ambition ~

What I wanna be in the future ? That was really a tough one ~ You know , since I was small , Whenever people ask me what I wanna be in the future , I will hesitate a little and say I wanna be a doctor . I remembered when I am celebrating my dunno how many years old bday , my wish was to be a doctor . As time passes , the time I spend to hesitate my ambition became longer , although I changed my ambition in between , doctor will still be my final decision. Until now ,I doubt if I can still hold on to my dreams . Thx to a level. U made me realise how hard will your future be if u wanna choose this path . I doubt if I can hang on till the end . And hence , I actually decide to change my direction. And when I was trying to set this to my mind , I realised , my mom actually hoped I could be one . Lolx ... although she never say it out , N when I mentioned I might give up , She didn't say anything too. But I no ... I shouldn't disappoint her ,but everytime when I think of the interviews n test that had to be taken in order to study the course , the fees , the competitors , the limited post , the tough course structure . Lolx , it isn't my freedom anymore to choose whether I should feel anxious . And if I'm reli lucky to successfully finish the course , How abt jobs ? I will have to sit for another paper in order to get a job . Wth !