22/11/2015

今天一起做有意义的事，让我觉得，有你在真好 �� 至少 journal 做了一半，不然不知道要拖到几时。感觉比起别人，我们真的好很多。就是你让我觉得我不像废人。虽然你 basic microsoft words 都不会用，hehe，不过算了啦，知道自己比你懂，也是很开心的。�� 晚安宝贝，今天有爱你多一点点����

Minor Thesis. Journal. Article.

So, all forth year students are required to write this stupid journal and if it is useful for us I would never complain, and if only we are given sufficient time. I mean, I don't know lah, everyone's topic ( and by everyone, I meant only 15% of our faculty students) have all these chio(cool) topics that only few will understand what it really meant and I'm with this stupid quadriceps and hamstring study. But how can I complain right ? I picked it myself lol haha !  

And so, we were asked to do the first three chapters of the minor thesis, and then now they ask us to change everything into a journal. Actually, I don't mind lah, really, BUT ! they make it sound so serious like, no cheating, no plagarism, all your format grammar bla bla bla must be correct, if not your journal wont be published in this althea thing and you can't proceed to the co-assisstant thing. Er.... okay ~~~ LOL and for this thing we had to attend this workshop for 7 FREAKING HOURS ! 

LAME !!!

and then I guess we are slightly lucky, because compared to the local students,they had to like translate everything back into English, if I were in their shoe, if I were to translate my thesis into bahasa Indonesia, and then knowing the risk of not having the journal published, I might just break down and cry first lol. 

And the SOCCA is coming AND THEN WHY FAMILY MEDICINE SO BLURRR THEY SHOULDN'T CHANGE THE EDUCATION SYSTEM FOR US OUT OF A SUDDEN.

(instead of case studying, IDK what are we doing, honestly, from the start of the semester, the reason I go to all perseptoran(tutorials) is to sign attendance and leave, like sitting there, asking myself the very same question," what the hell am i doing here?") 

DAMN BLUR =.=

and then everything is coming, it's like a freakin tsunami, so many things to do, you saw the wave coming from far away, but the only thing you can do is to stand there, waving at the waves,and wait for the waves to hit you, 

Cried for nothing

I don't know why I just cried, like seriously it is so stupid.

How it happens:

Because recently, there is some issue going on in the inhabitants downstairs. its so stupid, its just a change of roommates but its like .... aiyo, i don't know why guys make it look so complicated. And then apparently there is this guy that stops talking to everyone because he is so mad of the issue that he starts to ignore everyone.

So, I don't know why I felt like maybe... just maybe I can make things better. So apparently when he stops talking to everyone, today, I offered him a piece of melon when he walks by. He stares at me and walks off. And then, my boyfriend, sitting next to me, starts laughing and saying that I'm stupid.

I'm not sure it's the humiliation or the disappointment that tears start flowing out. I think it's both. I mean, there is never ever once that people gives me a cold stare and walks away like that ! I mean, why people do that ? And then when I start to calm down, my boyfriend starts scolding, like "Why are you acting like that?" "I told you so !!!!!"

Stupid

JUST TO ALL THE GUYS OUT THERE FYI,

IF U SEE A GIRL CRY, JUST SIT NEXT TO HER AND KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT, OR MAYBE JUST HUG HER AND KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT, NOT START SCOLDING SHITS OK, IT DOESN'T HELP BUT MAKING IT WORSE. THIS IS STUPID.

A piece of advice to the girls :

Don't expect people to treat you the same as you did. Maybe what you did is an act of kindness, but maybe to other people, it's not. So don't be so stupid put yourself out there, so vulnerable, so easily hurt by people. Just protect yourself and that's all.

Don't be so silly thinking maybe you can make things better OK. Sometimes it just doesn't work that way. Don't say I didn't warn you !