Don't blame me for being a bitch from now on

For two years I try to please you,
For two years I try to make everyone around me happy,
although sometimes I can be a little ignorant, but still, I try to make it up to you.

And yet, this is what I get...
You feel uncomfortable with my presence ?
You don't want me in an occasion where you were there ?

I'm writing this is not to remind myself how bad you are or to hold grudge
I'm writing this to remind myself no matter how much you give,
Sometimes you just can't expect people to treat you the same.

I learned my lesson.

I don't know how I will face you after this...
But at least I know I don't have to put such high hopes in our friendship.

Today will be the day our friendship died.
Today will be the day I won't put hope and effort anymore.

Thanks for letting me see this.

If one day you start complainng about my ignorance and my bitchi-ness,
please don't forget, you started it first.

why couldn't I meet that sort of people that makes me feel special all the time.
I feel so worthless right now

Updates : bf's family

hi...
finally have some time to blog...
not that I've been super busy or anything,
it's just that I'm always outside with either parents or friends.

So, yup, the trip to my boyfriend's house in N9...
we took the KTM to Seremban, then her sister fetch us from Seremban to his house.
I was there for 3 days 2 nights.

It was ok, her sisters were friendly, so was his father....
when I arrived there were so many durians and rambutans haha !
his dad opened a few durians for me and it was so filling >.<

oh ya, and I met both of his doggy, bi and bu, which are cute too...
and his dogs liked me hehe ...

erm, actually nothing much to talk about,
what I did in his house...
wake up, prepare lunch with his family, rest, prepare dinner with his family, dinner , mahjong then sleep.
and it repeats...
haha !

on the second day, his sister brought me to a nice chinese restaurant for dinner,
and there were so many seafoods and it was so kind of her..

well, really nothing much to talk about,
I shall say his family is really friendly =)
nice experience

Boyfriend vs family

Yeah. So before coming back to Malaysia , my boyfriend and I plan to like meet each others parents ..
No special reason la, just to know each other better ...
I personally really looking forward for this ...

But unfortunately, he will only be at his parents' house during the raya holidays ...
And coincidently, my grandmother's birthday falls on a day before raya.
And it is more impossible for me to leave my family on a public holiday. 
Call me mama's girl , whatever. I am !

Then im quite disappointed, I know he is too, I feel so useless and helpless right now. I really don't know how to make things better ...

Somebody please read this and teach me what to do
I desperately need suggestions right now =(

Sometimes I really wanna like rebel once a while, like do what your heart says...  but it is really impossible ... It's like your conscience kept reminding you that this is the only month you have with your family, but at the same time, it tells you that this is also the only chance you get to meet his family members ...

I mean, not the only chance la, but I already let him down this time, who knows how many times are there left for me to let him down ...

Damn sadded la ...
You und my feeling or not ???

Types of people

Going back to Malaysia tmr !!!
weeee !!!!!
not that kind of excited and looking forward feeling that I expect myself to feel....
different place, different problems,
anyway,
I just wanna leave this place ASAP !

as the days past, I realised....
some friends are just for meaningless talking,
some are just to make your life less sad,
some appear in your life for you to learn new things ,
or they are just like a mirror for you to make sure that you won't be like them...
or behave like them...

well, not everyone is easy to talk to..
I mean, they will only see what you have in the exterior,
how many of them are willing to see what's inside you ?

I guess we are just born to face more and more problems when we get older and older.
lesser and lesser people to rely on until one day,
there is no one but you ...

be grateful if you still have someone to talk to, someone to share your burden,
someone to take you out from this whole bunch of problems...

if not, be strong, and fight them ...
victory will not be easy, but it will be worth it =)

sorry for the long winded meaningless mumbling lol...

The Result Day !!!

So yesterday was result day,
and that means my second year has ended !!!!
thank God !
I SURVIVED !!!!

HAHA !

So, my result was... not bad haha !
but not genius-ly good lol
I got 3.41 >.< have to try harder next semester. =.=

Ok, anyways, I really worked hard for it ...
so I really hate it if people said I'm lucky ...
ok la, in some ways, i'm really lucky BUT
hello , after so many sleepless nights, this is not only lucky okayyyy...

