Ok, its time to struggle as internal exam is coming in 3 weeks time!
Add oil add oil!
Gimme a j,gimme an o, gimme a c,gimme an e!joce!
Ok, syok sendiri here =P.
Haha, tata !

至 : 特别的你 ...

我不敢爱... 怕伤害到自己,更怕伤害到你...
辜负了你对我的爱,
是我的错...

我不是一个很有责任感的人...
我不是你口中那么好的我...

远方的你好好爱自己,
好好为自己找一个比我更好更好的人.

我恨自己这样对你,
你真的真的很好... 真的真的...

希望我们能做回以前的我们....
那个无所不谈的我们...

what happened today ~

Ok, today after college,
i went back home (obviously... haha...) by bus .
Yes, by bus....
wakaka.....
OK, my fren visited me and we went back together by bus.
He studies at Kampar and since it is his last week here, so.... we travel back together
okay , my sentence doesn't really make sense.... erm,
Anyway ,
we sat the taxi to the bus stop at.... near the ktm station ...
which cost RM10 ~ lolx, i don't know it would be so expensive... >.<
then, waited for the bus.... and then get one the bus, then reach home....
haha.... i know how to go back by bus liao ~
so smart  XD.


OO, and my Bio scored 60% , =.=" stupid !!!!
N today's chem test make me so speechless,
yesterday study , looking through the book like ... ok, i no this liao,
yes , i know how it works...
lol, and when the paper came out... =.=" what is this !
huh ~ dunno la ~

hmm....
hehe....
nope,
yesterday , i just realised that,
maybe im not prepared to call anyone my dear yet ~
feel so.... erm....
lost.

woah ~

Woah ~ all my test are like....
it sucks !
all scored like half of the total mark only ~
okay larh... must really really put effort liao ....
hmm ~

lol, today , a very funny conversation between me n yiwen.

me : u no wat , if i can't score my a - level, i think im gong for mass com. (just joking la )I think i will be the news broadcaster....

yiwen : really, cannot larh, after the cameraman can't find you as you can't reach the table....

haha, i was like =.= , fine.... XD !

then i said : then i be the whether broadcast la, just have t stand...
yiwen : oo, with a stool at the bottom ?

haha... okay , it was just for laughs.. haha! enjoy ~

farewell.

Ok,
Today yi xiu and zhen yang going to kampar la.
Lol, so far.
Maybe pui yeng going kedah,
Also very far...
5 years studying together. 5 years we did everything together.
And you are all leaving. Ok, I know.
We all have a life to move on.
And here, I would like to say farewell and promise that W will all meet again very soon.
Good luck out there.

Felt like quit blogging ,
because I find them meaningless....

Dunno la,
just some random thoughts ...

Thank you!

Okay,
I wanna say that thank all of you.
Despite of complaining what I did not get and what I had lost in the previous blog,
I think it is time to realise about how lucky I was.

*despite of not getting my jpa, I have the inti scholarship,
Which I don't have to pay as much as the others.
*despite I really feel so stress when I couldn't catch up or make it out what the lecturer is teaching,I should feel grateful that I Have friends around me who can be able to guide me
*despite of my happiness and unhappiness, I have great buddies to share with,
I have my lao gong,py ,I have Joyce! I have the 7princess and a prince to backup me.
I have goldfish, I have my aiya ah gor ,
Most importanTly, I have my parents. And my brother la. ..haha.
Despite I couldn't go overseas in the mean time although I couldn't travel around anytime, I know I will one day. And yup, I should be grateful.

Actually, just give me some time. I will figure things out de...thank you everyone for supporting me!

oo, so emo today ~

okay ~
y am i emo ?
because during lunch , i get to know that py will probably be going to AIMST for med course....
So ?
means we can't eat lunch together anymore every Thursday ~
we can't study the same course together anymore ~
lolx, i feel like im alone in this war now...
feel like i have to face this all by myself....
actually i wanna say that , half of the reason i choose A level is because of PY lorh,
1st , i really dunno what to choose,
secondly , since i had an accompany , then y not ? coz i have scholarship too....
so dun really have to pay much la ~
not bad ~
if not , maybe foundation is enough ~

and now she is leaving,
man , i really feel happy for her,
really really ....
she don't have to pay over 300K for her fees u noe...
i mean, its great ! although it is a local course la ~
so i will have to get use to it, try to blend in my new life now....
and try to score well in A levels for such oppurtunities again in my life .

but this afternoon really emo lorh,
1st , im alone in the library ... i dunno what to do ,
who to tell.... just staring at the monitor, listening to music, visiting othe ppl's blog...
my god ~ so pathetic, haha....
then at last also found u to chat ....
then ok larh ~ thinking of blending in , study , and score ! then less worries?
hope so la ~

Milk ? Weird ~

okay ....
so on Sunday , i went to Giant for grocery shooping....
then we bought 2 Goodday low fat fresh milk...
haha....

then ... next morning, means today morning la ....
i drinked it with cereals la...
haha....
okay , then it taste a little funny....
so i just woke up mar...
means blur blur der la...
so i ate , i tasted somthing weird,
but i tot low fat milk should tast like that ....
so i ignored and eat.... and tryin to  remember to remind my mom don't buy this brand next time...
then i couldn't finish mine, and coincidently my bro came down, so i asked him to finish it for me while i go bath....

then later after college, my mom ask if i felt weird about the milk...
then i said no, i tot it should taste like that ....
so my mom said something was wrong as it taste a little sour,
and hence we went back to Giant and make a refund....
OMG ! When the cashier examine the milk , she made an awful face...
i was like y hadn't i realise it this morning =.=
crazy lorh !
haha...
but still , ntg happen to me la so far... haha !

