Told my MOM !

yeah, it's a huge step I did today.
Still can't believe I did that.
Dei, commitment ! haha ~

So how it happened was,
I were in the kitchen and my mom's cooking.

And then randomly I said " Ma, I wanna tell you something, and this needs a little bit of courage."

Haha ! I wonder what's in her mind when I said this.

When the first sentence is out, I really feel like giving up la, suddenly all the courage like gone for a moment.

But then I thought since already decided then just spit it out la !

So I asked, " What do you think if I had a boyfriend?"

And she responded, "Who? Why suddenly wanna paktor?"

And then she said, "as long as you don't do anything wrong and it wouldn't influence your studies then ok larh."

haha ! and then it's a little awkward to stand in the kitchen anymore, I guess I'm just afraid if suddenly she shoot out a question and then I don't know how to answer.

The funny part was, after dinner, she logged in to her Facebook profile, open my profile and ask me to point out who he is.

Why would I want to do this in the first place was because the issue I mentioned in the last post makes both of us a little unhappy and hence I decided to do this to cheer him up. Because this was his idea at the first place okay. 

BUT SUPRISINGLY, when I told him, his first reaction was "WTH". Damn him, later see how he explain ! haha !

I mean, I, as a girl la, I would appreciate this kind of acknowledgement.
Like you tell your friends, your family,
at least it's a way to show how... proud, how grateful you are when we are together.
It's not like I'm hideous or what also right, I'm totally presentable (chehwa ~ XD~)
In some ways, I think this is some kind of respect also lorh~

Maybe guys have different perspective or anything.
I don't know.

Sleepless night

Yesterday night was miserable,
I can't even sleep well.

So many thoughts running through my head.

The major thing was about the air ticket la,
but I decided to go back early no matter what.
I mean the money I just saved from this, I can spent it on clothes and stuff for my new room
and the super expensive medical books.
He said he is willing to pay for my air ticket,
But I wouldn't let him do that la seriously.
I know he is my boyfriend, I don't know la,
I mean, I don't want it to look like I'm taking advantage of him,

Plus, it's not like I cannot afford the new air ticket.

I guess I'll be there a week earlier from the others with my ex roommate.
a little stupid but whatever la
rather than sitting here complaining about all these stuff,
It's better I cherish all the moments I had left with my family,
and my lovely room, my lovely house <3
that silly bro ! hahaha !

I seriously can be unbelievably sampat at times la !

I don't act my age most of the time XD

well and that concludes everything la,
I really don't wanna be unhappy about al these stuff anymore...
so smile ~~~ =)

Going back early

Felt like whole world is damn grey right now you wouldn't believe,

What happened was,
I booked my flight ticket back on the 26th Aug.
And now it happens that class starts on the 2nd Sept.
And SUPPOSINGLY he should accompany me back on the 26th despite that everyone is going back on the 31st.
He said his sister insist that he goes back later.

Actually I shouldn't be angry. I know, actually I understand the whole situation, I told him that I'm not also.
But after that video chat, I am. Lol, I don't know if this is angry or disappointment.
I bet he doesn't even know that I'm sad right now.
It's like I don't feel like replying him, actually I don't feel like doing anything,
I'm just staring blankly at the ceiling but figured out I must find a way to spit out all these negativity hence blog ! I don't even have the mood to tanam all my farmville crops right now stupid >.<

I should have booked a new ticket few days ago when it was still RM169. Stupid Uni cannot confirm the date one. Now gg ady larh ! now became RM 300+.

Stupid shit don't know go back one week earlier can do what.

fine la fine la !!

A day out with him ^^

So he came all the way from Johor to meet his friends, 

and reserved Monday for me.

So we went Mid Valley.

where I felt the aura there a little weird,

I can't help but feel that people might see us as an eloping couple. 

hahaha !

why ?

coz you know on weekdays midvalley will be filled with you know, 

businessman , office lady.... and people like that. 

hmm, anyways, in conclusion, day well spent 

tata =D

I'm A Meanie !

Today, I broke someone's heart again.
Why I kept doing all these stuff one >.<

K so what happened was,
There is this one guy, let's name him Joker.
For all of you who know who Joker is... ( yeah, it's him and yes  I still keep in touch with him)
Since I came back, he has been trying to keep in touch with me.
through FB through phone, but I never replied him.
I guess I just want all these to end.

I don't know, to be honest,
I thought we wouldn't keep in touch anymore since Form 5,
and to my surprise, he will still chat with me in FB and sometimes SMS me.

And then when I'm leaving to Indonesia, I thought we will end there,
but again to my surprise, we still chat but very seldom in FB.

And you may ask, why don't you just ignore him from the start.
Maybe I'm just a little soft hearted to do so.

