Pediatrician

Pediatrician - a child doctor...
the long years of being in school, including 4 years of college, 4 years of medical school and at least three years of an internship and residency

8 years of studying + 1.5 years diploma...
can I??
hmm... more or less 11 years,
then i will be like 28 yeras old...
then only i start working...
Do you think it is ok??
pls, i need comments...
I myself think it is fine...
Comments please....

Lost in the middle of no where...

Help me !!!

OMG,
Help me fr onlining,
help me from wandering aroud,
help me form day-dreaming,
help me from accumulate all my works to the last minute....
help me to concentrate on my studies....

My God !! I feel so "san fu"...
Im wasting my time....
but i cant resist...
i wanna study,
but just cant concentrate...
i wanna study...
but im bloody lazy...
aiya, help me la....
lol, feel like cryin man , sure will regret one day der...
ish ish ish, stop !!!
stop ask me to trade things in rc...
dun play country story ler...
dun discuss bout fb game !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anugerah Bestari today....

well,
erm, today seems okay to me....
nothing special happened,
but met many seniors last year,
haha.... to me they don't look any different,
yalar, oni a few months, how to change??

今天看到他,和他的回忆再一次的来到我的脑海里,是甜蜜的,让我感受到,原来曾经拥有也可以很美好...当我们互望着对方,我希望他会走过来,和我就像一般朋友聊...but too bad, i need to go back...
so next time lar...

There is so many things i wanna say,
so many things i wanna express out,
but i couldn't
things around me gave me a limit,
a limit to tell me what is suitable to say
and what is not
because the pursuit for saying the truth,
might cause injuries...
heartbroken??
yeah, something like that,


i wanna leave this place,
i wanna go somewhere i really belong....
i don't know where is it,
but i seriously don't feel my presence here...

Sometimes i really hate myself,
well, im not happy,
because i don't like the school...??
The school gave me so much memories...
there is sweet n there is sour...

Tommorow is Anugerah Bestari

Haiz, This year is totally diff already...
For the past year,
Pn Chua will sokong me der, haha....
well, that year im only in form 2,
she gave me the "president" place in choir,
N then the next year im pen. setiausaha under Pn Dhana....
N last year im nothing under En Ramli, but i don't blame him,
because he doesn't know me, haha... nvm
N this year im nothing under Pn Ghandi.
Because she said i already have post in Rumah Merah...
I have nothing to do but to accept,
well, this was few months ago already...
so no nid to mention,

N today im in front choir team,
The team once is under me...
Now is other ppl's team, not mine already...
Once so close,
Now already far away from me....
Once im the one who guide them,
Now it is other ppl's turn...

today, on our rehearsal,
im in the choir group, will be singing tomorrow,
actually i prefer playing the piano,
but since Py wants also, n she said she will contra in the team,
I also dun have a choice anymore,
Yes, i can quit....
but , nope.....
i don't have the courage.....

And i told myself,
Fine, this is my last year,
anything will do,
i know i can find somewhere that i belong....
but not here...

A SEGI Comp.

This is the segi comp i mentioned few blogs ago...
well, yes it is a failure...
because teachers don't let us participate,
they thought that we are not ready enough...
well, but i think we were,
too bad, too late,
even the SEGI ppl say the same thing,
haiz, i wasted 1 week for this thing,
and it came out meaningless...
i guess this is how fate works...

And then both of them(teacher n segi ppl) ask me if i understand the situation...
To Segi (Mike):
You asked me if we were still friends? I said yes....But how could i say no? What is the point of saying no?Can i get back the qualifications to the comp.?I really wanna say that i hate you ! but how? it isn't going to benefit anybody... Make you feel remorse... please la ! Who we are to you, if u ever feel remorse, it will only last for a few sec..... Have you ever thought of our feelings? Maybe a few sec, maybe not ! And you are telling me study is important right now... wth ! pointless....

To Teacher (wonderland) :
You ask if i understand the situation? I said yes, nevermind ....so, what else do you want me to say? Yes i mind,im angry....same goes here, it doesn.t benefit anybody.... So , the only thing to do is to keep quite and act like you dont even mind...You just shake my shoulders and said hope you understand to end up this thing. If things really go that easy, life would be meaningless..... What should you do? Sigh.... I don't know...


Since it has ended, i have nothing more to say...nothing worth to be mentioned...
No more means no more...
eventhough you put 99% of hardwork, the 1% of fate can pull you down enough...
Thanks for making me undersatnd this...

Dissappointed !

haiz, teacher sya wanna call off the segi competition...
weeks before, do you know how high my hope was ?
N from cloud nine i drop to hell !
y is this happening to me?
i reli sacrifice my whole week for this thing !
y ? y ?

Sked Sked Sked !

