Happy 21st Birthday Love ...

So, it was his birthday today... and we didn't really celebrate because he said he don't want to trouble others going out for dinner together plus, loads of work undone =( I actually chose a quite nice place, end up not going. Luckily I planned all this balloon act few days before, so at least its something. Wanted to buy cake, no time, wanted to buy present, no time, even a decent dinner, failed, ok lah, so I actually quite like my balloon thing lah hahaha ! 

This is what I planned to do actually, a balloon avalanche, with flipcharts and loads of tape but it just wont stick to the wall, and I'm not tall enough, and I don't know who I need to call to help me =( 

In the end I did this, arranging balloons in lines with hideous maskin tape and covering the entire door, so when he open his door, it's filled with balloons !!!! 

yay ! I like this OK , don't comment that it is childish =/ 

and inside every balloon is a small piece of paper written what I love about him ...

I couldn't think of any to be honest so I googled, see what other people wrote, laughed and write down my own version hahaha 

It's like... we've been together for so long that I couldn't remember what I specifically love about you but I just do lol *shy* haha ! 

and due to his shy personality, after a while, he moved them into his room, 

It was meant to be outside one lahhhhh 

but nvm lah, hahaha ! 

selfie selfie 

I drew a little man of him hahaha ! with floral shirt like he always wore =P 

Happy birthday, piggie <3 

It's not a huge thing actually, jut blowing up a few balloons, I could't tell whether he is really happy or he shows that he is happy to make me happy but anyway, I'm really happy this plan worked out, and my balloons are not wasted and at least I did something for his birthday... Maybe going out for a decent meal next week ? haha !

Gonna shift house soon !

Okay, I'll try to write in paragraphs from now on, 

because my way of writing is too childish before this XD .... 

see I'm doing it again =.=

ok, no more ! 

So, it's the starting of the 2nd half of my 6th semester now, which is in the Genitourinary system, and after this all of us will be in Bandung, no more in this small little Jtown. And few days back we went to find houses in Bandung. There are a few options, some old houses which has limited capacity to fit so many of us and some are pretty new and classy but expensive. In the end I really liked the "Padma" house where it is a unit with 2 rooms, and one room is for 2 people, and there is a total of 3 units. So, it can actually fit all of us except one. 

And that is the part where I felt really really super super guilty. But Idk lah, there is not much choice anyway =( Believe me, we all do feel guilty, we all wanted to help, I mean, if there is another way, I'm sure all of them will agree to give Padma up and take the other way, but it seems like this might be the only way. 

Although I said I like Padma, which I really liked, but it is a little costly, for a town like that, they should have charged us lower. (plus, we have to share rooms and pay our own electricity) I think students money is the easiest money to con lah =( Sharing rooms is also an issue though, I mean all have different ways of living right , then I'm a bit of a lazy person.... although I don't really like staying in a dirty or messy environment TOO but my toleration for all these is a bit higher compared to the other girls XD (mostly because I'm lazy) But I guess we will work it out, since we have been staying with each other for 3 years (in different rooms but still same house right ) so.... I don't think we will fight over all these stuff lah =) 

One more thing is my boyfriend and I will be living in seperate units, and him and I have our roommates respectively by then, no more privacy, cannot sweet sweet anymore =( *not that thing ok*

like no more personal space for both of us, that is the major downside >.< 

But I guess 2 years will be over in a blink of eye ? IDK pls just let me graduate and go back to Malaysia >< 

Scary dream I had

A dream filled with fights, blood and tears =(
why do I had such dreams ?!!!!
It's almost like a movie man ...

It started when my cousins and I were in a car, parking at the side of the road,
and then another car came while we were talking beside the car,
and the driver purposely park the car super near to ours,
and walked away,
so of course we must do something about it right,
hence I encouraged my cousin to scratch his car, lol, using the carkeys,
"Scratch his car only , scratch only !"
and then he turned around , angrily walking towards us, wanna confront or something,
and then out of a sudden, there are a few guys from the newspaper kiosk joining him,

and then a fight started,
they all gang up and hit my cousin,
placing keys between their fingers, fist up and hit him,
me and my other cousin was like standing there not sure what to do,

but they kept hitting him, so I braved up, approach them and beg them not to hit anymore,
then one of the guys picked up a metal rod, and said, if I were to let him hit me using the metal rod, he might just let my cousin go,
I agreed and then quickly ran,
panjat pagar climb fences and all, screaming, yelling at my other cousin asking her to call the police,
my cousins escaped the gang fight and everyone was running all around,

at last, we end up in a parking lot,
I felt so helpless,
I kept begging and begging, hoping that they will let us go,
begging and running begging and running,
then out of a sudden, a guy appeared with a parang knife, no joke,
and start aiming the bad guys like a boomerang,
and at last the one that was chasing me surrender,

end of story,
scary right !!!!