Chai Ming You 蔡旻佑

okay ~ you know what ...
actually God treat me nice...
haha....
after from the depressing day last night ( as i said in the previous post ),
i had a sweet dream today morning....
OMG !!!! really sweet... haha ....
and im gonna blog this before i forget i had dreamt this before in my life !
i dreamt about him ...

蔡旻佑

If im not mistaken, it was him la ! haha ~

It started when me n high skool friends are on the way to a shopping mall....

okay , then he and Nicholas Toeh appeared there...

Then we saw la, of course....

Then the whole thing changed, as i can remember, erm, now it was me and my cousin Carmen and her family...

I think we are at a park...

Then she asked him for a photograph together...

okay , then i think im the one who took it for them ,

so they stand side by side...

then , okay , its my turn....

btw , actually im not really a fan of him la....

Im only a fan of Charmaine Sheh okay ~

Haha, so i went and stand in front of him, and we posed....

like what couples do la, he hugged me from the back on my shoulder

then we took a photo....

then i forgot how we started the conversation, then i was asking him where are you going later...

OMG ! SO FUNNY !

Then he said im heading to a tuition centre ... 0.0

then i asked for what , then he said tuition la....

then i said , oh , what course you took .

Then he said he wont tell...

Then i said i wont tell anyone if you told me...

then he said something , i forget what liao ~

something about engineering... erm, Mechanical Engineering ? i forgot liao ...

okay , then suddenly, our conversation ended and he brought me to a crowd of paparazi .

That was back to the restaurant again .

and im thinking my face will be in the entertainment news session the next morning...

haha, then i woke up !

wow ~ omg ! im fantasizing ~

tsk tsk tsk...

Okay , this is wat teenagers do okay ....

Im considered okay liao,

better than PY with her Ron Ng.... haha !

sucks !

ok....

1. I did not get my JPA ! suck ! okay ... 1st , i can't access through the website... next , i ask PY to check for me .... then , i recieved Yi Wen's sms that she did not get ... After that , i know my chances are low already . But, since it is my bro's birthday , i just did not say anything and continue enjoying my dinnner. After dinner, on the way back home, PY called and said i did not get my JPA  ~ okay , i was rather calm, because i already predicted it earlier, so its fine. And so i told my mom, and she sounded rather disappointed, then she asked me did u appeal for your matriculation? you got go check your application for ASEAN scholarship or not ? If you go matriculation you can go to local U rite ? Lolx... i dunno la, i can understand she is worried la, okay ~ but just stop for a moment, let me think.... and then she said, nevermind la, dun be so disappointed and i told her im not, you are... yala, she should be , i dunno how is my future going to be anymore... Its like the whether recently, so hazy .... I can't c my future anymore.

2. And then i realise im just a belagak pandai person all this time... Okay ! Im not smart ! Don't call me a smart one because im not.... If I am , i can get JPA already , i can get my matriculation already ! And then hearing all my friends get ... i was like.... dont get jealous, it was all your fault for this....

3. But i wanna say that if u already dont plan to give the 5A+ students for scholarship, don't call them for the interview because the result is INSULTING ! fine ~ u dun let me get any smarter..... u dun let me prove that i can do better even without your bloody money !!! u don't let me be a somebody who is very very important ( which most likeky wouldn't happen ) but maybe it could ! One day , i will prove to you that i don't need your bloody money to be a successful person !!!!!!!!

4. I Hate cooking !!!!! lol... I just overcooked a pot of porridge ! just a pot of porridge man ! damn the porridge ! damn the pot !
haiz ~ man , lame ~ haha ! whr got a person who cant even cook a pot of porridge properly one ~ omg ! suck ~

Randomly blogging

okay ,
i dunno wat to type now,
just wanna blog, haha....

hmm....
i wanna hang out,
anywhere,
just let it be somthing different from my life...
everyday college college and college is making my life dull...
not to say it is not fun,
it is fun.... but just something different....
the zoo maybe =.=" lolx....
haha....

oh , i remembered wat i wanna blog....
i wanna say that if i din get jpa,
im gonna lose my direction ,
and i have to think all over again what shall i do in life.
And wat A-Levels can give me...
am i like too over reacted for taking a level instead of waiting for f6 ?
I dunno la, i dun like waiting ....
hence....
dunno... haha ....

Hopeless ~

lol....
u no wat ,
tomorrow can kow about the JPA result liao,
and today newspaper said that 8A+ can get liao,
means i only got 5A+ ,
means my chances will be reduced very rapidly ...
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plus i chose a course that is very very hot ,
means it was everyones choice,
how ?
will i get or not ?
i really wanna have it lorh ,
i dunno y , but i just wanna escape here....
i felt like....
dunno la, just wanna leave college,
not to say that i dun like it here.
but i hope for more kua ~
or just wanna escape form wat i am doing now ....
dunno la ~
but feels like, omg ! is this going to happen , so many ppl smarter than you >.<
haiz ~~~~~

Im being a bad girl today !

Guess what ....
tsk tsk tsk,
im being very very bad....
y ?
because today on Malaysian Studies class,
i did not pay attn but oni doing my own work...
Haha ...
and then the teacher was like,
yala, this is top achiever scholarship student ,
they do other thing in Malaysian Study class n study at home,
and she was looking at me.... lolx !

haha....
Next,
i yelled at my mom today ,
because after i sweep the floor ,
i am suppose to mop it too,
but then since my bro came down doing ntg, i asked himt o mop,
while i rush on the Tan Cheng Lock project....
and u noe wat ...
she say i bully my bro ! stupid !!! y he cannot do hsechores wan la....
but then haiz ~ sorry ><