Heart still aches whenever I see your friends posted about you. I read back our messages today, good thing there is Facebook. But there are so many so many stuffs we used to text each other and honestly I really cannot remember the contents already.

For all the times I said I hated you and I
scolded you and I ask you to leave me alone.
You still came back for me ... You said you felt special about me, you said you are happy I'm in your life. But I felt that I only brought you misery and disappointment.

You said that you will settle down at the age of 27, you said that you wanna see me ever since we departed, and I told you that you could see me soon, after I graduated. And I never ever ever thought we wouldn't meet each other anymore. I remembered the last time I met you I was in a levels and you, you were in a road accident also few days back that time, and you injured your jaw and yet you still accompany me eating McDonalds

I'm glad we are in good terms before you leave I'm glad I had the opportunity to apologize to you

I can never treat you like how you treated me. I can never treat anyone like how you treated me

Thx for being in my life. Thx for everything you gave , you made me feel...

today a good friend of mine passed away,
4pm at the age of 23
I still couldn't believe my eyes when I see the news .

How can this happen ? He haven't done anything bad at all, he is a good guy and yet He take him away so soon.

For all the times I broke your heart, I disappoint you, I took everything you wanted to do for me for granted
For all the times I ignored you, angry of you,
said I'll meet u but didn't
For all the times I think that you are clingy but its just your way to show that you really appreciate our friendship more than anyone .

I wanna apologize for everything I did but its too late . You are no longer here anymore.

I really thought I'll see you soon. I really thought I will see you find a girl you love one day and love you so much in return, I thought one day I'll see you get married and have  kids and live happily ever after and I'll be so happy for you but that day wouldn't come anymore.

I hope u r ok now wherever u r , I hope u r in heaven , I hope u have peace

You will always, always be missed.
Rest in peace.

爷爷，一路好走。

今天爷爷去世，我才发觉，我连一张合影，一张他的照片都没有。

爷爷为人比较凶，固执，所以我们从小都很害怕跟他说话。。。

可是爷爷还真的满疼我，我记得我说要来印尼读书，他很反对很伤心。他说女孩子不必那么厉害，读医生没前途，而且还要去那么远读，如果我事先和他商量，他一定会反对我。每次我回国，和他见面，他都会眼眶泛红跟我说 要好好照顾自己，爷爷没有几年了。。。

每次我听见这个，我都觉得怎么可能，都好好的，我毕业回来后，我就会好好陪你。我毕业回来，我们就可以多点机会聊天。上次回去看到爷爷身体没有很好，可是我都觉得不会有事的啦，怎么可能。。。不会的。

果然，真的婆婆离开了，现在爷爷也离开了，我都不能回去见他们，我都不能陪他们走到最后。我知道就算我在哪儿也改变不了什么，可是我真的很无奈。为什么？ 为什么会这样？

他们说，不用伤心，因为爷爷最近也病的很严重，所以走了也是个解脱。我真的很希望爷爷真的不会在受苦，那么辛苦给病痛缠着。

爷爷，我希望你现在好好的。

To all soon to be drs out there

Just one thing I need to get out of my mouth,
During the follow up session of patients, why can't you do your job properly and ask how's the patient and take the vital signs yourself instead of copying the former status ? Just to get your job done.

I find this very irresponsible, and still some people say it like its he most normal things to do.

I mean, u want to be a doctor but you don't even care how's the patient doing ?? How is that going to work ...
Empathy guys, empathy ...

I'm 23

At this age,
I  just wanna get married, have kids, make cardboard box castle and dress them as prince and princesses, and bake all day, how sweet life would be, but no, because 4 years ago, I have to choose medicine , and now, I'm not graduated yet ! What in the world !