Xia Xue !

lol, yup, another post today,
kinda active recently, too free at home nothing better to do than blogging ! XD

So recently I was addicted to this Xia Xue guide to life videos on YouTube.
From ep 1 two days ago until now I'm at ep 113 XD

They said this Xia Xue is a famous Singaporean blogger, and hence I went to visit her blog,
but I felt nothing special also, just a normal blog where she post about her life,
and she has heavy make up which makes her look so pretty in pictures.

But when I start watching her videos right ,(I forgot what makes me want to start XD) , but anyway my opinion on her was that she's real, straight forward, not that jia jia kind of lady lorh !

I don't think I wanna elaborate anymore, feels weird describing someone you don't even know XD

my point is, go watch her videos during free time la, I'm sure you will enjoy it ! XD

Told my MOM !

yeah, it's a huge step I did today.
Still can't believe I did that.
Dei, commitment ! haha ~

So how it happened was,
I were in the kitchen and my mom's cooking.

And then randomly I said " Ma, I wanna tell you something, and this needs a little bit of courage."

Haha ! I wonder what's in her mind when I said this.

When the first sentence is out, I really feel like giving up la, suddenly all the courage like gone for a moment.

But then I thought since already decided then just spit it out la !

So I asked, " What do you think if I had a boyfriend?"

And she responded, "Who? Why suddenly wanna paktor?"

And then she said, "as long as you don't do anything wrong and it wouldn't influence your studies then ok larh."

haha ! and then it's a little awkward to stand in the kitchen anymore, I guess I'm just afraid if suddenly she shoot out a question and then I don't know how to answer.

The funny part was, after dinner, she logged in to her Facebook profile, open my profile and ask me to point out who he is.

Why would I want to do this in the first place was because the issue I mentioned in the last post makes both of us a little unhappy and hence I decided to do this to cheer him up. Because this was his idea at the first place okay. 

BUT SUPRISINGLY, when I told him, his first reaction was "WTH". Damn him, later see how he explain ! haha !

I mean, I, as a girl la, I would appreciate this kind of acknowledgement.
Like you tell your friends, your family,
at least it's a way to show how... proud, how grateful you are when we are together.
It's not like I'm hideous or what also right, I'm totally presentable (chehwa ~ XD~)
In some ways, I think this is some kind of respect also lorh~

Maybe guys have different perspective or anything.
I don't know.

Sleepless night

Yesterday night was miserable,
I can't even sleep well.

So many thoughts running through my head.

The major thing was about the air ticket la,
but I decided to go back early no matter what.
I mean the money I just saved from this, I can spent it on clothes and stuff for my new room
and the super expensive medical books.
He said he is willing to pay for my air ticket,
But I wouldn't let him do that la seriously.
I know he is my boyfriend, I don't know la,
I mean, I don't want it to look like I'm taking advantage of him,

Plus, it's not like I cannot afford the new air ticket.

I guess I'll be there a week earlier from the others with my ex roommate.
a little stupid but whatever la
rather than sitting here complaining about all these stuff,
It's better I cherish all the moments I had left with my family,
and my lovely room, my lovely house <3
that silly bro ! hahaha !

I seriously can be unbelievably sampat at times la !

I don't act my age most of the time XD

well and that concludes everything la,
I really don't wanna be unhappy about al these stuff anymore...
so smile ~~~ =)

Going back early

Felt like whole world is damn grey right now you wouldn't believe,

What happened was,
I booked my flight ticket back on the 26th Aug.
And now it happens that class starts on the 2nd Sept.
And SUPPOSINGLY he should accompany me back on the 26th despite that everyone is going back on the 31st.
He said his sister insist that he goes back later.

Actually I shouldn't be angry. I know, actually I understand the whole situation, I told him that I'm not also.
But after that video chat, I am. Lol, I don't know if this is angry or disappointment.
I bet he doesn't even know that I'm sad right now.
It's like I don't feel like replying him, actually I don't feel like doing anything,
I'm just staring blankly at the ceiling but figured out I must find a way to spit out all these negativity hence blog ! I don't even have the mood to tanam all my farmville crops right now stupid >.<

I should have booked a new ticket few days ago when it was still RM169. Stupid Uni cannot confirm the date one. Now gg ady larh ! now became RM 300+.

Stupid shit don't know go back one week earlier can do what.

fine la fine la !!

A day out with him ^^

So he came all the way from Johor to meet his friends, 

and reserved Monday for me.

So we went Mid Valley.

where I felt the aura there a little weird,

I can't help but feel that people might see us as an eloping couple. 

hahaha !

why ?

coz you know on weekdays midvalley will be filled with you know, 

businessman , office lady.... and people like that. 

hmm, anyways, in conclusion, day well spent 

tata =D

I'm A Meanie !

Today, I broke someone's heart again.
Why I kept doing all these stuff one >.<

K so what happened was,
There is this one guy, let's name him Joker.
For all of you who know who Joker is... ( yeah, it's him and yes  I still keep in touch with him)
Since I came back, he has been trying to keep in touch with me.
through FB through phone, but I never replied him.
I guess I just want all these to end.

I don't know, to be honest,
I thought we wouldn't keep in touch anymore since Form 5,
and to my surprise, he will still chat with me in FB and sometimes SMS me.

And then when I'm leaving to Indonesia, I thought we will end there,
but again to my surprise, we still chat but very seldom in FB.

And you may ask, why don't you just ignore him from the start.
Maybe I'm just a little soft hearted to do so.

But since i came back, I literally ignored him.
But then at last i still went back to square one. I can't tahan all the guiltiness.
I mean, all he tried to do was to care about me and this is how I treat him back =.=

but then things are still settled though, he said he will stop all these things.
and the conversation sounded so much like a breakup dialogue !

and then out of a sudden he posted "Thanks 4 everything.u really light my world up b4 this.u r my special one.now n always :)" 

And then i don't know whether i should click like or not but I guess I'll just ignore lol

Sem break !

Currently on sembreak ,
As much as I've love doing nothing ,
It's actually kinda meaningless and I started to think that im wasting my time.

I mean, im at home, doing nothing...
Shit >.<

Very stupid.
So many people struggling to live a day more and im here wasting time.

I've tried to find for jobs with HIGH income ! I mean like part time teacher perhaps, but I guess all tuition centers have enough teachers ady.

And then actually I have sufficient time to get myself a driving license but then because of the fees issue I decided to postpone it again.

And I thought I might get to travel somewhere during the break but once again because of the fees issue I guess it's not happening also. God suddenly felt depressed. This is the only two months break in this five years, and then it will get lesser and lesser and I guess it's even harder to plan a trip and hence I think... After my five years course I'll be busy working, all those hectic life might not give me a chance to travel around.

Ok stop stop stop !!!

Enough bye >.<