldn't tell him all this lorh ! its against the law u know !
lolx, but i feel like,
y does this always happening to me, zzz....
feel guilty in both ways ,
haha , but nvm la , hope 3 of them can find the way out larh,
u know , the Earth is still moving no matter what mar ~
hehe, like a philosopher pulak ..>.<

okay , next ,
today one of my friend " Mel Mel "
she and her boyfriend is cpling for a month^^
so today , suddenly during math,
his boyfriend came in to the class with a bouquet of lilies ,
OMG ! so damn freakin romantic...
haha!
then the whole class is like "ooooh ~"
haha !
nice man ^^

My mom and I

okay , today me and my mom went grocery shopping ....
haha , then we saw u no the vege called " sengkuang ",
okay , it is used to make popiah rite ,
anyway , my mom saw and ask whether i am interested in making popiah tomorrow,
then i said okay la , y not rite ....
haha , then she took two ,
then when collecting all the ingredients for the popiah tomorrow ,
suddenly she list out wanna do this wanna do that ,
then we looked at each other , and we said " Dun do lorh " together !
seriously , haha , together ,
haha ! both also lazy der ... >.<

Lolx, so frequently update this time , cannot cannot , =P....
hehe , k , toodles !

my wish ....

if today ,
u ask me what would i want in my life? what am i hoping for ?
what am i longing for ....
i would say i wouldn't wanna grow up ....
but things wouldn't be like that ,
things will just go on ... how cruel ~
anyway , oh my gosh ~
im getting old , T.T
sooner or later , im getting wrinkles,
white hair all over my head,
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that is not the point actually,
actually the only thing i don't like for growing up is the responsibility that u would have to face...
god ! its like , u wont have time to play .... no time for drama ! ( i hv , but with GUILTINESS!)
cannot merajuk , aish !
haha , erm, yalor ,
i wonder how ppl suit this so easily ,
especially this PY , its like having her very own sweer time thr ! =P XD
kidding la , everyone has her own hard time, just that we r so tensed on our probs that sometimes we will neglect other ppl's one...

anyway , hope Pui Yeng n Yi Xiu is safe n sound .... since they are so far away fr me n i couldn`t "protect" them, XD !

erm, hope we don't fail our subjects anymore, its not like i failed , haha , BUT NEARLY FAILED , so ntg to be happy of , haha ,
kay , that would be my fai wa , kk, bb ~

3 little things ...

Today , i had 2 hours break,
okay , that's not the main point ,
the point is ,
0.0
I found a shop where they rent storybooks !!!
OMG ! so many of them ^^
and i dunno if it is cheap or not ...
of like 1 book is abt RM 4-5 , It is considered cheap or expensive ??
Dunno leh , like if u buy a storybook , it cost like minimum RM 15, max is like abt RM70 leh ~

RM4-5 is bcoz this time i rent the S'pore ghost story only , coz i not enuf money to rent the others ><
anyway , is RM4 expensive for this book ,
like erm, u pay RM15 to buy a book ,whr u will only read a time/two...
but if u rent ... only RM 4  wor ~
ee, i dunno larh ~
anyway ,
i decided to QUIT FB !

MWAHAHAH !!!!

DUNNO LEH , I TRY LARH HAR ,
XD,
muz quit muz quit,
if not i will spend most of my time on FB , BLOG and Youtube ,
so , out of 3, i think i shud sacrifice fb ba....
coz it is very impossible for me to quit youtube lorh , haha !
so.... try larh , haha !

Okay , next , yest Bio Quiz,
T.T ,
ming ming read liao lorh ,
but once i c the questions my mind like blank ~ stupid !
shud change another way of reading liao >.<
k la , toodles ! ^^

zzz....

Moral Studies today ,
the teacher never come .... AGAIN !!
WAT is her problem ??
LOLX, I dunno it is her prob or the new time tables prob,
even if she cant make it , she shud call the class rep ,
BUT !
she din even call,
half n hour later,
only the class rep is willing to call...
if nto all of us force him to do so ,
i think he wont cal lorh ,
some more after calling , he said , c , my 60 sen gone,
lolx !
WTH ! dun volunteer to be the class rep la !
stupid !
haiz ....
tats all la,
lame teacher , lame class rep , lame time table, lame subject ??
dunno wor ? lame or not ah ? haven start the chapter yet , so dunno ....
hehe !

