Super scary !!!

One episode of Grey's Anatomy ! Just one episode !!!

Im feeling super screwed ! What the hell ! How the hell can i do all this !
Shit shit shit !!!
Im just a person who only plays with my hp, blog, internet , taking profile pictures !

Shit la shit la !!!!
Why the hell did I choose this ?
Why the hell !!!

Stupid on call 36hours , bluff ppl one >.<

Ok la, must get serious ady >.<

The sun always rises =)

Haha ! It means new day new hope =P my own definition tho . XD
So despite of the shit that happened few days ago ... I stood back up la !!!
Thanks to u guys who had my back ,
Xie xie ! Lots of love , muaxx muaxx !
Haha !

Then, thanks to you also la, didn't expect that you would find me after that =) although you wouldn't see this but anyway ! Yeah ... Felt better after that chat  =)

Haha ! Life wad ... Sure got ups and downs , I know ,no worries no worries !

So !!!!!! Smile =)

Shit happens

可以弄到我的心情那么糟糕莫过于你亲口跟我说声我不喜欢你 :'( 口说没事，心里其实痛的很，拖了那么久，从你说你不喜欢我，到对我有好感，希望我为你改变，到现在你对我什么感觉也没了，我坚持那么久的东西也没了…我恨你给我希望然后又让我失望，我恨你还让我抱着那个所谓的希望抱那么久 …我不会忘记今天我为你留下的眼泪… =( 我明白不是喜欢就是不喜欢的道理... 算了，怎么说，这也是一种解脱… 我还是希望你幸福快乐 …

Happy CNY !!!!

well, today is already the 4th day of CNY !
Despite of a very sad case where i still have to attend classes this week ...
>.<
but, if there is no class, i also have nothing to do , so ....
just miss Malaysia >.<

OK, so on CNY eve, we cooked steamboat ....
and that is the end of our celebration,
damn sad right ?
haha !

Valentines Day is tomorrow !
so as result day ....
Gosh ! Y in the world must they make Valentines Day the result day T.T

Anyway, haha !
this year, no dates , no hope ...
although i did , I don't know, deep in my heart I hope that you know.... he ... at least wish ?

BUT HOWEVER BUT HOWEVER BUT...
i know it's not going to happen ....
We are now like friends . 
Ya....

Frankly la, I hope eventually we will get together , 
But looking at how things progress, 
I don't know, God knows la ...

But somehow, now I feel relieved,
at least, a little happier, 
You know, I used to feel gloomy and sad whenever he is around ....
it's like a reflex kind of feeling you know...
It reminds me of how badly i settle things, I was the one who cause this kind of situation, 
fail !

But actually thinking of it, 
I'm complicating things, 
It's like he simply wants me to be happy and he knows he couldn't give me any promises and hence he let me  go ...
And  I was like struggling, holding on to anything , grabbing even the thinnest hope , 
not wanting him to go ...
And he doesn't know what to do and hence he leave things as it was and i was there emo-ing.

Anyway, yala !
haha !
年轻人要拿得起放得下！
洒脱一点！

这世界不会在乎你的脆弱…

UNPAD Day 172 - new life =/

The moment when u realise,
words are always easier to say than to practice...
Advice are only meant for others,
Its like, no matter how much advice you tell yourself,
eventually you will fall back to the same position as before.

On the plane back to UNPAD,
I told myself that new sem, new life,
I'm not going to let myself be that piece of shit I was back then...
Spend most of the time wasted, watching drama, thinking of that person...
LAST MINUTE STUDYING !!!

Like when I went back, people all around me kept telling me to hang on,
no matter what i still have to complete your course,
I went this far to study, cannot score shit results la !

BUT HOWEVER BUT HOWEVER BUT !!! 
Dunno la, where to find semangat to study...
back to old life...
wo bu yao ~ =(