2morrow is the last practise for the segi thing,
we haven't prepare anything yet!
2morrow is the last day, 1st practise.
my god, stressful !

Alif (my group member) wants me to dance Muzik - 4 minutes and Gee - SNSD...
OMG, dance, i reli dunno la....
do u no when is the last time i reli dance?
KINDERGARTEN !
N hw old i am now?
16++ !!!!!!!!
shit !!!
sked la,
i no i cant dance as sexy as them der...
shit shit shit !
huhu !!!!
stress, wanna cry !!!
god help !!!

Confess.......Apologize

I am sorry,
to all my friends.......
For all these years we studied , cried, laugh....2gether...
I may not be a very good friend...
During this years ....
I may have or accidentally hurt some of you....
I sincerely apologize to all of you...
For my...mistakes i have made....

To : Joyce....
I know i have been an idiot once,
hurting u so many times,
im sorry,
i didn't mean to,
just i had never thought of that....
im such a jerk, don't deserve to be your best friend....
but luckily,
You found the right one now,
feel happy for u !
luv u, always there for me....

To : Jasmin
hehe, sorry for not supporting you that day....
psps, just sked to pok zhui....
haha....ur reli a great friend...
coz we can discuss bot dramas...
haha...>.<

To : Pui Yeng
To my smart n pretty angel....
well, u have been looking stressful recently,
although u r not saying anything...
im sorry....im not there for u
when u need or nv need me ...
for one time..l. i misund. u,
dun wanna tok bout it,
anyway , im sorry, haha
luv u !


best fren!
i love u alll 4 eva !!!

School got ghost?

oh well, i dunno...
haha, but then something happened at school today...
erm , the 1st period today is chemistry...
so we're working on an experiment....
n then suddenly, someone shouted on the 2nd floor.
Out of curiosity, many of us went to hv a look, except me!
coz im very obsess in the experiment... haha....
so, nobody tell anything yet...
until someone said that it is histeria...
something to do with malay evil spirit...
wow... dunno what to do...
n teacher ask us to stay in class only...
so we waited for the latest info... haha
n then not long after that, heard screaming again....
means that this thing will spread la...
lolx, n then suddenly in the chemis lab, 2 ppl crying suddenly...
so, teacher put the malay prayer on the speaker...
then after recess it became better...
OMG ! BECOZ OF THIS, I HAD 5 PERIODS OF CHEMIS, Means....
3 hours n 30 minutes !
haha, oh well, better than sej lor...
haha

A very embarrasing day !

OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!1
this is the "very" embarrassing day in my life...
omg omg!!!
ok, it started like that....

so i stayed back at school...
and then Ezzah(my classmate) want me to keep her keys for her...
An when i got back,
i only realise that i forgot to give her back her keys...
omg, and then im at home already !

so i kept calling everybody !
none of them answered my phone !!!!
stupid, n luckily i called joyce's 016 number...
only i can find her, stupid !!!
n the thing is, b4 i called lim,
i tried to call daniel(ezzah close friend)...
n i nv realise that there is 2 daniel in my phone....
omg!!!!
n then i called the other daniel (jin zhen)......
omg, funny!

Me: Hello, Daniel.This is (my full name)Are you at school?
Daniel: Ya, im in class....
Me : oh, is ezzah with u?
Daniel : Ezzah ??
Me : Ezzah ruzaini...
Daniel : im jin zhen ...

N no need to say hw i replied la, haha, funny n embarrassing wei !!!!!!!

I KG

I slimmed down by one kg....
can u believe it!
my god, damn happy!!!!
haha!!!!
n y is this happening?
because i skipped lunch this few weeks...
i dunno if this is the reason...
if it is, then it reli works....
but i dont skip it in purpose,
i have no choice.......but anyway...
this will only last till this week, i hope...
hehe...
ok, but then my waist.......
hmm.....hehe, fat ! haha....
carbohydrates love my boddie.......haha

Scrabble Comp.

Yeah,
last Thursday my school gt scrabble competition for "language week" !
so, yes, i participated,
with crygnus n pui ee....
well, as i never played scrabble quite long...
coz im not in scrabble club this year...
so, im also worried...
hehe, 3 rounds all completed in a day...

1st round i battle with joyce...
my god ! our marks spread little only, make me so nervous... haha...
and then 2nd round i played with a form 2/3 girl...
and 1st time in my life i got bingo !!!
n i dun even no if that word really exist, just trying my luck...
but she never challenge, n i safely played through the game with 100++ spread,
coz, she is also a beginner,

Then 3rd round i played with a form 3 girl also i think...
n she is also a beginner,
so , she never challenge me also, but she is also good...
coz our spread only 60++,

N so our Group gt 1st place! haha,
n i get 3rd for individual,
nv wish more already...
haha... its lucky enuf for me to achieve something like that,
thank god ! heheh....