3rd day of exam

Was already thinking about what to buy when i go back...
However, really disappointed of myself today ...
it was 200 MCQs and i only knows the answer for 100,
others was just guessing,
it's my fault, no one else to blame =(

I really don't know how to face my parents when I go back....
stupid la !
sigh =(


sad sad sad !!!!!!!!!!!
I wonder if I'm really suitable here =(
I wonder if I'm the only one here feeling a little regret for choosing this course....
I mean, I were to save people in the future,
if I can't even master all these basics, how am I going to save people in the future ?
Am I even qualified to do such a noble job ?!
failed la ! stupid !

1st day of exam !!!

haha !

I guess exam is every student's nightmare right ? Despite of which education level are you in ...

Last time thinking " aiyo, PMR hard la ! Very scared la !"

Now thinking back, "aiyo, super easy la PMR , scared la SPM !"

same goes to A-levels ....

Now, degree !

3 weeks to go and that's end of semester 1 !

fast right ?? 

super scary ! anyway ! gambateh la !!!! =D

Can't wait to go back >.< 

hehe ...

Happy 2013

so, how i spend my new year eve leh ?
haha !
first, actually we plan to go to a restaurant named che.co,

lol, skip, in the end, after finishing dinner,
we plan to buy beer lo....

then.... wow, 1 bottle only,
enough to make me feel a little, just a little,
a little drunk ....

and then we played truth or dare....

k la, boring story ... haha! let's skip to what i'm thinking now....

when I woke up today....
I felt different, is it because of the alcohol or something,
not sure le >.<
haha ! but anyway
i feel that.....
sometimes, we need to care less about something ...
something like that la....

means,
i decided to care less about certain things that bugs my mind every time before this....
and in this beginning of my 2nd decade,
it's time to think maturely =)

i had already fought, whether or not I won,
it's not for me to decide,
and i don't care anymore,
i did what i needed to do,
and whether or not you give a damn,
i couldn't do anything and i won't do anything ...

because i'm 20 !
haha ! i've learnt something called let go ~
not giving up but letting things be the way it was suppose to be ...

-happy 2013 guys-

Last Day of 2012 !!!

So, i can't quite recall everything that happens this year ...
Sorry, really bad memory, haha !
So... let me try ... haha !

First, of course, graduate A-levels !
I really miss my coursemates badly, haha !
and of course, the course itself >.< because....
dunno la, there is aircond in the classroom,
there is fast internet with lots of desktop to use in the library,
food is everywhere >.< lol !

i miss all those pan mee, and market, and chicken rice, and a lot la ! lol ...

heard inti has change a lot though, must go back n see one day ! haha ! 

Next, er.... prom or Sabah trip first ? 

No.... Mid Valley 1st I think, 

Jason, Wei Ying and I went the Mickey Mouse exhibition !

super coooooool ! haha !

actually we have soooo many plans back then before i leave to Indonesia ...

one day trip at KL, Broga hills... but at last, we only went mid valley , 

haha ! better than nothing la =P

MICKEY MICKEY MICKEY ! 

KTM STATION !

really loving all the mickey mouse though ! <3

Next, Prom night ! 

i look super ugly that day ! so, i'm only gonna post one picture ! hahaha ! 

Next, Sabah Trip ! 

lolx, really missssssss those days so much ! haha !

the 3 of us, i know, super sampat ! hahah !

deng deng deng !

water rafting for the 1st time ! hehe....

Next... hmm.... working ? yup ! working ! 

Haha, mentioning about this, I'm a super lansi worker ><

anyway, really learn a lot in this company la, 

not bad not bad ! haha !

After that, a surprise gathering with them ! 

Next, gathering with high school gang ! leaving to indonesia soon that time >.<

haha ! they say why girls take photo head must bengkok to one side ! hahaha !

the fact is, i also dunno le ! hahaha !

Next is departure day la ! 

 

I cried like a baby that day =.= haha !

Next, life in Indonesia begins la ~ haha !

this is my 1st tutorial group ! 

and then, i celebrated my birthday here ^^

and then i met the one i like which did not like me at first but like me eventually but not as like as to start a relationship and hopes that i'm slimmer =.=

and that concludes my 2012 ! 

Thx to fb photo, i can recall everything according to time ! haha !

and if i forgot anything... 

who ask u to not take photo with me and upload in fb !

hahaha !

Happy 2013 ! 

cheers !

