Heyyyyy,
just procastinating from all the studying hahaha
so let's make this blog alive again.
Updates.
So as you all have known, I was assigned for hosuemanship in Kluang for 2 years, and due to the recent COVID Pandemic, my hospital in Kluang has become a Covid centre, hence they are relocating all the housemans to different different hospitals around Johor. So, I've been re-assigned to HSAJB. =)
At first, I was super scared and worried, Kluang has been a real comfort zone for me. Although shit happens , although Kluang is Kluang, although it's far from home, still, people still like me here, I have good collegues and bosses here, staffs are generally nice. So, shifting here is really a big deal for me. Anyhow, to my surprise, things are considerably good.
My new apartment is really cool, I have my own room, with air cond hello hahaha, and i stayed in 24th floor, nice.... not o mentioned fully furnished, and I have 2 great housemates. It's real fun. Plus, in JB, it's a city, they have everything ok. But of course, cost much more la.
Workplace wise, yes, people are nice. But OMG the hospital is quite old to be frank, so hot and stuffy, I'm already sweating standing an hour in the ward.
Anest department here, specialist are nice, they are super helpful and supportive, and teaches you every free moment they have <3.<3, not every place like that okay, MO also super nice la, no seniority what so ever ok, why so different from other postings one hahaha . Learned a lot in a short 3 weeks time. Don't even mind getting extended in this posting because you really learn.
On the other hand, I'm in Surgical posting as the final posting. God. Everyday is like a roller coaster ride. Like when you are not that smart also then people start querying like which poster are you y u so stupid something like that la. ew. Whatever la, pls just let me finish this posting peacefully.
Then the question popped up. Float in Kluang or JB >.< aiyor.... Seriously, I have no reason to go back to Kluang really, that place has nothing I miss of, if in this hospital, of course I'll get to see more, learn more, but then I'll be alone. Although in Kluang, I'll be alone also lah, but at least got my batchmates i guess. In JB, have to start over building connections and some sort. So, in a dilemma here, my heart says 70% JB 30% Kluang hahaha
Sidenote, so fucking annoying i spent so much here hahahhahaha, every week my credit card like few hundered, few hundered. stressssss. XD
Kay, guess next update will be in forever, bye haha
Ehhhh just remembered, relationship wise
still single eh wtf hahahaha
Read back through the posts, we really have gone through a lot. You've recently start asking me out again , ask me to give you another chance, after 1 year.
But my thought is like, no need la, why do we wanna give each other another chance. Doesn't work means doesn't work, plus cheating means ... is it even forgivable ? lol.
Although a little part in me feels extremely guilty for not giving you another chance, after so many years being together maybe yes you deserve a second chance, which made me hate the idea more , because I'm not the one that wronged you but why do I feel like so when I refuse to give you another chance.
Can exes become friends? NO, my answer is NO. Unless you still have hope to be back tgt with him, if not , just delete him out of your life. Because no matter how long it passes, if he is out with another person, there will still be heartbreak, although you don't love him anymore. Sorry, but I'm those that lives on jealousy hahahaha.
Guess that's it.