LAW ?? XD

Wow ! Look at that , so long nv post liao .
Haha !
So today I went n buy e pop , coz gt ft island poster.
*kinda like ft island after I heard 'hello hello' , nice song!
Ok ,then when I read the contents ,
I had a feeling that I'm a little old for e-pop ...
Y?
Coz ppl is sharing their love stories in it , in the age of 13-15 mostly ,
And I felt like , so naive >.<
Haha ...
Hmm , u no wat...
My dad ask me to consider studying law.
It all started when my mom said she didn't vote in an election b4 n I said her name will never be in the list anymore .
And then my dad said, u should study law u know ,
Since u like history. ..
Then I was thinking , I like meh?
Malaysian study also last minute only study de wor. ..
Haha .... like that lor ,
But if I were to be a lawyer hor , I think I will only consider consultation job ba ,
Coz I can't even debate .... XD .

no la , I Will decide after a level ....

Result = Insult!

Today I got my result for the finals last sem.
Guess how I scored...
Bio n Phy = B , Math = A , Chem = E !
E for Chem!!! OMG! WTH! Stupid!!
I feel tat the teacher mark wrongly lo !
I seriously feel that teacher mark wrongly lo! !
How possible ! I feel like I did not bad for paper 2 lo ...
But we can't take our papers back!
Lol ! But luckily I still have my scholarship, if not I really dunno how to live on man!
Thank god thank god ...
But I dunno will I be this lucky next time ...
T.T

My term break ends

yup, its bye bye time for my holiday ....
hmm, what i did during this days ??

Haha, watching drama, meaningless weekend ~
only drama n movies.... nothing else....
didn't even study anything....
haiz ~ and now holiday ends liao .... T.T ,
BB holiday , miss u !

Memories are always sweet

guess what ,
haha ... looking at this photo ,
then hearing this song,
suddenly feel the urge to cry ><
because, i feel that seriously we are walking different pathways right now ....
like, being more and more alone liao ~

i dunno how to express it out .... its just .....

i want back my high school life,
i dun care if i have to wear pinafore everyday ,
i dun care if i have to stay back for koko.....
ish ~ i dunno larh ~

im so useless....
you all have to live your life also what , yup ~

Ok , i will be happy for you ,all of you ....

A New Look

hehe, c , a new look for my blog,
not a very gloomy one, but... erm,
a simple one,
love it , haha, maybe talented to be a blog designer , XD
most importantly, i changed my playlist too,
the songs quite nice, so enjoy lorh ~

Malacca Trip

hoho,
so i just came back form my malacca trip with my family,
erm,the reason we wanna travel is because i really wanna go out after my exam...
but dunno where to go ,
n this is a last minute thing so limited budget , lolx... haha ,
so at last , out of so many options , we chose Malacca.
Not to say i nv go b4 la, just that i wanna leave home !
XD .

A night before, lolx, my parents still can't gimme an exact answer on are we really going or not ,
so , we never book a hotel before we go, but of course we had made researches abt the hotels there lo ...

One thing, "The Majestic Hotel" really , i love it so much ! Unfortunately , it was fully booked, and it cost about RM 800 a night ! lol !!!!!! wanna cry out liao ! haha ~
then at last we went to the .... lolx, i 4got what name already ...
the hotel la.....
we booked 2 rooms, one for my parents, one for my grandma , my bro n I....

Lolx, i wanna mention here that haha.... he very timid one lorh ,
so funny , he doesn't even wanna close the door when he is bathing ,
n he insist that we sleep close together that night .... XD
oh ! the best part of the hotel  is that there is a bathtub....
hmm.... but not good la, like wasting water like that , sorry water....

Ok , the 1st day .... hmm....
we reach there and find for a suitable hotel for like one hour,
because all the hotels are like fully booked, as it is a weekend also ma....
nvm , at last we found one to stay ....
BUT ! THE WI-FI SYSTEM OF THE HOTEL SUCKS !

nvm , fine ~ okay , after that , we went for the boat ride.....
lolx, so ..... ok la, not bad.... ut so slow ~ haha.....
Later we went for dinner , do u no that there is a very famous SATAY CELUP in Malacca,
yup , we went there , but OMG !! ppl are lining up ,
I was like OMG ! The line was like 8 shops apart !
if like one shop apart lidat then okay la, now 8 SHOPS APART !
=.= , so we went to the other shop for this food lorh , no need to wait so long,
the taste is like almost the same la, but the ingredient lika ma ma tei lorh ....
coz the other shop got big prawns ! XD ~
n we biasa go that shop, so this is the 1st time i go to the other shop. OK LA , not bad !