ESPECIALLY IF THE WORDS ARE FROM PEOPLE WHO DOESN'T STUDY !
JIE JIE STUDY DER LORH OK ~
(U MMG LUCKY LA, LAST MINUTE STUDY andyet STILL PASS THE SEMESTER )

ok, so enough of bragging hahahah !
although we had just taken our results,
we still have an optional remedial session,
where you can retake any 4 papers that you are unsatisied with your previous marks..
that's why I cannot go home yet larh =(

still have to prepare for exams... AGAIN...

I'm taking some of my first year papers because...
My result really suck =/
because,
first, not used to the system,
second, first year mar... slacking most of the time lorh ... and
third, i didn't stay for this remedial session last year, hence, I have to pay my debts this year haha !
FORTH, I WILL NOT LET THE DAMAGE I DID IN THE PART RUIN MY CERT. IN THE FUTURE


So , lots of love, I miss home and I miss Malaysia FOOD...
I'm coming home, remember to miss me , I'm coming home
muaxx muaxx muaxx.... hehehe ....

The Bali Trip 2014 : Beach and Babes !

Yup, so I just came back from Bali .... =D

and it is such an alluring and serene place <3 

filled with all the artistic architecture, embellished with hints of Hinduism design ...

not to mention the sun, the beaches and the babes ! haha ! 

So first, let me show you a selfie of me on the plane XD 

P.S. this is my face when I have not more than 2 hours of sleep before the flight >.<

Upon arrival, we ate something light in the airport, then straight to ULUWATU TEMPLE, which is located at Padang - Padang . What you can expect here is nice sea view and lot of monkeys ... haha !

saw the monkey statue between the pool ? ya, the said this is the place where monkey swims....

so this is the temple...
Oh ya ! and wear decently before going in, if not you will see yourself wrapping in a purple cloth like me =(
I wore shorts that day ...

the girls =)

 After that, we visited to a beach nearby called the Padang - Padang beach, soft sands clear sea water, but many stones =(

Most of all , bikinis and six packs is abundant here XD

little kiosk nearby, if u really wanna buy something, bargain first !
Don't be afraid to cut the price in half.
Whenever you think the price you offer is too little, it is actually not so little at all ok ！ 

don't ask why am I not in bikini ! I'm very sad >.<

After that, we head to another beach at Tanjung Benoa, for water sports,

well, the price is kinda expensive if you only play one type of water sport, 

so, upon reaching, there will be like some person in charge that will sell you packages of water sports . 

I highly recommend "Big Mable" ! I swear it is so fun that you will wanna try it again and again ! 

I didn't have the time to take any pictures... but I hope you can imagine it out from my words hehe...

They have all kinds of water sports like parasailing , banana boat and so on .

The beach is only suitable for water sports . ONLY .

I got major sunburn while waiting for my turn =( damn pain haha ! 

Lesson of the day : Never ever forget your sunblock ! =)

Next we went back to our hotel ... Because there are 11 of us, we rented something like a semi-D...

It's called "Kuta Ardenia" which I'll rate it 9/10...

It is a super nice place. 

Dinner is in a beach-side restaurant. The environment is totally 10/10 but the food... hmm... I think it's because I took a package, they grilled all the seafood... so it's not that delicious after all. I'll give it 4/10. Unless you ought to try their ala carte, maybe it taste nicer, I don't know =/ If you are there early, you might get to see the sunset also =)

friends and I       

    

these are the seafoods, I don't know about you but I don't really like it ...

boyfriend and I

After that, we went clubbing... I will not say much about it because I didn't have much fun... 

But in Kuta, the night life is very very happening. 

A club that everyone recommend is called "Legian" ! 

So if you are there, enjoy ^^

The next day, we went to a place called "Ubut" ... well, there are a lot of souvenirs there. It's a pretty town actually, very flamboyant, very colourful. .. Nothing much to say here, just a place that sells souvenirs.  

On the way to Tanah Lot, we visited a place where they produce "Luwak Coffee" 

Next we went to Tanah Lot. There is a very famous temple here ...

Sunset view is superb ! 

Make sure you are there around 3pm so that you will have enough time to take pictures of the scenery and also the sunset. 

The next day, we just walk around the beach walk in Kuta... 

  

Kuta beach - the best place for surfing !