Shit happens

可以弄到我的心情那么糟糕莫过于你亲口跟我说声我不喜欢你 :'( 口说没事，心里其实痛的很，拖了那么久，从你说你不喜欢我，到对我有好感，希望我为你改变，到现在你对我什么感觉也没了，我坚持那么久的东西也没了…我恨你给我希望然后又让我失望，我恨你还让我抱着那个所谓的希望抱那么久 …我不会忘记今天我为你留下的眼泪… =( 我明白不是喜欢就是不喜欢的道理... 算了，怎么说，这也是一种解脱… 我还是希望你幸福快乐 …

Happy CNY !!!!

well, today is already the 4th day of CNY !
Despite of a very sad case where i still have to attend classes this week ...
>.<
but, if there is no class, i also have nothing to do , so ....
just miss Malaysia >.<

OK, so on CNY eve, we cooked steamboat ....
and that is the end of our celebration,
damn sad right ?
haha !

Valentines Day is tomorrow !
so as result day ....
Gosh ! Y in the world must they make Valentines Day the result day T.T

Anyway, haha !
this year, no dates , no hope ...
although i did , I don't know, deep in my heart I hope that you know.... he ... at least wish ?

BUT HOWEVER BUT HOWEVER BUT...
i know it's not going to happen ....
We are now like friends . 
Ya....

Frankly la, I hope eventually we will get together , 
But looking at how things progress, 
I don't know, God knows la ...

But somehow, now I feel relieved,
at least, a little happier, 
You know, I used to feel gloomy and sad whenever he is around ....
it's like a reflex kind of feeling you know...
It reminds me of how badly i settle things, I was the one who cause this kind of situation, 
fail !

But actually thinking of it, 
I'm complicating things, 
It's like he simply wants me to be happy and he knows he couldn't give me any promises and hence he let me  go ...
And  I was like struggling, holding on to anything , grabbing even the thinnest hope , 
not wanting him to go ...
And he doesn't know what to do and hence he leave things as it was and i was there emo-ing.

Anyway, yala !
haha !
年轻人要拿得起放得下！
洒脱一点！

这世界不会在乎你的脆弱…

UNPAD Day 172 - new life =/

The moment when u realise,
words are always easier to say than to practice...
Advice are only meant for others,
Its like, no matter how much advice you tell yourself,
eventually you will fall back to the same position as before.

On the plane back to UNPAD,
I told myself that new sem, new life,
I'm not going to let myself be that piece of shit I was back then...
Spend most of the time wasted, watching drama, thinking of that person...
LAST MINUTE STUDYING !!!

Like when I went back, people all around me kept telling me to hang on,
no matter what i still have to complete your course,
I went this far to study, cannot score shit results la !

BUT HOWEVER BUT HOWEVER BUT !!! 
Dunno la, where to find semangat to study...
back to old life...
wo bu yao ~ =(
 

3rd day of exam

Was already thinking about what to buy when i go back...
However, really disappointed of myself today ...
it was 200 MCQs and i only knows the answer for 100,
others was just guessing,
it's my fault, no one else to blame =(

I really don't know how to face my parents when I go back....
stupid la !
sigh =(


sad sad sad !!!!!!!!!!!
I wonder if I'm really suitable here =(
I wonder if I'm the only one here feeling a little regret for choosing this course....
I mean, I were to save people in the future,
if I can't even master all these basics, how am I going to save people in the future ?
Am I even qualified to do such a noble job ?!
failed la ! stupid !

1st day of exam !!!

haha !

I guess exam is every student's nightmare right ? Despite of which education level are you in ...

Last time thinking " aiyo, PMR hard la ! Very scared la !"

Now thinking back, "aiyo, super easy la PMR , scared la SPM !"

same goes to A-levels ....

Now, degree !

3 weeks to go and that's end of semester 1 !

fast right ?? 

super scary ! anyway ! gambateh la !!!! =D

Can't wait to go back >.< 

hehe ...

Happy 2013

so, how i spend my new year eve leh ?
haha !
first, actually we plan to go to a restaurant named che.co,

lol, skip, in the end, after finishing dinner,
we plan to buy beer lo....

then.... wow, 1 bottle only,
enough to make me feel a little, just a little,
a little drunk ....

and then we played truth or dare....

k la, boring story ... haha! let's skip to what i'm thinking now....

when I woke up today....
I felt different, is it because of the alcohol or something,
not sure le >.<
haha ! but anyway
i feel that.....
sometimes, we need to care less about something ...
something like that la....

means,
i decided to care less about certain things that bugs my mind every time before this....
and in this beginning of my 2nd decade,
it's time to think maturely =)

i had already fought, whether or not I won,
it's not for me to decide,
and i don't care anymore,
i did what i needed to do,
and whether or not you give a damn,
i couldn't do anything and i won't do anything ...

because i'm 20 !
haha ! i've learnt something called let go ~
not giving up but letting things be the way it was suppose to be ...

-happy 2013 guys-