I'm 23

At this age,
I  just wanna get married, have kids, make cardboard box castle and dress them as prince and princesses, and bake all day, how sweet life would be, but no, because 4 years ago, I have to choose medicine , and now, I'm not graduated yet ! What in the world !

Final Socca !

A week plus to socca, damn scared right now,
How can they put our socca in the first day,
When we spend most of our time writing journals and waiting for doctors !!!
Where got enough time to prepare!
Yor, damn scared =(

Last socca tho ...
Mixed feelings ...

Btw, socca is an aural test to test your knowledge on what you have learned so far abt the system, and for me, it is Tropical Medicine and Family Medicine. One is all about infection, one is about ... basically everything lol

22/11/2015

今天一起做有意义的事，让我觉得，有你在真好 �� 至少 journal 做了一半，不然不知道要拖到几时。感觉比起别人，我们真的好很多。就是你让我觉得我不像废人。虽然你 basic microsoft words 都不会用，hehe，不过算了啦，知道自己比你懂，也是很开心的。�� 晚安宝贝，今天有爱你多一点点����

Minor Thesis. Journal. Article.

So, all forth year students are required to write this stupid journal and if it is useful for us I would never complain, and if only we are given sufficient time. I mean, I don't know lah, everyone's topic ( and by everyone, I meant only 15% of our faculty students) have all these chio(cool) topics that only few will understand what it really meant and I'm with this stupid quadriceps and hamstring study. But how can I complain right ? I picked it myself lol haha !  

And so, we were asked to do the first three chapters of the minor thesis, and then now they ask us to change everything into a journal. Actually, I don't mind lah, really, BUT ! they make it sound so serious like, no cheating, no plagarism, all your format grammar bla bla bla must be correct, if not your journal wont be published in this althea thing and you can't proceed to the co-assisstant thing. Er.... okay ~~~ LOL and for this thing we had to attend this workshop for 7 FREAKING HOURS ! 

LAME !!!

and then I guess we are slightly lucky, because compared to the local students,they had to like translate everything back into English, if I were in their shoe, if I were to translate my thesis into bahasa Indonesia, and then knowing the risk of not having the journal published, I might just break down and cry first lol. 

And the SOCCA is coming AND THEN WHY FAMILY MEDICINE SO BLURRR THEY SHOULDN'T CHANGE THE EDUCATION SYSTEM FOR US OUT OF A SUDDEN.

(instead of case studying, IDK what are we doing, honestly, from the start of the semester, the reason I go to all perseptoran(tutorials) is to sign attendance and leave, like sitting there, asking myself the very same question," what the hell am i doing here?") 

DAMN BLUR =.=

and then everything is coming, it's like a freakin tsunami, so many things to do, you saw the wave coming from far away, but the only thing you can do is to stand there, waving at the waves,and wait for the waves to hit you, 

Cried for nothing

I don't know why I just cried, like seriously it is so stupid.

How it happens:

Because recently, there is some issue going on in the inhabitants downstairs. its so stupid, its just a change of roommates but its like .... aiyo, i don't know why guys make it look so complicated. And then apparently there is this guy that stops talking to everyone because he is so mad of the issue that he starts to ignore everyone.

So, I don't know why I felt like maybe... just maybe I can make things better. So apparently when he stops talking to everyone, today, I offered him a piece of melon when he walks by. He stares at me and walks off. And then, my boyfriend, sitting next to me, starts laughing and saying that I'm stupid.

I'm not sure it's the humiliation or the disappointment that tears start flowing out. I think it's both. I mean, there is never ever once that people gives me a cold stare and walks away like that ! I mean, why people do that ? And then when I start to calm down, my boyfriend starts scolding, like "Why are you acting like that?" "I told you so !!!!!"

Stupid

JUST TO ALL THE GUYS OUT THERE FYI,

IF U SEE A GIRL CRY, JUST SIT NEXT TO HER AND KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT, OR MAYBE JUST HUG HER AND KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT, NOT START SCOLDING SHITS OK, IT DOESN'T HELP BUT MAKING IT WORSE. THIS IS STUPID.

A piece of advice to the girls :

Don't expect people to treat you the same as you did. Maybe what you did is an act of kindness, but maybe to other people, it's not. So don't be so stupid put yourself out there, so vulnerable, so easily hurt by people. Just protect yourself and that's all.

Don't be so silly thinking maybe you can make things better OK. Sometimes it just doesn't work that way. Don't say I didn't warn you !

Half past Sem 7 !

yeah, time literally flies, why you go so fast ?! I haven't enjoy enough, and then there is exam next week. ALREADY ?!?!

As I mentioned before, we get to go to clinic visits twice a week to find for patients. And honestly, I learnt a lot in the process. Well, before this, I have this thing about clinic doctors, I don't like them because I thought they are kind of unprofessional but this experience proves me wrong. Like some places may not be that advance to have a hospital and here comes clinics to help those people there. Yeah, really not bad, and over my expectations. hehe....

and then there was my birthday *shy*
a really great night well spent
although the food is so so but ambience still ok lah
haha !

le gang 

le gang 2

ma girls =)

my man =)

ma girls 2

I'm freakin 22 now  ! when will I get married?! LOL haha ! 

I guess that's for now, tata ! 

Updating life before becoming a pre-coassistant

I'm in semester 7 now, which will be the last semester before entering my co-assisstant life. So currently in Tropical Medicine, and next week will be the beginning of life working in clinics (the locals called it puskesmas). I wonder how will it be.

Life has been great to me so far. Just came back from KKNM (which is where we have like a super camp for a month with 20 other people from different faculties and live life in a small village and trying to help villagers improve their life ). I was in Wangkelang, Majalengka. In that month, I met new people, I felt another kind of living, I learnt a lot from everyone around me, like seriously, in the beginning I really complain to everyone about how I don't like the place and all but in the end, I really learned a lot. And, it was an opportunity to bond with the girls, I really felt a lot closer and I felt more belonged, if you know what I mean. 

Then... yup, so far so good =) and hope it remains that way. 

another set of memories that will be hard to be erased from my life =)