Then we went to Jonker Street, my fav = shopping !
haha, but its like SO MANY PPL !
lolx, so my grandma n my pap went to a shop for a drink while only me n my mom shop !
haha..... one word = Exhausted ! =P

ok ~ next day , i dunno what time i woke up , but i am very sure it is b4 8 ! lol !
then we go for the "sai dou yu yun" er.... fishball?? yup, haha !
then SUDDENLY , RAINING VERY HEAVILY !!
LOL !!!!!

anyway , after the rain stops, we went to the.... lolx i 4get the name again , neh ~ the red colour church !
XD ~
yup, there la, n we went to the musuem ....
U no wat , i ahte musuems one lorh , but this one is diff la, not a bad place to go ~

O , then we went for CENDOL at er , do u no "Casa Del Rio" hotel , yup, it is just opposite the hotel, named DONALD N LILY !
BEST CENDOL EVER !
after that , actually we wanna go back liao, but my bro wanna visit the zoo....
but noody really wanna go , then he like bo song already , but at last we went also la,
only my dad, bro n I .....
haha , skip to the conclusion lar, i found my fav animal liao ! guess what !
GIRAFFE ! mwahahah ~
y ? because it is tall, muscular n .....strong ! mwahaha !
so cute !
haha, one thing , i found the animal i hate most liao ! not animal lar , group ,
AMPHIBIANS ! im sorry , but i dun like u !
especially IGUANAS ! lol.... blocking my way just now ~ scare me ! haha ~
fun but very exhausted, haha ....

erm, conclusion : the  trip isn't that bad la, but my parents heartache lo, the hotel is not cheap + food .... PETROL , haha , im fat ! XD . k , good nite ~

My Last Post ~ i guess.....

Well, this will be my last post in the mean time i guess.....
There are s many things i wanna mention today .

1. I feel very .... depressed , coz i dun hv a direction in life. That is not a very big deal actually . Well, actually it is this woman who step into my class in the evening, i dunno who she is la, not very sure . Then she started talking about what u will face in A Levels, what will you have to prepare when u go int o this college or that college.... And then she said that u must score A in AS exam, if not u will not make it in A2, A2 is much  tougher than what u r facing now . Although SEM 2 i coming, u ill have to have 7 hours per sub too... Then I was like, lol ! AS already like that , A2 how ? Some more March intake, i dunno la ~ actually now oni 1-2 chapters left behind the January intakes, but i was like .... so fast! some more i nv study in the mean time , so now like stuffing everything into my brain last minute, zzz..... Then when im on my way back , i really dunno wat to think of. Staring at the sky , feel more n more worried, more n more afraid to go forward, then suddenly i cried ~ LOLX ! Y can't it be like last time, after kindergarten , then primary school lorh , after that secondary school lorh .... don't need t make decision.... don't have to worry bout anything . But impossible liao lorh , an 18 year old should be able to make decision and to be responsible for it lol !

2. About my CHEM exam, i told my mom, and surprisingly , she said its okay , next time do better lo. Very hard ? then i said no, its that i interpret wrongly , then she said now u know how to interpret correctly liao ma ? then i said ya . lol, i let u down , so sorry .

3. Do you know before joining A-Levels , im like so confident can settle everything easily, when the person ask me if  wanna take 3/4 subjects, i said 4 confidently , thinking that everything will be okay . Even when h said there are Thinking Skill and MPW Paper, i just nod my head and said okay, never have streaks of worriness.... c ! now ! no eye c ! HAHA

5. So , reached home, "sadded" , then straight away ask my mom to go out for dinner. So on our way back, when we are waiting for the traffic light to turn green , (okay , there is a black Honda Civic at the back of the white MyV ) the guy form the Honda Civic car came down and walked to the girl in the MyV car, and said something , so i try to make ot what the guy said just for fun lar, like a couple fighting .... In the whole conversation, the girl remained in the car, only the guy kept talking. By his sign language , i think he meant

" Come down, come out of the car, Y didn't u pick up my phone ?"

