Half past Sem 7 !

yeah, time literally flies, why you go so fast ?! I haven't enjoy enough, and then there is exam next week. ALREADY ?!?!

As I mentioned before, we get to go to clinic visits twice a week to find for patients. And honestly, I learnt a lot in the process. Well, before this, I have this thing about clinic doctors, I don't like them because I thought they are kind of unprofessional but this experience proves me wrong. Like some places may not be that advance to have a hospital and here comes clinics to help those people there. Yeah, really not bad, and over my expectations. hehe....

and then there was my birthday *shy*
a really great night well spent
although the food is so so but ambience still ok lah
haha !

le gang 

le gang 2

ma girls =)

my man =)

ma girls 2

I'm freakin 22 now  ! when will I get married?! LOL haha ! 

I guess that's for now, tata ! 

Updating life before becoming a pre-coassistant

I'm in semester 7 now, which will be the last semester before entering my co-assisstant life. So currently in Tropical Medicine, and next week will be the beginning of life working in clinics (the locals called it puskesmas). I wonder how will it be.

Life has been great to me so far. Just came back from KKNM (which is where we have like a super camp for a month with 20 other people from different faculties and live life in a small village and trying to help villagers improve their life ). I was in Wangkelang, Majalengka. In that month, I met new people, I felt another kind of living, I learnt a lot from everyone around me, like seriously, in the beginning I really complain to everyone about how I don't like the place and all but in the end, I really learned a lot. And, it was an opportunity to bond with the girls, I really felt a lot closer and I felt more belonged, if you know what I mean. 

Then... yup, so far so good =) and hope it remains that way. 

another set of memories that will be hard to be erased from my life =)

Jar of memories

I was rearranging my stuff, unboxing boxes and suddenly I found this !
And OMG memories >.< 

Secondary school , gosh, the time where your life starts to become slightly complicated and different XD

This was from my first love, he gave it to me for my birthday, and I stuff a letter he gave inside the bottle, I burned other stuff because I was super scared my parents found out >.< u know how scary parents used to be right last time hahahaha !

We didnt last really long though because stress from every places haha, and immature lol ,

BUT,

Im glad it was like that, we learn stuff from every relationship =) he is doing great now , im doing great now ,

蓦然回首、你虽然没在灯火阑珊处、可是看到你幸福快乐、我也非常替你高兴…

大家长大了、回忆终是变得那么美好

At least for me, 它是美好的 

How I screwed up an easy exam today

Please teach me how to make myself feel better for my failure, I mean, not fail, but after much preparation, I know I prepared well, I know I will perform well in other cases, I know I will score, and yet, I got this new case that I wasn't prepared to face and hence couldn't score very well, my friends kept telling me I'm so close to A already hence why does it matter, I really, I'm not that kind of optimist when it comes to marks and grades, I'm that typical kiasu ! Why ah? Why like that ? What did I do wrong ? Bye first honour, Bye 3.5 ~ really WTF ! If there is one thing I learn from medical school, its the ability to curse and get frustrated over stuffs and sometimes hard work isn't everything, luck is also a very crucial aspect.

Maybe I should just blame myself for ... IDK la WTF la stupid la

Maybe I'm just not working hard enough, to the Dr I respect so much, the huge part of my sadness and anger is because as your student, I couldn't make you proud, you teach me so well, and I got a bloody easy case which I simply couldn't perform well because I prepared so hard for the hard cases and simply neglect the simple one, this is stupid, everything is stupid, sigh....

Just FYI, It's my aural exam today and I got Hemorrhoid case, which it was originally together with the Colorectal cancer case, and suddenly today, it came out independently without etiology and OMG I really dont feel like explaining anything any more, just sad ok bye ...

我的心，真的有很多很多的不甘心，真的，
我觉得如果我拿到别人的题目，我会做得更好，
A 肯定是在手上的，
为什么命运要如此作弄我，我看不开，我不甘心！

你可能觉得我太注重于分数，虽然我这次的分数很靠近A，可是A就是A， B就是B，永远是有它的差别的，它永远都是两个世界的人，就算是一分也好，它还是有很大的差别的，
心真的有很多的委屈，我没读书吗？ 我每天睡不够! 那些眼袋，那些豆豆都是白生的我跟你说。

今年遇到一个非常疼我的老师，我觉得我让他失望了，真的，他真的真的很好，他很关心我，很肯教我，就算不是上学时间，我有什么问题都可以找他，现在我竟然没考好，怨天又不是，怨地又不是，怨自己又不是，应为我真的是有准备！我的妈，睡了一个觉，我的心情还是平服不下来，

很多年过后的今天，我可能也忘了有真么一回事，可能也就笑自己为什么那么傻，那么看不开，可是，当下，我真的真的无法说服自己。。。

Sisterhood lol

OMG What is happening ? I'm being hated by YOU ?!!!

