Happy CNY !!!!

well, today is already the 4th day of CNY !
Despite of a very sad case where i still have to attend classes this week ...
>.<
but, if there is no class, i also have nothing to do , so ....
just miss Malaysia >.<

OK, so on CNY eve, we cooked steamboat ....
and that is the end of our celebration,
damn sad right ?
haha !

Valentines Day is tomorrow !
so as result day ....
Gosh ! Y in the world must they make Valentines Day the result day T.T

Anyway, haha !
this year, no dates , no hope ...
although i did , I don't know, deep in my heart I hope that you know.... he ... at least wish ?

BUT HOWEVER BUT HOWEVER BUT...
i know it's not going to happen ....
We are now like friends . 
Ya....

Frankly la, I hope eventually we will get together , 
But looking at how things progress, 
I don't know, God knows la ...

But somehow, now I feel relieved,
at least, a little happier, 
You know, I used to feel gloomy and sad whenever he is around ....
it's like a reflex kind of feeling you know...
It reminds me of how badly i settle things, I was the one who cause this kind of situation, 
fail !

But actually thinking of it, 
I'm complicating things, 
It's like he simply wants me to be happy and he knows he couldn't give me any promises and hence he let me  go ...
And  I was like struggling, holding on to anything , grabbing even the thinnest hope , 
not wanting him to go ...
And he doesn't know what to do and hence he leave things as it was and i was there emo-ing.

Anyway, yala !
haha !
年轻人要拿得起放得下！
洒脱一点！