UNPAD Day 73 - SOCCA !

SO today is the so called socca exam...
it is something like an aural test where the cases you study previously,
you have to present it ,mostly about basic science,
so i get this obesity case, which should be very easy to score one !
and i just passed at the boudary line...
what the helll !!!! i don't know what happen...
maybe... maybe my presentation is not smooth enough or it is not in order...

Maybe i was waiting too long , the quarantine time is like 6am-2pm....
and for the whole time i was revising 6 cases again and again,
i can't believe i forgot some important points....
i hate myself, i hate my brain....
y ?! and then everyone was scoring so wonderfully...
and then that makes me hate myself even more...
so useless....

and then this is the only chance that u can pull up your cgpa,
coz other exams are hard to score...
sigh ....

I should just go for a mathematics degree or whatever....
not here studying a medicine degree...
i just wasted my mom's money,
I wasted my two months here scoring this kind of results ...

and then...
i called my mom ( she called me actually =P)
and she said its fine, i don't wanna stress u out...
damn, i really felt so disappointed, why couldn't my memory be as good as the others...
this is just so sad =(

UNPAD Day 72 - EXAM DAY 2

So today was CRP exam....
some kind of exam that i dont get what's the whole point of involving computer =.=
this is super meaningless cause it will end up the same giving us handouts too...

anyway, the interesting part is...
you are under quarantine from 7 to 11....
DOING NOTHING ! they don't even let you study ...

then, during that one hour exam...
you have completely no idea what are you suppose to do...
and whatdoyouknow ! there is 15 minutes left....
this is really super awesome !
haha !
yup, and then, before you knew it, there goes the hour, there goes your paper, there goes your marks....
sweat... haha !

UNPAD Day 67 - afraid

I'm afraid that one day , I'll be like her...
To survive in the same room,
Means I'll either just be a turtle and act deaf, or fight back...

Fighting back means, you have to go more extreme in order to win,
Means all the words you use must be even more stronger,
Means you don't have to care about anyone else feelings...

That is so bad,
I never wanna be someone like that ...

Sigh....

UNPAD Day 66 - ANATOMY !!

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I had never love anatomy so much in my life before !

haha !

OMG, i wanna chop the books into pieces la ... haha ...

so today was lab , and we get to see body parts and organs ~~

first, i wanna mention....

actually the smell of the formalin is not that bad , 

but seriously ur eyes couldnt take it, 

it will start tearing off ur eyes you know ...

much much much worse than onions !

secondly, 

exam is next week ~ this is so cool !!!!!

i meant the opposite of course,

yeah , haha ... 

hv a good day !

UNPAD Day 56 : SHUT UP !!!!!!! >=(

Some people just doesn't know how to keep their mouth shut !
every single time ! what the hell ! if this keeps happening, I might murder one day ! damn stupid...

Every single time ! DOESN'T SHE REALISE THAT I AM NOT HAPPY WITH ALL THIS THINGS !
OR SHE ACTUALLY DON'T GIVE A DAMN ! ATTENTION SEEKING IS THE PRIORITY !!!!

things that is not necessary to mention then just keep your mouth shut la ! this kind of people is like very afraid that the war wouldn't happen ! They must create CHAOS !!!!!!!

stupid ! STUPID !! STUPID !!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't get how these people think !

As a roommate, shouldn't you like support your roommate, or like respects people's privacy larh !
who is on the phone, what time they called , who I'm talking to , what i effing do ! WHY MUST U CARE AND GO SPREAD AROUND LIKE YOU ARE DAMN AFRAID NOBODY KNOWS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You know, people who suicide because of rumours right ? This is all caused by this kind of people you know ! Damn pek chek right now ! you know how i'm feeling ?!

Sometimes she gossips about people,no, not gossiping ! is commenting people in a very unkind way ! I don't give a damn about how people is doing ! why must she comment and must ask people to agree with her !!!!! OMG ! I'm already trying very hard to control myself for not cursing in this post !

oiyo, I dunno if I can take this anymore ! I wanna shift out ! I want my own room !!!!!! damn damn damn stupid !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OR, how to talk to her, someone teach me >< damn stupid ! It's not like I can talk also....
ah!!!!!!!!!! i dont know how to explain this condition, right now, i only feel damn pek chek !!!!!!!

UNPAD Day 48 - Guys and Girls II

So, haha , today really got many feelings to express out ><

Even with the guy I very seldom hang out with , also got rumours saying we are together....
(most probably didnt even berduaan before also)
sweat, what kind of place is this?
what kind of freakin place is this >.<

And then there is my friend, lets call him SH, he just rejected a girl yesterday...
I seriously feel so sorry for her...
kesian ><
if its not because rumours start saying that both of them are mended together,
maybe she wont even start thinking that there is a possibility between them...
and hence she wouldn't suddenly confessed when she saw him eating dinner with another girl and she felt the urge to do something...
and she wouldn't kena reject, she is a good girl lorh, kind and sweet.... pretty also mar ...

stupid guys here la ! only like all those "yan leng san choi zheng" one ( translate : beautiful face with a perfect body curve)...

then ... this gave me an inspiration, =P
to never be affected by rumours...
NEVER !
funny lorh, there is a chinese saying " ai qing you xi li, shui ren zhen, shui jiu shu le !"
(translate : in a love game, you will be the loser if you start being serious or if u start to care)

UNPAD Day 48 - Guys and Girls

so what is so big deal about guys and girls ?
different sex cannot become friends is it ?
different sex must be couple ? must love each other is it ?

y ar?
i'm just a little close to a guy named YK...
he has a girlfriend in Malaysia and so ?
It's not like I'm gonna snatch him from his gf or wanna seduce him or wanna become the third party or whatsoever larh ! WE ARE JUST FRIENDS !!!!!!

sometimes people joke about us , i can accept la,
I just take this as a joke.

and then out of a sudden,
my roommate come telling me that I shouldn't stick too close with him la and whatsoever shit...
and then she said even one of her indonesian friend asked her whether I'm together with him or not...

and even YK friend's also keep on reminding him that he still has a girlfriend in Malaysia...

Until this part, I know what you want to say ...
Maybe you take people as friend people don't felt the same way ?
Maybe he really wants to cheat and stuff ....

No lorh ! we are like 19 already okay ...
I know what is right and wrong, so does him...
We freaking know that we are just friends....
Why so serious ?

And now, it's because he was worried that people might say something bad to me,
and his friends start warning him and stuff,

we space ourselves and distant ourselves from each other...
a little sad la, just rumours...
just this kind of people's mouth ,
just people gossiping about us...
we have to distance ourselves...
It's not like we did something wrong also  !!!!!

I dunno man, then there is this girl,
I know she kind-hearted la, she came and talk to me this evening,
she told me "I thought I wanna talked to you about you and YK, did yeewen (my roomate) told you about the stuff?"
then i said yeah, she told me, nothing one lorh ~ and then i walked away, in a kind way la !
MEANS RIGHT...
THEY EVEN TALKED ABOUT THIS AT MY BACK !

really super beh tahan lorh ! hate this freaking much ....