Then he went back to his own car, and the traffic light turned green. So on the way driving, through the side mirror, i could c that the Guy kept on blocking the girl's road, OMG ! Like so dangerous man , so near ! so intolerant, i think he tried 2talk to the girl , but she doesn't want too, (lolx, im talking, im sorry , huge curiosity ! haha ....) and then they stopped at a side, i asked my mom if we wanna rescue the girl, haha, and at last our car had to move on, end of story ~

Y lidat one ?

My chem test 2 marks !
Y like that one ?
Y  Y Y !!!!

6/13 AND 6/24

It is the first time i failed CHEMISTRY lorh ~~~~
1st time in my life what the hell !
did i do something wrong ?
did i not put enough effort !
what is happening to me ?

i dunno la ~ maybe im really the oni factor ....
HOW ?
TEST ALREADY LIKE THAT LIAO , EXAM HOW ?
LOLX !
SUCH A FAILURE.....

SORRY for those who have high hope on me , i failed you ....
How to study medicine future like that ?
omg! how is my life gonna be....
feel like im so useless...
just like a trash ~
me=trash
CONRATZ !!!!

is this what U wanna show me ?
is this what u are tryin to say ?

a special day today ~

okay , today was my exam - pure math and stats ....

mwahaha .....

scroll down ~

this is a picture of the invigilator giving out papers .

it is at the old inti block...

got air-cond der lo, yeng !

this is what happens outside the room before exam .

hehe , everyone is busy discussing about math .

I tell you what , very lame one lor,

the pure math paper was okay , the stats paper reli wanna die liao ,

every question i also not confirmed about the answer....

hopefully okay larh , hopefully the answer i gave correct lar,

i still remember there is one question abt cum. freq. thing der lo,

got calculator also will count wrongly , stupid,

luckily i double check !

then suddenly got siren sound, i tot got ambulance come or what la ,

but too focus on stats paper liao, so leave it lorh .

This is the INTI Block ! scroll down ~

This is what happnes after my stats paper.

I think everyone in INTI is here already ~

then ..... we ask around what actually happened ,

n i get to know that there is EARTHQUAKE !

haha ! SERIOUS ~

n that explains what i had been going through during my exam,

i felt a little shaky that time , a little bit only ....

i tot maybe i din get enough sleep or i din drink enough water,

so im gonna faint ,

haha ! but it was the earthquake....

only a small tiny little shaky feeling ....

so today ~ i experience earthquake !

So , class was canceled after exam ! so happy !

if not i had to go back at 6 u noe....

but also no diff la ,

then i went SUNWAY PYRAMID with my friends,

I think 90%of the class went , haha ....

we went to watch the movie "REMEMBER ME "

N throughout the whole movie, i was taking my bag to cover half of my face ,

so curious to know what is happening , but daren't to watch ,

but till the end , it is less horror already ....

haha, i rate the movie.... 3/5 la...

before that , i went to eat 1901 hot dog with my friends ,

then i ajak Lanster out lorh , as he stays nearby oni ma,

hahah, poor him man, i like ask him out to accompany me until the movie starts,

then i abandon him >.<

HAHA !

then i went back to college at 4, wait for my dad for like one and a half hour !

sitting alone in McD doing nothing !

lolx !!!!!!!!

haha , but what to do ~ both parents working ma ~

oh ! and yesterday i topped up RM10 for my hp, and today left RM0.91 !!!!

WTH ! U NOE Y !

BECUZ I ACCIDENTALLY PRESS MAXIS AS THE OPERATOR TO THE INTERNET !!!

LOL, RM10 LIKE THAT BO LIAO ! SAM TONG DAO !!!!!

so the conclusion is, i have experienced many feelings in a day today ! lol ! haha !

Living in my own world ! What the hell!
I hate u !!!!!! Stupid !!!!!
What the hell what the hell what the hell! !!!
u better dun ask me to do something for u !!!!
This afternoon I already forgive u on what you did on occasion!
and u did it again !!!!!!
Congratz ! Everyone dun seem to give a bloody damn thing on what you did !
Fine !!!!meaningless saying anything anymore !!!!
What the hell !!!!!!!!
ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bloody stupid !

i slipped ~

my bruise AKA bubu

the previous scar caused by my dog ! and i dun think it will disappear !

both on the right leg !