What is 20 years from now ?

Just too bored,
Trying to escape from reality,
Reading the text book for 5 minutes and rest for the whole day >.< haha !

So saw a guy in facebook,
Knew him as we used to go to the same tuition center ,

He broke up recently from a long term relationship ( seems like it lah not sure lol) and his PDA used to be quite high profile one leh,
Did I mention he is really good looking and tall haha ,

And then I went thinking,
Some people are just not meant to be in your life, not even a second, nor a minute,
I mean we went to the same tuition center for 2-3 years, we live in the same area, we even went to the same camp during national service ,
And yet, we are just like some other strangers, not even friends I guess
#justsaying

Some people will just automatically click with you the moment you met while some people is around you every single day but cant be called as "a friend"

Nothing important, just talking to myself ,
Wasting time ,
Don't wanna study....
Stopping myself from opening the YouTube website

That's it ! Cannot slack anymore aiyo >.<
Exam in a week time =.="

There's a break in in my house !!!!

Damn it ! 

why can't everyone like study nicely and get a job ??

why must you steal other people's stuff ???

we are just students you know ?! 

like why are you attacking students ? you cruel little shit !

This happened at 3.30am today when the thief broke into my housemate's room through the window...

IDK how he managed to crash the window and bend the window fencing,

but he managed to steal away a laptop, 

and my housemate's laptop isn't a normal laptop, his one is a really expensive gaming laptop...

I really felt heartache for him >.<

My housemate manage to wake up while the thief is on his act, almost caught him red handed but he was too fast,

I was awaken, shocked, when I heard him yelling to stop the thief >.<

It was really scary as I was alone in the room, and I normally don't lock my door,

and I was wearing my pyjamas =.=

From now on, I'll never leave my room without locking my door like seriously. 

The CNY 2015

So, late posting of how my CNY went...

To be honest, I never expected much actually, 

you know, after my grandmother passed, things will never be the same anymore.

Nevertheless, having the chance to go back and meet my cousins and relatives has given me a different kind of happiness and familiarity.

So, I spent about 3 days in my dad's kampung and recently my relatives renovated the kampung house. So, it's like so different from last time. 

But every corner, every small detail of the house made me think of my grandmother. 

Usually on the CNY period, she will be busy cooking in the kitchen, 

she will be busy arranging who will sleep at which room,

she will be at the door waiting for our arrival everytime,

preparing the praying ritual everytime =) 

you know, the welcoming the Chai shen ( God of wealth ) XD, praying to the ancestors ...

her breakfast on the first day of CNY, the same thing every year, but it really warms your heart so much. 

I remember playing with the flour she bought in the kitchen everytime. 

Because she will put all the flour in a big transparent container. 

So when you see somthing so white, of course you will have the tendency to play with it right.

I mean, I really do lah, and then she will scold me in a joking manner. like " you play with my flour again ah ?!" hahaha ! 

And this year is the second CNY without her and after they renovated the house, the more the place changes, the more I miss her, more memories of her flooding back. 

You know, when I was younger, I remember asking her not to leave us so early, I asked her to help me evaluate my boyfriend, make sure I don't choose the wrong one =D I thought she would be with us for a very very long time back then but life just proved me wrong. 

And whenever I thought of her, I was hoping that wherever she is right now, is a place full of happiness and only happiness. 

and then....... yeah having fun with my cousins. 

despite of the age of 22, I still behave like a child with them lah ....

It's not that we are immature, is just that this is the way of having fun XD 

anyways, most of the time we are just you know, playing that thing that got to do with cards.... haha ! 

and watching movies at night , and lepak-ing at mamak, and walking around the kampung.... and showing of my riding bike skills(and i totally suck at it)

this little girl on the bottom left is reaaaaaaallly cute, my niece hahaha 

I was asking her to take a selfie with me at first, but she literally just blocked my whole face with her face, so in the end I gave up and only took a picture of her hahaha