But since i came back, I literally ignored him.
But then at last i still went back to square one. I can't tahan all the guiltiness.
I mean, all he tried to do was to care about me and this is how I treat him back =.=

but then things are still settled though, he said he will stop all these things.
and the conversation sounded so much like a breakup dialogue !

and then out of a sudden he posted "Thanks 4 everything.u really light my world up b4 this.u r my special one.now n always :)" 

And then i don't know whether i should click like or not but I guess I'll just ignore lol

Sem break !

Currently on sembreak ,
As much as I've love doing nothing ,
It's actually kinda meaningless and I started to think that im wasting my time.

I mean, im at home, doing nothing...
Shit >.<

Very stupid.
So many people struggling to live a day more and im here wasting time.

I've tried to find for jobs with HIGH income ! I mean like part time teacher perhaps, but I guess all tuition centers have enough teachers ady.

And then actually I have sufficient time to get myself a driving license but then because of the fees issue I decided to postpone it again.

And I thought I might get to travel somewhere during the break but once again because of the fees issue I guess it's not happening also. God suddenly felt depressed. This is the only two months break in this five years, and then it will get lesser and lesser and I guess it's even harder to plan a trip and hence I think... After my five years course I'll be busy working, all those hectic life might not give me a chance to travel around.

Ok stop stop stop !!!

Enough bye >.<

承担

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Stupid

High School Buddies

A bunch of friends that I love so much.
Like seriously,
in front of them,
I can be myself.

Crazy night, great night !
Feels great being able to meet them again.

8 years, one even more than that,
not easy...
haha !

they partially make me who I am now.
yay !!!!

Fees

I miss my old life,
Where I don't have to worry about my fucking fees

3D2N camp !

previously lazy to talk about this, haha !

so this is a so called "supercamp" program where all the first years HAVE ! MUST ! COMPULSORY! to join. 

Erm, it's like you home stay la, where you will be staying at a very very kampung area ! literally very kampung! for 2 nights in one of the villagers house.

From my campus to the really really kampung place takes about 12 hours.

It's like from one end of the land to the opposite side . 

And the road ah ! OMG ! VERY VERY BUMPY !!!!

and lots of turns ! for 12 hours !

OMG next time pay me also i dont wanna go like seriously !

and then 3 days right , 

one day spent on the journey lo !

they make us wake up at 4 am ! 4 !!!! and my bus moves at 3pm ! very funny right ? walao !

then dawn only reach the place T.T then only can sleep few hours T.T

ok ok, next day, we start helping the locals la, 

we are divided into few groups... like this group for survey, this group for pembantu for the houseman....

I am in the survey group, I don't know whether it's consider lucky or not lorh...

Like less job but not fun, 

when other people get to see the housemans operating minor operations la, very minor one. 

But nvm la...

at least get to rest earlier. haha !

And then ar, the seniors say the toilet very ancient la, shit in the hole one la ! 

but of course not la, the toilet of the house i'm staying quite big and clean, haha !

then the third day, we spent on going back !

damn lame one la ! have to suffer that bumpy road again....

N that's all for the trip 

haha !

Shift house 2

Now I totally recalled what happened ady !
Wth !!!! Damn pissed off right now !
Wth wth wth wth wth !!!!!

I remembered asking my roommate whether she wants to share van or not ! Just because she wants to wait for an answer from the private van hence she told me she don't know !

Then ?

Omg ! Wth ! Then she said that I never ask her ! Omg ! Pissed off to the max right now ! Dammit !

See ! Couldn't even sleep at this hour !

Great ! And when im quarelling with another person she diam diam sitting there.

Sigh, go back la go back la,
Too much drama here !
>.<

Shift house !

I thought it should be a happy thing ,
And we turn out quarelling ,
And I thought why the whole day am I so awkward around them ,
And the fact is that they actually kinda blame me for the transportation today =/

But what really happened was,
Few weeks ago, i already asked if they wanna use the public van, to shift all the stuff to our new house.
And they said they rather use the can that has to be booked,
Ok fine.

And then yesterday me n him was asking for public vans la,
And when I came back, they already went down to ask the management to provide vans, then of course I didn't ask la,

But I rmb-ed asking my roommate whether she wants to join our angkut or not, she said she don't know ! She really said she don't know !

Next, today afternoon , they still couldn't contact their van,
And then I said, u guys wanna use ours or not ...
You guys don't want what .
Then ? Why am I to take the blame? I did ask what, you did come to ask for the price also what ... What is this ?

I don't know whether to blame me for assuming you guys doesn't wanna use the public van

Or

Should I blame you for blaming me just because you can't contact your own van ?

Fine la, im leaving soon,
Don't wanna stay in this issue anymore .

Result's Day !

Result's Day !!!!

erm, nothing much to say here, 

just that I'm lucky I passed first year !

and I promise I'm going to score better next sem ! 

I must !!!

Because....

lol

I just scored 2.81 (my cgpa)

kinda low actually....

yup, so gonna score next sem !  =D