Right leg is full of scars >.<

die lorh ! how to go for Miss Malaysia ! haha .....

ok, today i slipped , hurt my knee.....
lol, fell that time not pain one lorh ~
when im enjoying my lunch only the pain starts ~
zzz....
nut it is the bearable one lorh....
im not so useless, sikit sikit also cannot tahan type lorh ~
XD !

erm... then when im back to class,
i told my friend taht i fell,
and she went to the office and ask for a first aid kit ....
>< , i nv tot of medicating the bruises one lorh....
lolx,
1st the alcohol tingy was really pain !
others ( the dettol thing n the iodine thing) was fine ~

okay , so.... lidat la...
its been a very long time since i fell lorh....
erm... i mean like this bleeding type la.....
i think it was form 1 when i go merentas desa with Joyce .... >.<
so embarassing ! HAHA !

omg ~

The taxi almost got em killed today ~
ok , its like an hour break after two hours of math...
hence, me andmy friends headed to Mcdonalds for ice cream,
on the way back... we cross the road...
and then the taxi was like ....
suddenly driving high speed towards my side !
OMG ! He almost got me killed lorh...
okay larh, maybe not killed...
fall down maybe....

anyway ,  stupid taxi !

Yeng leh ~

Haha , my Benedict's test ....

suddenly the colour looks very nice,

haha !

thick face me. XD!

haha, so one day ....while my dad was driving,
This is a conversation between my dad and me. Ok, fine,it was actually me who is doing all the talking.

Me : do you know there is one level in inti, they use the wall to write instead of using the white board...
Then my friends were wondering how come the ink wouldn't stain the wall.
And so I crapped that they use the nippon stainless.
And so my friend was wondering how I know all this.
And I said my dad worked in a paint company wat.
Haha !

And then my mom said:but your dad worked in seamaster paint instead of nippon paint.

And hence I said : yalo , actually it is irrelevant to my dads occupation la. Its just that I have high level of general knowledge !
Haha...

Ok, just for laughs ya ... hehe. ..
Ok , just for laughs ... hehe! !!

Ok, since my post lately was like so depressing,
I would like to share all my happy stuff this week.
First, my physic quiz , I scored 19/20.
Haha ! Since march I started my a level course, this is the first time I scored so high.
And ... haha, happy la.
Next, my chem presentation was a success.
I still remember how headache I am to prepare the slides and animation.
Coz the day before I very late sleep. So like omg!
Haha. ya,other day like normal.

I know ~

We both are from 2 different worlds ,
ya , u r rite....
i knew that too...
lolx, u just erased my slightest hope...
nvm , i rather continue to stay in mine ....
"sadded" , now letting it go ...
i dont have the courage to step out anymore ~

ya , i know it now, think twice...
don't ever take anything for granted !

I dunno why ~
I will always feel a little sad when i chat with you...
Dn't ask me why , i don't know ~

June 1, 2010

First Day of June,
It is already like 2 months i've been studying A-levels .
Yesterday my friend told me she wants to drop a subject ~
I was like , OMG ! R u serious ?
And she dropped Math, and today my another friend plan to drop Physics...
Means like lesser and lesser people taking 4 subjects...
Im taking 4 subjects, i never thought of dropping one of them,
either is because i dunno my direction yet ,
or maybe i dun think dropping can help much .
But , taking 3 subjects is really far more relaxing,
dont have to study like hell n the time table is not that packed too...

Anyway , i hope i can really cope lorh,
Yup, that's all ~

Ok, its time to struggle as internal exam is coming in 3 weeks time!
Add oil add oil!
Gimme a j,gimme an o, gimme a c,gimme an e!joce!
Ok, syok sendiri here =P.
Haha, tata !

至 : 特别的你 ...

我不敢爱... 怕伤害到自己,更怕伤害到你...
辜负了你对我的爱,
是我的错...

我不是一个很有责任感的人...
我不是你口中那么好的我...

远方的你好好爱自己,
好好为自己找一个比我更好更好的人.

我恨自己这样对你,
你真的真的很好... 真的真的...

希望我们能做回以前的我们....
那个无所不谈的我们...

what happened today ~

Ok, today after college,
i went back home (obviously... haha...) by bus .
Yes, by bus....
wakaka.....
OK, my fren visited me and we went back together by bus.
He studies at Kampar and since it is his last week here, so.... we travel back together
okay , my sentence doesn't really make sense.... erm,
Anyway ,
we sat the taxi to the bus stop at.... near the ktm station ...
which cost RM10 ~ lolx, i don't know it would be so expensive... >.<
then, waited for the bus.... and then get one the bus, then reach home....
haha.... i know how to go back by bus liao ~
so smart  XD.