Mothers are like the hardest job in the world. That I totally agree, especially now. I think I'm like mothering my brother now, does that sound correct, lol... whatever, u get it. Of all the things I regret, I regret leaving you alone at home the most. It's like I've never done a good job as a sister of yours. I couldn't help you with your studies, I couldn't help you with your issues, I couldn't be with you through your rebellious stage... boys will be boys, there will be rebellious stage.

I did encourage you, I mean, they say that's the new way of communicating with youngsters and encouraging them, not by scolding and beating lol I feel so old >.< yeah, so each time you failed, I encouraged, each time you feel sad, I encouraged. But what have you become ??

I just hope you are that obedient boy, normal teenager, I mean, is that too much to ask ???
I can do it, my friends all did it, why can't you ???

cursing ? swearing ? drinking ? Do you really think it's okay ?
OK, fine, put aside that ?
RELATIONSHIP EMO ?? come on ! relationships???
zzz.....

I don't know how to put this but when people don't feel the same way as u felt then give up lah , it's not like u very ugly pooon, if u wanna find sure got one mah, why go after a girl that doesn't like you, and stay around her like bees and butterflies. (or houseflies if they don't find you presence pleasant)  that's the stupidest thing to do ! staying around someone that doesn't like you. WAKE UP PLSSSSS !

And whatever I said to you, my mother once said to me the exact same thing and it all makes sense now OMG . WHY AM I ACTING LIKE A MOTHER RIGHT NOW OMG

giving me phobia of having a daughter or a son in the future. what if my son becomes more rebellious ? what if my daughter gets pregnant in her teen age, what if they ran away from home because they cannot tahan me OMG THIS IS SO FREAKIN SCARY !!!

BUT ANYWAY, you wouldn't see this but I'm telling you, if she is really together with you, I'm not going to be friendly at all and I'm going to very obviously show how much I hate her because she once made you go through all this pain and emo-ing .

Unethical Lab !

I don't understand , why are they experimenting on rabbits ?
Why must they use rabbits ?
why is this place so evil !!!

they insert a catheter into a rabbit and experiment on different diuretics on rabbits.
This is like totally unnecessary, I mean, if you wanna know the MOA of certain drugs, just read the freakin text book, why do you wanna let students experiment on a rabbit ?
If you wanna conduct a study to prove a new theory, ok, I may accept this, because is for the sake of human mankind, but you want students to just understand a fact that has been proven ? OMG WHY ? pity rabbits >.<

And for those who mentioned there was no harm done to the rabbits, no harm ?? NO HARM ??? 
Imagine you never asked for any of this and they just tie you up on a board and insert catheters to your bladder and feed you diuretics which can cause serious adverse effect. NO HARM ??? PLS READ ALL THE SIDE EFFECTS AND GO INSERT A CATHETER INTO YOURSELF AND IF U STILL THINK THERE IS NO HARM , PLS, I THINK YOU ARE JUST SOMEONE WITH A BLACK HEART !

And people taking videos of the poor rabbit .... why are you doing that ???  Imagine you are in the rabbits shoe, do you want people to take videos of you ?? OMG CRUEL !!!!

AND YOU ! If you can't feed the rabbit properly LET SOMEONE ELSE DO IT !!!! WHY DID YOU INSIST YOU WANNA DO IT AND MAKE THE RABBIT BLEED

OMG BITCH !!!!!!

THE RABBIT ALREADY SO KESIAN AND YOU THINK THEIR LIFE IS NOT MISERABLE ENOUGH, AND YOU MADE THEM BLEED !

I'M JUST SURROUNDED BY CRUEL PEOPLE LAH, AND STUDYING IN A HEARTLESS UNIVERSITY !!! STUPID ! STUPID ! PLS FREE THE RABBITS !!!! 

Review : Seduction and snacks

This is like one of the great novels I've read >.< it's funny and romantic and cute at the same time. And I promised, you wouldn't wanna stop reading until you reached the last page !!! This book is more of the erotic-romance kind but seriously, so much better than 50 shades ! Haha !

Feel so guilty for spending my weekend only reading novels. I planned to read them when eating or not studying since the internet is not good enough to download movies, in the end, I couldn't stop reading ! I should've seen this coming >.<

If you are judging me for reading these genre of novels  - grow up plssss !