Pediatrician

Pediatrician - a child doctor...
the long years of being in school, including 4 years of college, 4 years of medical school and at least three years of an internship and residency

8 years of studying + 1.5 years diploma...
can I??
hmm... more or less 11 years,
then i will be like 28 yeras old...
then only i start working...
Do you think it is ok??
pls, i need comments...
I myself think it is fine...
Comments please....

Lost in the middle of no where...

Help me !!!

OMG,
Help me fr onlining,
help me from wandering aroud,
help me form day-dreaming,
help me from accumulate all my works to the last minute....
help me to concentrate on my studies....

My God !! I feel so "san fu"...
Im wasting my time....
but i cant resist...
i wanna study,
but just cant concentrate...
i wanna study...
but im bloody lazy...
aiya, help me la....
lol, feel like cryin man , sure will regret one day der...
ish ish ish, stop !!!
stop ask me to trade things in rc...
dun play country story ler...
dun discuss bout fb game !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anugerah Bestari today....

well,
erm, today seems okay to me....
nothing special happened,
but met many seniors last year,
haha.... to me they don't look any different,
yalar, oni a few months, how to change??

今天看到他,和他的回忆再一次的来到我的脑海里,是甜蜜的,让我感受到,原来曾经拥有也可以很美好...当我们互望着对方,我希望他会走过来,和我就像一般朋友聊...but too bad, i need to go back...
so next time lar...

There is so many things i wanna say,
so many things i wanna express out,
but i couldn't
things around me gave me a limit,
a limit to tell me what is suitable to say
and what is not
because the pursuit for saying the truth,
might cause injuries...
heartbroken??
yeah, something like that,


i wanna leave this place,
i wanna go somewhere i really belong....
i don't know where is it,
but i seriously don't feel my presence here...

Sometimes i really hate myself,
well, im not happy,
because i don't like the school...??
The school gave me so much memories...
there is sweet n there is sour...

Tommorow is Anugerah Bestari

Haiz, This year is totally diff already...
For the past year,
Pn Chua will sokong me der, haha....
well, that year im only in form 2,
she gave me the "president" place in choir,
N then the next year im pen. setiausaha under Pn Dhana....
N last year im nothing under En Ramli, but i don't blame him,
because he doesn't know me, haha... nvm
N this year im nothing under Pn Ghandi.
Because she said i already have post in Rumah Merah...
I have nothing to do but to accept,
well, this was few months ago already...
so no nid to mention,

N today im in front choir team,
The team once is under me...
Now is other ppl's team, not mine already...
Once so close,
Now already far away from me....
Once im the one who guide them,
Now it is other ppl's turn...

today, on our rehearsal,
im in the choir group, will be singing tomorrow,
actually i prefer playing the piano,
but since Py wants also, n she said she will contra in the team,
I also dun have a choice anymore,
Yes, i can quit....
but , nope.....
i don't have the courage.....

And i told myself,
Fine, this is my last year,
anything will do,
i know i can find somewhere that i belong....
but not here...

A SEGI Comp.

This is the segi comp i mentioned few blogs ago...
well, yes it is a failure...
because teachers don't let us participate,
they thought that we are not ready enough...
well, but i think we were,
too bad, too late,
even the SEGI ppl say the same thing,
haiz, i wasted 1 week for this thing,
and it came out meaningless...
i guess this is how fate works...

And then both of them(teacher n segi ppl) ask me if i understand the situation...
To Segi (Mike):
You asked me if we were still friends? I said yes....But how could i say no? What is the point of saying no?Can i get back the qualifications to the comp.?I really wanna say that i hate you ! but how? it isn't going to benefit anybody... Make you feel remorse... please la ! Who we are to you, if u ever feel remorse, it will only last for a few sec..... Have you ever thought of our feelings? Maybe a few sec, maybe not ! And you are telling me study is important right now... wth ! pointless....

To Teacher (wonderland) :
You ask if i understand the situation? I said yes, nevermind ....so, what else do you want me to say? Yes i mind,im angry....same goes here, it doesn.t benefit anybody.... So , the only thing to do is to keep quite and act like you dont even mind...You just shake my shoulders and said hope you understand to end up this thing. If things really go that easy, life would be meaningless..... What should you do? Sigh.... I don't know...


Since it has ended, i have nothing more to say...nothing worth to be mentioned...
No more means no more...
eventhough you put 99% of hardwork, the 1% of fate can pull you down enough...
Thanks for making me undersatnd this...