OO, and my Bio scored 60% , =.=" stupid !!!!
N today's chem test make me so speechless,
yesterday study , looking through the book like ... ok, i no this liao,
yes , i know how it works...
lol, and when the paper came out... =.=" what is this !
huh ~ dunno la ~

hmm....
hehe....
nope,
yesterday , i just realised that,
maybe im not prepared to call anyone my dear yet ~
feel so.... erm....
lost.

woah ~

Woah ~ all my test are like....
it sucks !
all scored like half of the total mark only ~
okay larh... must really really put effort liao ....
hmm ~

lol, today , a very funny conversation between me n yiwen.

me : u no wat , if i can't score my a - level, i think im gong for mass com. (just joking la )I think i will be the news broadcaster....

yiwen : really, cannot larh, after the cameraman can't find you as you can't reach the table....

haha, i was like =.= , fine.... XD !

then i said : then i be the whether broadcast la, just have t stand...
yiwen : oo, with a stool at the bottom ?

haha... okay , it was just for laughs.. haha! enjoy ~

farewell.

Ok,
Today yi xiu and zhen yang going to kampar la.
Lol, so far.
Maybe pui yeng going kedah,
Also very far...
5 years studying together. 5 years we did everything together.
And you are all leaving. Ok, I know.
We all have a life to move on.
And here, I would like to say farewell and promise that W will all meet again very soon.
Good luck out there.

Felt like quit blogging ,
because I find them meaningless....

Dunno la,
just some random thoughts ...

Thank you!

Okay,
I wanna say that thank all of you.
Despite of complaining what I did not get and what I had lost in the previous blog,
I think it is time to realise about how lucky I was.

*despite of not getting my jpa, I have the inti scholarship,
Which I don't have to pay as much as the others.
*despite I really feel so stress when I couldn't catch up or make it out what the lecturer is teaching,I should feel grateful that I Have friends around me who can be able to guide me
*despite of my happiness and unhappiness, I have great buddies to share with,
I have my lao gong,py ,I have Joyce! I have the 7princess and a prince to backup me.
I have goldfish, I have my aiya ah gor ,
Most importanTly, I have my parents. And my brother la. ..haha.
Despite I couldn't go overseas in the mean time although I couldn't travel around anytime, I know I will one day. And yup, I should be grateful.

Actually, just give me some time. I will figure things out de...thank you everyone for supporting me!

oo, so emo today ~

okay ~
y am i emo ?
because during lunch , i get to know that py will probably be going to AIMST for med course....
So ?
means we can't eat lunch together anymore every Thursday ~
we can't study the same course together anymore ~
lolx, i feel like im alone in this war now...
feel like i have to face this all by myself....
actually i wanna say that , half of the reason i choose A level is because of PY lorh,
1st , i really dunno what to choose,
secondly , since i had an accompany , then y not ? coz i have scholarship too....
so dun really have to pay much la ~
not bad ~
if not , maybe foundation is enough ~

and now she is leaving,
man , i really feel happy for her,
really really ....
she don't have to pay over 300K for her fees u noe...
i mean, its great ! although it is a local course la ~
so i will have to get use to it, try to blend in my new life now....
and try to score well in A levels for such oppurtunities again in my life .

but this afternoon really emo lorh,
1st , im alone in the library ... i dunno what to do ,
who to tell.... just staring at the monitor, listening to music, visiting othe ppl's blog...
my god ~ so pathetic, haha....
then at last also found u to chat ....
then ok larh ~ thinking of blending in , study , and score ! then less worries?
hope so la ~

Milk ? Weird ~

okay ....
so on Sunday , i went to Giant for grocery shooping....
then we bought 2 Goodday low fat fresh milk...
haha....

then ... next morning, means today morning la ....
i drinked it with cereals la...
haha....
okay , then it taste a little funny....
so i just woke up mar...
means blur blur der la...
so i ate , i tasted somthing weird,
but i tot low fat milk should tast like that ....
so i ignored and eat.... and tryin to  remember to remind my mom don't buy this brand next time...
then i couldn't finish mine, and coincidently my bro came down, so i asked him to finish it for me while i go bath....

then later after college, my mom ask if i felt weird about the milk...
then i said no, i tot it should taste like that ....
so my mom said something was wrong as it taste a little sour,
and hence we went back to Giant and make a refund....
OMG ! When the cashier examine the milk , she made an awful face...
i was like y hadn't i realise it this morning =.=
crazy lorh !
haha...
but still , ntg happen to me la so far... haha !