突然的感触。。。

生命真的很脆弱。。。
很多事情，真的没有想象中完美，
那伟大的未来，往往都有可能一夜之间，
完全转变。。。
那明确的路，突然间，可以变得那么模糊，那么暗。。。

真的，
不要等到来不及了才很遗憾的想起，
我真的很爱很爱你。。。
为什么之前都没有告诉你？

生命中往往就有一些意想不到的事情发生，让我突然想要停下脚步，
想想还有什么应该但还没做？ 还有什么做的不够好？
现在的我到底在做什么？
意义在哪里？

我现在的感觉不是几句话能够说清楚。。。
真的很难表达。。。

MAY YOU REST IN PEACE。

UNPAD Day 105 - No more slacking !

OK ,
seriously ... study >.<
ok ok ! no more slacking ! study !!!

(lolx... a girl just shouted like tarzan outside, what the hell ! )

k , back to the topic, aiya, actually nothing much to say la...
just that i hope i can leave my fb, twitter and blogging for 1-2 months maybe >.<
sounds impossible la !
at least let me have a few hours during the weekend !

yup ! ok , i'll try !
y am i encouraging and talking to myself in my own blog post ??
shit ! sot liao i'm going crazy ! haha !

(ok, now they are screaming like they saw super junior =.=)

seriously, i am so glad i had a room =.=
at least they sound less annoying !
haha...

next, after 105 days, i'm glad that things are getting a little ( just a little) better between my roommate and I ...
thank God, i appreciate that ...

next, stop thinking about love love stuff ady la ! what was done is done, no more turning back...
ignore means ignore la ! i don't wanna care so much ady ...
go away ! wasting time nia ~
i'm talking to myself again =.= in my blogpost, haha !

Conclusion : don't have to call the cops if I'm not at fb for days... ( i don't quite have confidence that this is really gonna happen) but anyway, im in good condition ! wakaka ....

UNPAD Day 100 - Gosh ! Day 100 already ?

Yeah , seriously...
haha ! The 100th Day...
So, a mini conclusion about how my life is right now...

Fact Number 1 : Guys here have no guts at all !

Haha, really long story, so, jump to fact number 2 la ! haha !

So I met this guy, I really liked him la, it's like, he is the one i would like to have in the future.
-I don't want to elaborate on this-

and then when he knows that I like him, he explained to me that he wants to focus in his studies...
that he doesn't want to waste his sister's money...
and then for the whole week, we ignored each other...
or shall I say, HE IS IGNORING ME THE WHOLE TIME !
and then I really tried to... you know, make the situation less weird,
I tried my best to strike up a conversation with him....
And then just now, when there are only both of us,
couldn't he just take the initiative to like talk so that this situation just disappears,
can't you just act like nothing had ever happened ?
I wonder if like in my past life, I'm a guy that cheats a lot of girls ??
If not, why in the world something like that will happen to me in this life ?

Next, his room mate....
His room mate who lied to me the whole time that he had a girlfriend.
I mean, he once had, but broke up ( i don't know when )
and then, I know he liked me, but I kept ignoring because I was assuming all the time that he has a girlfriend.
And then today, he told me he broke up, and he asked if there is a possibility that we can be together.
Not face to face, Not through sms, but he wrote it in his I-phone note apps and ask me to read...
He doesn't even has the courage to tell the whole wide world he is single.

I was like, face palm.... so for all this time,
he knows I liked his room mate, and then he kept proving to me that his room mate wouldn't like me ...
And he knows I wouldn't believe when like this is a hear-say thing, no proof...
And hence, he recorded a dialogue between him and his room mate stating very clearly that his room mate doesn't like me ...
I mean, I take him as my good friend, I trusted him and told him everything wishing that he will help me,
but again and again, he only tries to prove to me that I am not his room mate's type, again and again he is trying to give me clues that its time to give up.

Conclusion for this first part : Why do people I like doesn't like me back ?

Fact Number 2 : Medicine is hard =/
My result is out !
Gosh, I don't know how to describe my results....
It is between 50-69....
for all papers...

And then, the lecturer said can take remedial to increase my grade....
Ok then, really have to be serious this time....
No more last minute studying !

Despite of what happened above, I had decided to focus on my studies ...
Only by studying, only by scoring well in exam,
I had a chance to achieve everything I wanted now.
Bora Bora Island... money... future husband... haha !

Sometimes, i will be like thinking, some people really are so lucky...
the guys they met and fall in love with....
Why couldn't I meet someone like that ?

Fact Number 3 : I seriously felt that everyone here is like so damn rich !
OMG ! spend money like open tap water like that ...
and then their house... bu dong bu dong jiu banglo larh, semi-d liao larh ~
I don't know la ... crazy one !

Fact Number 4 : I am not easy to get along with ?
I think so, as I couldn't really like randomly find a topic to talk about...
so sometimes, there will be an awkward silence when you walk with me...
Sigh, sometimes, socialising is really hard !

Fact Number 5 : There is no fact number 5
haha ! so i think that concludes my feeling now...

ok, that's for today... toodles !