Hopeless ~

lol....
u no wat ,
tomorrow can kow about the JPA result liao,
and today newspaper said that 8A+ can get liao,
means i only got 5A+ ,
means my chances will be reduced very rapidly ...
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plus i chose a course that is very very hot ,
means it was everyones choice,
how ?
will i get or not ?
i really wanna have it lorh ,
i dunno y , but i just wanna escape here....
i felt like....
dunno la, just wanna leave college,
not to say that i dun like it here.
but i hope for more kua ~
or just wanna escape form wat i am doing now ....
dunno la ~
but feels like, omg ! is this going to happen , so many ppl smarter than you >.<
haiz ~~~~~

Im being a bad girl today !

Guess what ....
tsk tsk tsk,
im being very very bad....
y ?
because today on Malaysian Studies class,
i did not pay attn but oni doing my own work...
Haha ...
and then the teacher was like,
yala, this is top achiever scholarship student ,
they do other thing in Malaysian Study class n study at home,
and she was looking at me.... lolx !

haha....
Next,
i yelled at my mom today ,
because after i sweep the floor ,
i am suppose to mop it too,
but then since my bro came down doing ntg, i asked himt o mop,
while i rush on the Tan Cheng Lock project....
and u noe wat ...
she say i bully my bro ! stupid !!! y he cannot do hsechores wan la....
but then haiz ~ sorry ><

Malam Anugerah Bestari ....

okay ,
yesterday was my anugerah bestari nite....
this year was a little special,
because we need to pay,
not us la, but the others who wanna attend like family members la.
each will pay RM 30....

1. How was The Food ?
OMG ! Unbelievable, we have to use our hands !
and the food was totally NS food... lolx....

2. How was the performance ?
Erm , a little disappointing though , i expected more... haha....

3. What am I doing there ?
U no wat , I don't even know i will get Anugerah Sahsiah Terpuji .... but i dunno la.... not feeling really really happy larh ... i mean i'm happy im getting this, dun feel like explaining further . And the next price was taking 10 As la, and... well, i actually did not do good enough , but im getting cash, so no prob  ! haha ~

4. Where am i sitting ?
Im sitting beside Soliheen , i wonder why they planned it this way .... Im like .... WHAT ! WHY ! okay , but i felt nothing like i though i would have felt.... i though i would feel awkward sitting beside him with jealousy and hatred.... But, well, it seems okay la..... because... i dunno . i felt nothing of this .
And no doubt he is smart what , his results are so much better than me , he is the top 30, he get JPA, he get Matrix.... what to be jealous of ? no point jealousing at all... People also use his effort to achieve it mar... so .... fine, okay ~ since this is how it is , so this is how it is la. I have nothing else to say ...

5. And yesterday i thought back so many other things la since the venue is at the badminton court , and i remember i been there once only .... so hard oni get approval from my mom u know ... haha.... and it is a quite sweet one la ... thanks to them .


And i met all my friends back la, this is the sweetest thing i felt that day .... ^^

Chances

Chances and Opportunities is what ppl give you...
But u have to grab it to make it valuable ....
who doesn't know...
but unfortunately,
i am a person who waits for ppl to give me a chance, give me an opportunity,
and then tend to fail them...
DAMN !!!!!!!
i don't mean to fail them ,
i hate myself !
when im given a chance, i tried,
but not the hardest ,
and when i failed it, i hope that ppl gimme one more chance.
BUT , Im so selfish and obsessed in entertainment ,
that i don't appreciate what had ppl give me .

Like today's Physics test ! WTH !!!!!
I dunno what to say,
not enough practice lorh !
Y?
WATSING TIME ON THE BLOODY INTERNET LARH !!!!!

Like SPM .....
Y i can't get straight A+ ?
LAST MINUTE STUDYING LORH !!!!!!!!!!!!
and now oni come worrying that i couldn't get this scholarship, couldn;t get that scholarship....

AND NOW I ONLY KNOW HOW TO COMPLAIN HERE !
ONLY KNOW HOW TO FEEL REGRET !
BUT NV TEND TO THINK WAT SHUD I DO TO MAKE THINGS BETTER !
EVEN IF I THOUGHT ABT THAT !
I NV TEND TO RELEASE MY HANDS ON THE BLODDY KEYBOARD !!!!!


DAMN ME !!!!!! HATE ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Earth Day !

Earth Day 2011,
What had you done for Mother Earth ?
Pls appreciate Earth while it still appreciate us....

erm.... support recycle !
haha...

Today raining so heavily lorh...
even the big big longkang somewhere near INTI also got flooded....
tsk tsk tsk, the longkang really very very big n deep,
but still can get flooded, means :
1. the rain is really heavy
2. ppl throw rubbish in it !
tats y la ! c la !
dun be one of them lor...

and u no wat ....
even the tyres of the van can't be seen when the road gets flooded....
c la !
so ... appreciate it when u still have it ~

Here comes my Piano Pieces...

Currently preparing for Grade 7 Examination....

Haiz ~

how to say leh ?

okay ... they are 3 sections, each section have 3 choices of song,

so there is a CD attatched with the book which is all the song's demo lorh...

ok, so on and hear lor....

then i felt damn damn damn depressed lorh...

all sounds so so so nice....

and i asked myself how am I gonna play it?

Everything sounds so nice but i doubt how would it be if the pianist was me !
suck la! sure like i dunno la... liveless....

i really like playing, feel very proud if i can play the whole piece out too...

but i can predict me playing will sound like shit !

i dunno la.... everybody kept telling me u can der... practice lorh...

im sure u can der....

lol....

i also hope i can ....

but with fingers of mine which is like sticks.... very hard to say lorh...

i really really hope i could play it nicely.....

for so many years i sit for practical exam.... all i get was pass pass n pass.....

such a failure man....

n i dont give it a damn after that too....
but this time, i hope that the story would be different, pls ~

Love Life , my fren...

To my beloved Family and family's family,
To my beloved girlfirends and boyfriends,
best friend and friends....
To the one i had met or talk before ....

Pls Pls .... love and appreciate life,
take care of them....

A few days ago, my friend's dad passed away ...
because of high blood pressure...
just so sudden in his house....

Don't even have the chance to say anything to his family members....
Just went ~
And i felt.... pls take care of ur health....
and just dun simply say "i wanna die"," i wanna suicide" and whatsoever....
because, when u have a chance to live on.... then live on....

I couldn't bear anyone to leave me suddenly....
no matter u r or were my friend....
All of u are very very very important to me ....
Love Life....
and do everything you wanna do... ( good things la )
because, there may not be a second chance....

And, on behalf of this,
I wanna say that , I love u all very much...
and i am very grateful and happy to have friends like you...
Hope that u are not a passer-by in my life but one who we will walk to the edge of our lives together,
achieveing dreams and aims !