Chai Ming You 蔡旻佑

okay ~ you know what ...
actually God treat me nice...
haha....
after from the depressing day last night ( as i said in the previous post ),
i had a sweet dream today morning....
OMG !!!! really sweet... haha ....
and im gonna blog this before i forget i had dreamt this before in my life !
i dreamt about him ...

蔡旻佑

If im not mistaken, it was him la ! haha ~

It started when me n high skool friends are on the way to a shopping mall....

okay , then he and Nicholas Toeh appeared there...

Then we saw la, of course....

Then the whole thing changed, as i can remember, erm, now it was me and my cousin Carmen and her family...

I think we are at a park...

Then she asked him for a photograph together...

okay , then i think im the one who took it for them ,

so they stand side by side...

then , okay , its my turn....

btw , actually im not really a fan of him la....

Im only a fan of Charmaine Sheh okay ~

Haha, so i went and stand in front of him, and we posed....

like what couples do la, he hugged me from the back on my shoulder

then we took a photo....

then i forgot how we started the conversation, then i was asking him where are you going later...

OMG ! SO FUNNY !

Then he said im heading to a tuition centre ... 0.0

then i asked for what , then he said tuition la....

then i said , oh , what course you took .

Then he said he wont tell...

Then i said i wont tell anyone if you told me...

then he said something , i forget what liao ~

something about engineering... erm, Mechanical Engineering ? i forgot liao ...

okay , then suddenly, our conversation ended and he brought me to a crowd of paparazi .

That was back to the restaurant again .

and im thinking my face will be in the entertainment news session the next morning...

haha, then i woke up !

wow ~ omg ! im fantasizing ~

tsk tsk tsk...

Okay , this is wat teenagers do okay ....

Im considered okay liao,

better than PY with her Ron Ng.... haha !

sucks !

ok....

1. I did not get my JPA ! suck ! okay ... 1st , i can't access through the website... next , i ask PY to check for me .... then , i recieved Yi Wen's sms that she did not get ... After that , i know my chances are low already . But, since it is my bro's birthday , i just did not say anything and continue enjoying my dinnner. After dinner, on the way back home, PY called and said i did not get my JPA  ~ okay , i was rather calm, because i already predicted it earlier, so its fine. And so i told my mom, and she sounded rather disappointed, then she asked me did u appeal for your matriculation? you got go check your application for ASEAN scholarship or not ? If you go matriculation you can go to local U rite ? Lolx... i dunno la, i can understand she is worried la, okay ~ but just stop for a moment, let me think.... and then she said, nevermind la, dun be so disappointed and i told her im not, you are... yala, she should be , i dunno how is my future going to be anymore... Its like the whether recently, so hazy .... I can't c my future anymore.

2. And then i realise im just a belagak pandai person all this time... Okay ! Im not smart ! Don't call me a smart one because im not.... If I am , i can get JPA already , i can get my matriculation already ! And then hearing all my friends get ... i was like.... dont get jealous, it was all your fault for this....

3. But i wanna say that if u already dont plan to give the 5A+ students for scholarship, don't call them for the interview because the result is INSULTING ! fine ~ u dun let me get any smarter..... u dun let me prove that i can do better even without your bloody money !!! u don't let me be a somebody who is very very important ( which most likeky wouldn't happen ) but maybe it could ! One day , i will prove to you that i don't need your bloody money to be a successful person !!!!!!!!

4. I Hate cooking !!!!! lol... I just overcooked a pot of porridge ! just a pot of porridge man ! damn the porridge ! damn the pot !
haiz ~ man , lame ~ haha ! whr got a person who cant even cook a pot of porridge properly one ~ omg ! suck ~

Randomly blogging

okay ,
i dunno wat to type now,
just wanna blog, haha....

hmm....
i wanna hang out,
anywhere,
just let it be somthing different from my life...
everyday college college and college is making my life dull...
not to say it is not fun,
it is fun.... but just something different....
the zoo maybe =.=" lolx....
haha....

oh , i remembered wat i wanna blog....
i wanna say that if i din get jpa,
im gonna lose my direction ,
and i have to think all over again what shall i do in life.
And wat A-Levels can give me...
am i like too over reacted for taking a level instead of waiting for f6 ?
I dunno la, i dun like waiting ....
hence....
dunno... haha ....